Kath~KATHERINE-|-ENIREHTAK~htaK

2009-12-10T03:58:00.003+08:00

ranters rant rants.

exactly.

now, how long have i not been blogging? who gives a shit hahahaa
Been bored (and stressed weeeeeehweeeeeeeeeeeeeh over sch works)
and still kinda performing some sort of escapism when i resolve into
this bloggin thingy. (yes, i hav a few secinds left before goin back to hell)

was just thinkin.. women, oh women.
without their clear mind and trying to rationalise their actions all the time
clearly building sandcastle truth over the benefit of doubts,
just because benefit of doubt gives you security, blurring your vision of reality
hoh women.

2009-09-08T03:10:00.001+08:00

Have you ever not pursued something because it had to be perfect? There is a fine line between doing things with excellence and being a perfectionist. Perfectionists become argumentative with God. They refuse to step out in faith and obedience because they care too much about what others think if the results don't turn out perfectly.

2009-08-30T16:25:00.002+08:00

males bgt. apalagi kalo akhirnya emang gitu.
manusia ga akan berhenti sampe mereka sadar sendiri
kadangpun ada ulah dari individual yang menyembunyikan
jati diri sampai2 orang lain ga bakalan tau apa diri yg
sebenernya.

dan sekarang dice had been rolled out
game has been started
urusan mereka lah.
haahahahhaa
manusia.

2009-08-02T13:26:00.002+08:00

ga tau knp bisa begini
otak manusia dan napsu manusia itu mengerikan yah
ga mau kecewa tapi akhirnya pun kecewa
trus disimpen di hati aja
mungkin beda budaya, mungkin beda smuanya
mungkin diam bukan pilihan terbaik
tapi udah pernah ngomong dan hasilnya bikin sakit hati juga
apapun yg gw lakukan, smuanya serba salah
mungkin mending diam dan suffer quietly?
ga ngerti, ga pengen tau, ga pengen mikir
lalalalalalaaaaa

2009-06-17T05:39:00.003+08:00

ahahahhaaaa
finally i remember that i have a blog,
or use to own this space for my rants.
alalalala~
so now maybe i shall use up the same space again
to rant rant RANT!~
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAA

Oh well, i laugh at any times,
maybe i should join Joker to death?

Anyanyway. hmmmmm...
There are just certain things which I have been
observing from the people around me
with regards to women.
On how oppressed women sometimes feel the
lack of power upon themselves to change their
life. Its not because they're stupid, but they're stuck
in the situation where they cannot move out
for the sake of everyone and most of the times,
their extended families. When offered with choices,
women usually is more willing to give up huge part
of their lives in exchange with happiness of the mass,
only to find out that at the end of the day,
the mass doesn't really care about the women.
Such exchange value is imbalance and thus,
women being women, the more sensitive being, will
accomodate such issue until to the point where they
blow up... or die...
It is unusual to see sufferings in the eyes of the
women and therefore life is just sucks for them, u know.
No matter how far their achievements go, their carreer,
kids' achievements, you name it, but the only thing that
they are lacking of, is the mutual understanding of such
situation and someone who can share or even lighten such
burden.

I dont see it in you.

2008-12-02T16:00:00.005+08:00

Today's Prayer
Dear God, Sometimes I find it hard to manage my time well. There is so much to do. Please help me to prioritize my daily activities to align with your will, your plan, your purpose, and to do what is most important as well as the little mundane tasks that must be done. Help me to know when to say "no" to projects and requests that come along that would overwhelm me or take away from what you want me to do. Please help me to always love and care for those lives you have entrusted to my care and circle of influence. In Jesus' name I pray, amen.

Adorned by the Doctrine of God
TGIF Today God Is First Volume 2, by Os Hillman
12-01-2008

"Exhort bondservants to be obedient to their own masters, to be well pleasing in all things, not answering back, not pilfering, but showing all good fidelity, that they may adorn the doctrine of God our Savior in all things" (Titus 2:9-10 NKJV).

The island of Crete was known for its corruption and many false gods. It was also the center of the jewelry trade. Thus, the use of the word "adorn" in the above passage may have been intentional by Paul due to this fact.

Titus and the believers in Crete were challenged by Paul to adorn their lives with the doctrine of God. Whenever you are challenged by an environment that is corrupt and ungodly, you have an opportunity to let your light shine before those in that culture. The greater the corruption, the greater your light can shine. It is not a time to flee, it is a time to shine brighter.

