a random day has passed
I actually woke up pretty early (note that my early and
other's early may not be the same time)
It was 10 in the morning lol
Thought my dad would take me to drop off my old boots
for repair but turned out he was too busy and dashed off
somewhere. In the end, I went to watch Fallen Angels
(an oldddd movie by Wong Kar Wai) It was pretty good.
Yota borrowed the tape before from Vanc Public Lib
and I went to his house, eagerly waiting for that movie.
Then we found out the tape was not working. Damn!
hahaha. So well, I bought this one from Hongkong.
Anyway, not going far on that, but it's a nice movie.
Then finished off my ELizabeth. It was an okay movie too,
though i cringe at some scenes. Ah well....

And I had a great spiritual session today. Lol.
Really, Ive never felt this way for such a long time.
It felt like nostalgia mixed with something deeper,
a longing sense, pulling me deeper in the book that
Im reading (given by Jenn), those story illustrations
on the Bible that I've been reading these days,
and towards the lyrics of the songs I was listening to.

Btw fyi,Sonicflood's first album is still so awesome.
I finally get a quiet space for me to listen to it again.
It was like... a time-travel to the old me in 2000
Reading and listening to each sentences, each
lines draws me deeper, into the "first love"
that I'd experienced back then. Some songs would
remind me of things that happened the last time
I was listening to it. How I began to raise up my
hands, crying for more, deeper worship state,
unexplanable. Then I went deeper and comes the
tongue sessions... It was wonderful. Very2 fruitful
feel lol~

Anyway, another thing that I wish to "unload" here.
Sometimes I realise my uncomfortable feel with
fellow christians who loves to create this divine line
of "non-christians". People may not appreciate that
"names" on them. Well its true they're unbeliever but
somehow I still think that we should not divide
ourselves in that way. Sometimes I shrug when I
see them describing "non-christians would never
understand this feeling". I mean, come on lah.
It sounded like we Christians are so up above, the
Brahma caste. Lol. Its not like that.
We are all the same. Human. Paid (on the cross).
Alive, Breathing. Nothing that we owns, they dont
own, vice versa. Maybe the faith and salvation. but
Im pretty sure they will understand things that
we feel once they feel it too. There's no hurry in
being defensive and circling ourselves with this
clear thin lines of "we are holy, we dont do such things"
Where's the love that He has in us that was supposed
to be portrayed through us?

remember someone was saying something
abt being able to accept things outside Christianity;
accepting their existence, but not actually adopting them.
I remember this pastor from New York City, I think
he's Bill Wilson, pretty hated by some of the people
in my Vanc church actually. He spoke to us like we're
stupid and condemned. I was okay with him, since to me,
I know he came from crazily hard neighbourhood...
But maybe not everyone loved to be scolded and
pushed around like we're some lucky bastard whahhaa.
Anyway... he was telling us stories abt some of the kids
he had in his sunday schools, how he had to "smuggle"
one of them from Africa.... This small boy who had
tumour in his mouth, abandoned by his parents at the
roadside, found by one of Wilson's associate and later,
being told that he has no hopes to live. But anyway,
Bill brought him to NY, gt him operated and that boy
still lives til today. I guess accepting that not everything
we want will come smoothly in our lives and not surrendering
to "fate".

Fact is never the truth
For it is just a proven truth

Yesterday was one of the greatest day in my life, i think
Its comparable to how I felt during my 18th birthday;
the time i felt when i found Crystal Dragon vol 17 in 1
Kinokuniya shelf etc... whatever rite? whaha. but seriously...

Okay, so yesterday I met Jenn. We were colleagues during
my intern days; I was the saikang PA in UDC while Jenn is
the freelance soundman. He's a quite crazy, interesting, fun,
mad, organized, spontaneous etc etc etc and 1 quality that
kept me amazed at that time: He's a brother in Christ too lol
Since we share the passion for harder music, I told him once
about my heartache for my missing SonicFlood cassette.