Paul addressed five unique things believers could do: 1) Be obedient to their masters. They were to submit to their authority structures, 2) Be well pleasing in all things. This meant doing their work with excellence, 3) Not answer back. They were to handle conflict with wisdom and courtesy, 4) Not pilfer. They were not to steal, but model integrity, 5) Show all good fidelity. This meant demonstrating loyalty and dependability.

Do you find your environment difficult to work in? The answer is to live to glorify the Lord in the midst of your culture. The way you live your life will be viewed by many others. An industry survey revealed the average person will come in contact with 300 people over the course of a year through their work. What better opportunity to let your life be adorned by the doctrine of God. St. Francis Assisi agrees: He encouraged believers in his day to "preach the gospel always and when necessary use words."

2008-12-23T16:22:00.002+08:00

some interesting insight that Julia had given me...:

do not love others like how you love yourself
because you tend to weigh your love for yourself
love others like how Jesus had loved us
who went down to Earth
and was born as a human
who died on the cross
to reedem our lives

2008-10-27T16:51:00.003+08:00

His Vision, His Way, In His Timing
TGIF Today God Is First Volume 2, by Os Hillman
10-27-2008

"Then God said, 'Take your son, your only son, Isaac, whom you love, and go to the region of Moriah. Sacrifice him there as a burnt offering on one of the mountains I will tell you about'" (Gen 22:2).

Have you ever wanted something so bad that you would do almost anything to get it? Have you ever gotten so close to fulfilling a dream only to have it disappear right before your eyes? Such was the case for Abraham.

God promised Abraham that he would be the father of many nations. He would have a son. However, Abraham panicked when Sarah aged beyond child bearing years and tried to help God by birthing Ishmael through Sarah's servant, who was not the promised son. Eventually, Isaac was born, who was the promised son.

However, God tells Abraham to sacrifice his only son on an altar to demonstrate his obedience to God. Truly, this is one of the hardest instructions given to one of God's people in all of scripture. It compares only to the Heavenly Father sacrificing His own Son. God intervenes and allows a lamb to take his place, symbolizing the Lamb of God as a prophetic sign of what is to take place in the future.

God often births a vision in our lives only to allow it to die first before the purest version of the vision is manifested. This has happened several times in my own journey. Oswald Chambers observes, "God's method always seems to be vision first, and then reality, but in between the vision and the reality there is often a deep valley of humiliation. How often has a faithful soul been plunged into a like darkness when after the vision comes the test. When God gives a vision and darkness follows, waiting on God will bring you into accordance with the vision He has given if you await His timing. Otherwise, you try to do away with the supernatural in God's undertakings. Never try to help God fulfill His word."*

When God's vision is finally birthed, nothing will stop it. Our job is to allow God to birth His vision through us His way and in His timing.

2008-10-12T12:56:00.002+08:00

last night i had a dream that i told my dad i probably have to cut my
working hours cos my school is busy and he told me no. In my dream,
he told me that he wont be sending money except school fees and rent
and i still have to get the scholarship.

this morning i woke up feelin super shitty becos i kinda feel the dream
were so real.. but its not real, rite.

and just a few minutes ago, he called me to check wther i still have enough
money, whether my overpaid sch fees will be refunded. Then he told me
not to spend too much money. economy is bad, stock market is worse and
I told him its ok if he wont send me money in the near time to come becos
i still have job rite now so no worry.

then he sort of accidentally told me that he had sent money a few days ago
to my bro's account. he told me i can ask from my bro. So i ...

kath>> so how come my bro nv said anythin?
dad>> cos i told him not to til i talk to you
dad>> if i sent it to your account, you probably will spend more cos you know
dad>> you have money now

what a very thoughtful dad. he knows i will spend more once i got money
from him. right. thanks. i probably can eat proper meal if he send me money
i can probably buy something proper
i can probably concentrate more on my school work rather than squeezin them
between works on weekends
i can probably sleep more
i can probably have less stress

thanks dad, you're the best
i am spending a lot of money rite
you probably wants me to spend close to nothing per month

2008-10-11T15:21:00.002+08:00

today i was surprised by how God works super instantly
He resolved it within a daaaaaaaaaaaay
nono, actually half a day..
and i was getting one of the greatest thing that i can hear from
someone unexpected. thanks man~

2008-10-04T01:44:00.000+08:00

eli, eli, LAMA SABACHTANI??

2008-09-19T00:36:00.002+08:00

I can confirm with you that I am used to get things in bulk,
just like americans buy things at walmart
exactly the same!!!! woohoooohoooo~~~~~~

I went to IKEA after 3 months of delay, trying to buy
that freaking cabinet and GUESS WHAT...
the cabinet wont fit Zack's car. We've got owned by IKEA.
funny joke, i love you IKEA. Thanks for the joke.

Then, after last midnighty's event,
I went to sch taking the skytrain (equivalent to MRT)
and 3 securities were standing waiting for your fateful tickets
and yesh! thanks emily carr, thanks translink, you guys made
awesome deals by not granting us the FREAKING U-PASS!
whichever countries doesnt have equalities in public transport
for their tertiary students? Opps, i mean, whichever 1st and 2nd world
countries... so Canada can no longer be considered 1st world country
eh? whahahaha...

Anyway so i struggled to buy that freaking ticket and
while i shoved my bag down the crampy train, the water bottle lid
opens and FLOODED my whole bag, wetting EVERYTHING
and finally, robbed me away from my sinful indulge, IPOD
So, au revoir Ipod, may you be happier without me
joining the entourage of my camera, wallet & handphone
Oh, my hard disk was drowned too, although it has covers on

moral of the story: bring metal school bag with metal compartment
to ensure the safety of your stuffs inside. Fabric can be deceiving sometimes
whahahahaahaa
to come up with such hypothesis... what a kath.... ahahahahaa

And ppl must be thinking that Im a bitch to be emo for these kind of things
I think im a bitch too
i should shoot myself
hahaha

Well, have to give thanks in times like this rite?
should not be sad cos its not mine to begin with anyway rite?
rite?
rite?
let it go, let it go...
for nothing will come home even if you cry for it
even if you think that its soo painful and fucked
you cant do a thing about it
just move on and go and get new ones
why so weak?
why so girly?
why so loserish?
dont be a sissy, just move forward

or maybe just a gentle reminder to not see material as
a proof of life, or so... Thanks for the slap, God.
Nice one.

2008-08-14T14:29:00.004+08:00

Confirming Decisions
TGIF Today God Is First Volume 2, by Os Hillman
08-13-2008

"Plans fail for lack of counsel, but with many advisers they succeed" (Proverbs 15:22).

Confirming major decisions through the counsel of others is one way God protects us from poor decisions. This process is designed to confirm direction for which we are seeking confirmation. Paul was sensitive not to get too heavy-handed in the confirmation process though. He offered advice to others but was not the enforcer of their decisions. "And here is my advice about what is best for you in this matter"(2 Corinthians 8:10).

The requirement for efficient administration frequently requires single points of decision-making. Where there is willingness and trust to receive input, there is also humility, faith, and grace for God to work His pleasure in His servant. Where there is unwillingness, the opposite is true.

There have been times in my life where I have felt strongly about a certain issue only to receive feedback from those close to me which revealed that I was not accurate in my assessment of the situation. I have learned to yield in such situations, trusting that God is working through those in whom I am accountable.

The scriptures encourage us to seek advice and counsel from other Godly people who share the same values and goals that we have. "Listen to advice and accept instruction, and in the end you will be wise"(Proverbs 19:20). "Make plans by seeking advice; if you wage war, obtain guidance"(Proverbs 20:18).

Peace of mind is another important confirmation requirement for making decisions. If you do not have peace about a decision, you should wait until God gives you peace. This does not mean your decision may not have some tension due to the faith aspect of it, but deep down you should have a peace that it is the right decision. "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus" (Philippians 4:6-7).

ah....

i need to have stronger faith whahahahahhaa.. you know.. sometimes its so tempting to go astray... but i'll slap myself and resist the temptation. Decison finaliser still has to be Him, never me, never anyone else.

2008-07-29T05:35:00.002+08:00

i dont understand how people can be so needy
how to be needy, not to be over-needy and
not to be under-needy <-- too self sufficient?
interesting random thought, seriously...
though im still unsure of why i wrote this crap
ghahahahaaha

anyway.. tmr will be art history mid term exam
sian sian...
most of the artworks shown (the 85 slides) are
made when the artists were high or something...
were drunk or something.. or somewhat under
some sort of influences...
and I'm pretty sure they're not really sure of
whether they know what they're talking/drawing/
creating...
haiyahyayayayaayaya....

2008-07-21T19:28:00.001+08:00

cici nelly is the best!!!

ahahaha, i cant stop laughing while reading her blog
she is a reaaaal good blog writer
not only peppered with randomness
she has substantial content that enlighten and encourage growth
growth of what? just check it out yourselves

(in indonesian, btw lol unless you google translate it and it will
sound sooo weird and nonsensical (direct translation cases))

lalalalaallala~

moral of this (and last) week's experience:
"give thanks" regardless..

2008-07-20T11:01:00.001+08:00

aku mo mati
hahahahhaha

i just realised that i lost my fuckin camera
its gone!!!!!
it has followed mu stupid phone and my stupid
wallet, running away from me
into the hand of another (bitch/bastard)

you know, i think maybe God is tryin to tell me
that im kinda materialistic.
i over-love my possessions..
so well. when its taken.. whats there thats left for me?
only me and my stupid heartache
so welll.. why love dead things soo much?
hahahahahahaaahaha

2008-07-17T03:20:00.002+08:00

yesterday was th day where i somehow realise that when its time to go,
it has to go.
i lost my wallet and my freaking phone. wahhahahaahaha..
so yeah went to gym, lalalaa, came back and *powerpuff gurl theme*
my locker were tampered. some idiot took off with my wallet and
handphone. From the modus operandi, that fucker was graceful
enough to leave my clothes, bags, books etc. She/ he didnt even take
my thumbdrive, i dont know whether to laugh and it.. or to swear beautiful
words from my mouth.

so anyway, i hope whoever that steal my freaking stuffs could make a good
use out of it... hmm maybe i should be scouting around granville island for my
wallet, dont ya think so? hahaa

2008-06-21T01:25:00.002+08:00

a random day has passed
I actually woke up pretty early (note that my early and
other's early may not be the same time)
It was 10 in the morning lol
Thought my dad would take me to drop off my old boots
for repair but turned out he was too busy and dashed off
somewhere. In the end, I went to watch Fallen Angels
(an oldddd movie by Wong Kar Wai) It was pretty good.
Yota borrowed the tape before from Vanc Public Lib
and I went to his house, eagerly waiting for that movie.
Then we found out the tape was not working. Damn!
hahaha. So well, I bought this one from Hongkong.
Anyway, not going far on that, but it's a nice movie.
Then finished off my ELizabeth. It was an okay movie too,
though i cringe at some scenes. Ah well....

And I had a great spiritual session today. Lol.
Really, Ive never felt this way for such a long time.
It felt like nostalgia mixed with something deeper,
a longing sense, pulling me deeper in the book that
Im reading (given by Jenn), those story illustrations
on the Bible that I've been reading these days,
and towards the lyrics of the songs I was listening to.

Btw fyi,Sonicflood's first album is still so awesome.
I finally get a quiet space for me to listen to it again.
It was like... a time-travel to the old me in 2000
Reading and listening to each sentences, each
lines draws me deeper, into the "first love"
that I'd experienced back then. Some songs would
remind me of things that happened the last time
I was listening to it. How I began to raise up my
hands, crying for more, deeper worship state,
unexplanable. Then I went deeper and comes the
tongue sessions... It was wonderful. Very2 fruitful
feel lol~

Anyway, another thing that I wish to "unload" here.
Sometimes I realise my uncomfortable feel with
fellow christians who loves to create this divine line
of "non-christians". People may not appreciate that
"names" on them. Well its true they're unbeliever but
somehow I still think that we should not divide
ourselves in that way. Sometimes I shrug when I
see them describing "non-christians would never
understand this feeling". I mean, come on lah.
It sounded like we Christians are so up above, the
Brahma caste. Lol. Its not like that.
We are all the same. Human. Paid (on the cross).
Alive, Breathing. Nothing that we owns, they dont
own, vice versa. Maybe the faith and salvation. but
Im pretty sure they will understand things that
we feel once they feel it too. There's no hurry in
being defensive and circling ourselves with this
clear thin lines of "we are holy, we dont do such things"
Where's the love that He has in us that was supposed
to be portrayed through us?

remember someone was saying something
abt being able to accept things outside Christianity;
accepting their existence, but not actually adopting them.
I remember this pastor from New York City, I think
he's Bill Wilson, pretty hated by some of the people
in my Vanc church actually. He spoke to us like we're
stupid and condemned. I was okay with him, since to me,
I know he came from crazily hard neighbourhood...
But maybe not everyone loved to be scolded and
pushed around like we're some lucky bastard whahhaa.
Anyway... he was telling us stories abt some of the kids
he had in his sunday schools, how he had to "smuggle"
one of them from Africa.... This small boy who had
tumour in his mouth, abandoned by his parents at the
roadside, found by one of Wilson's associate and later,
being told that he has no hopes to live. But anyway,
Bill brought him to NY, gt him operated and that boy
still lives til today. I guess accepting that not everything
we want will come smoothly in our lives and not surrendering
to "fate".

Fact is never the truth
For it is just a proven truth

2008-06-15T19:39:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was one of the greatest day in my life, i think
Its comparable to how I felt during my 18th birthday;
the time i felt when i found Crystal Dragon vol 17 in 1
Kinokuniya shelf etc... whatever rite? whaha. but seriously...

Okay, so yesterday I met Jenn. We were colleagues during
my intern days; I was the saikang PA in UDC while Jenn is
the freelance soundman. He's a quite crazy, interesting, fun,
mad, organized, spontaneous etc etc etc and 1 quality that
kept me amazed at that time: He's a brother in Christ too lol
Since we share the passion for harder music, I told him once
about my heartache for my missing SonicFlood cassette.

After 3 years of not meeting him, we met up and he gave me
his copy of SonicFlood; A Sonicflood CD and a Sonicpraise CD.
My gosh, i felt like "Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa"
like that lah, but course you dont do that in public lol
These CDs are like... 9 years old! So rare that I couldnt even
find em in amazon.com etc... And I've been searching for
them high and low, the same way I did for my Crystal Dragon.

Anyway, apart from that, Jenn taught me pretty much a few
lessons as well. He shared with me a book that has a crazy
title.. I was so shocked that he just walked away and bought
me a copy of that book (cos he was still reading his)
Pretty interesting stuffs, im still reading it too..
He reminded me on things that I used to feeel before everything
else seeps in: to be who I am, to be proud of my differences,
to always interact with God, to be considerate but at the same time
not drowned in the crowd.

"When you are a Christian, people will always expect a certain standard
from you, so there is always a standard that you have to keep." I guess
we should not be a stumbling stone for others lol.

2008-06-07T12:05:00.001+08:00

Avoiding Self-Based Faith
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

We live by faith, not by sight. - 2 Corinthians 5:7

Over the years I have run into many businessmen who make the statement,
"Whenever I get things in order in my business, I want to get more involved in ministry."
What are these men really saying? They are saying that as soon as they can get the
amount of money that creates security, they will trust God. They are saying that what
they have been doing to date has not been ministry. This separation of "work and faith"
is common among our culture. We fail to understand that life is sacred to God and
there is nothing "holy" and nothing "sacred" in itself.

I would love to hear one workplace believer say, "I have spent my life in this business.
The Lord has blessed me with great resources. However, now I want to see His
faithfulness in this stage of my life. That is why I am giving away my wealth and trusting
Him to provide for me through new ways." Wouldn't that be a novel concept?
That is exactly what C.T. Studd, the great cricket player in the 1800s, did.
He was reared in a wealthy home, but his deep conversion experience led him to take
actions that forced him to trust God in ways he never had to before. He became one
of the great missionaries of all time.

Whenever we seek to plan ways of ministry that depend on our ability to manipulate
and plan outcome, this is not faith. The ministry that comes from this will be minuscule.
Faith that bears fruit is faith that is born from experience with a living God. It is faith that
says, "I don't know where the next check is coming from. All I know is that God told me
to do this and trust Him for the next step." That is faith that moves mountains and moves
God's heart. God rarely allows His servant to see beyond the next faith step. However,
those who are willing to take the first step and leave the outcome to Him see His works.

Others went out on the sea in ships; they were merchants on the mighty waters.
They saw the works of the Lord... (Psalm 107:23-24).

2008-06-07T11:56:00.002+08:00

Dearest ppl who has nothing to do hence you chanced upon my stupid blog
thank you for randomly reading my nonsense all these years whuahuahua
k this is not some sort of alarming msg abt some blog closure okay
just being random as always

so now im in Hongkong, in this beautiful paradise..
i love Hongkong! though it' has been a while since i've been here for the last time
changed soo much, duh. lol.. and yes.. everything is practically cheap
and i dont have to bargain so much
i hate bargaining
dont have to heart to do so whahahaa
things look beautiful here
everyone tries to look good here
gives me the excuse to look more "nice"
lolololol

2008-06-07T11:48:00.002+08:00

The Training Ground of God
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

Praise be to the Lord my Rock, who trains my hands for war, my fingers for battle.
- Psalm 144:1

David was a man skilled in war. From his days as a shepherd boy to the days
in Saul's army to leading his own army, David learned to be a skillful warrior.
How does one become a skillful warrior?

The only way one can become a skillful warrior is to be trained and placed in the
middle of the battle. It is only when we are placed in the furnace of battle that we
truly learn to fight the real battles. Practice doesn't make you battle ready.
War games won't prepare you for facing your real enemy in the battlefield.
The stark reality of being in the midst of the battle makes us effective warriors.

Simply reading your Bible will not make you a warrior for the Kingdom.
Knowledge without experience is mere folly. Only when you are placed in situations
where there is nothing or no one who can save you but God will you learn the lessons
of warrior faith. This is the training ground of God, which will make you into a soldier
for Christ in the workplace. Consider it to be suicidal faith - faith that says I want to be
dead to anything that keeps me from fulfilling God's purposes for my life. It is when
your efforts can do nothing to change your circumstance and you are at the mercy
of God. These are the real training grounds of God. Do not shrink back from the battle
that God may be leading you to today. It may be a training ground that is necessary
for the calling He has on your life.

If you can trust Him in these times, you'll know that you have gained a faith that will
move mountains and will sustain you in the most difficult of circumstances.
"Praise be to the Lord my Rock, who trains my hands for war, my fingers for battle."

2008-06-01T00:36:00.000+08:00

Watched Narnia with cousins and my youngest uncle+wife
It was pretty much an inspiring movie. really, i dont quite
understand why some ppl thought it was etc wtf wth blah blah
Some scenes really evoke my senses, my faith etc etc
Very2 entertaining but at the same time, the movie reminded
me of God's greatness and perseverance to hang on hope.

2008-05-26T00:50:00.001+08:00

"Be still and know that I am God" (Psalm 46:10) .

Do you find yourself in a place of nothingness? There is a time and place in our walk with God in which He sets us in a place of isolation and waiting. It is a place in which all past experiences are of no value. It is a time of such stillness that it can disturb the most faithful if we do not understand that He is the one who has brought us to this place for only a season. It is as if God has placed a wall around us. No new opportunities - simply inactivity.

During these times, God is calling us aside to fashion something new in us. It is a place of nothingness designed to call us to deeper roots of prayer and faith. It is not a comfortable place, especially for a task-driven workplace believer. Our nature cries out, "You must do something" while God is saying, "Be still and know that I am God." You know the signs that you have been brought into this place when He has removed many things from your life and you can't seem to change anything. Perhaps you are unemployed. Perhaps you are laid up with an illness.

Many people live a very planned and orchestrated life where they know almost everything that will happen. But for people in whom God is performing a deeper work, He brings them into a time of quietness that seems almost eerie. They cannot see what God is doing. They just know that He is doing a work that cannot be explained to themselves or to others.

Has God brought you to a place of nothingness? Be still and know that He really is God. When this happens, your nothingness will be turned into something you will value for the rest of your life.

taken from today's Daily devotional.

my grandma wanna talk to me

hope all goes well tmr

hope things wont go wrong

hope she will listen and open her mind...

2008-05-19T01:24:00.002+08:00

so here i am in indo and i hope i can update this blog on my first attempt
bad connection, baaad baaaad
54.3 kpbs..

so anyway....
crazy things had happened back here...
family feuds and stupid things always happened.
i hope we can move out but it seemed my dad doesnt think so
let him be, anyway.
and some people has been asses... let them be too
mindless dumsters who think that money is thicker than blood
lick that money, damn you.

on the other hand,
beautiful things are happening too
weddings... (though i wont attend both of em cos im gonna do my summer)
1 cousin from each side will have their marriage later this year
1 on 8-8-2008 and the other 14-09-2008
1 of my cousin has given birth early this year so i gt to see her daughter today
my cousin's cousin had a kid too, so i gt to play with the boy just now..
i met my 1st and 3rd aunts today, having great time with the families
and went to my grandma's hse to have lunch and spent some time with her

family is important
it is never not
and for you who never treasure their family
think again
rethink