After 3 years of not meeting him, we met up and he gave me
his copy of SonicFlood; A Sonicflood CD and a Sonicpraise CD.
My gosh, i felt like "Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa"
like that lah, but course you dont do that in public lol
These CDs are like... 9 years old! So rare that I couldnt even
find em in amazon.com etc... And I've been searching for
them high and low, the same way I did for my Crystal Dragon.

Anyway, apart from that, Jenn taught me pretty much a few
lessons as well. He shared with me a book that has a crazy
title.. I was so shocked that he just walked away and bought
me a copy of that book (cos he was still reading his)
Pretty interesting stuffs, im still reading it too..
He reminded me on things that I used to feeel before everything
else seeps in: to be who I am, to be proud of my differences,
to always interact with God, to be considerate but at the same time
not drowned in the crowd.

"When you are a Christian, people will always expect a certain standard
from you, so there is always a standard that you have to keep." I guess
we should not be a stumbling stone for others lol.

Avoiding Self-Based Faith
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

We live by faith, not by sight. - 2 Corinthians 5:7

Over the years I have run into many businessmen who make the statement,
"Whenever I get things in order in my business, I want to get more involved in ministry."
What are these men really saying? They are saying that as soon as they can get the
amount of money that creates security, they will trust God. They are saying that what
they have been doing to date has not been ministry. This separation of "work and faith"
is common among our culture. We fail to understand that life is sacred to God and
there is nothing "holy" and nothing "sacred" in itself.

I would love to hear one workplace believer say, "I have spent my life in this business.
The Lord has blessed me with great resources. However, now I want to see His
faithfulness in this stage of my life. That is why I am giving away my wealth and trusting
Him to provide for me through new ways." Wouldn't that be a novel concept?
That is exactly what C.T. Studd, the great cricket player in the 1800s, did.
He was reared in a wealthy home, but his deep conversion experience led him to take
actions that forced him to trust God in ways he never had to before. He became one
of the great missionaries of all time.

Whenever we seek to plan ways of ministry that depend on our ability to manipulate
and plan outcome, this is not faith. The ministry that comes from this will be minuscule.
Faith that bears fruit is faith that is born from experience with a living God. It is faith that
says, "I don't know where the next check is coming from. All I know is that God told me
to do this and trust Him for the next step." That is faith that moves mountains and moves
God's heart. God rarely allows His servant to see beyond the next faith step. However,
those who are willing to take the first step and leave the outcome to Him see His works.

Others went out on the sea in ships; they were merchants on the mighty waters.
They saw the works of the Lord... (Psalm 107:23-24).

Dearest ppl who has nothing to do hence you chanced upon my stupid blog
thank you for randomly reading my nonsense all these years whuahuahua
k this is not some sort of alarming msg abt some blog closure okay
just being random as always

so now im in Hongkong, in this beautiful paradise..
i love Hongkong! though it' has been a while since i've been here for the last time
changed soo much, duh. lol.. and yes.. everything is practically cheap
and i dont have to bargain so much
i hate bargaining
dont have to heart to do so whahahaa
things look beautiful here
everyone tries to look good here
gives me the excuse to look more "nice"
lolololol

The Training Ground of God
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

Praise be to the Lord my Rock, who trains my hands for war, my fingers for battle.
- Psalm 144:1

David was a man skilled in war. From his days as a shepherd boy to the days
in Saul's army to leading his own army, David learned to be a skillful warrior.
How does one become a skillful warrior?

The only way one can become a skillful warrior is to be trained and placed in the
middle of the battle. It is only when we are placed in the furnace of battle that we
truly learn to fight the real battles. Practice doesn't make you battle ready.
War games won't prepare you for facing your real enemy in the battlefield.
The stark reality of being in the midst of the battle makes us effective warriors.

Simply reading your Bible will not make you a warrior for the Kingdom.
Knowledge without experience is mere folly. Only when you are placed in situations
where there is nothing or no one who can save you but God will you learn the lessons
of warrior faith. This is the training ground of God, which will make you into a soldier
for Christ in the workplace. Consider it to be suicidal faith - faith that says I want to be
dead to anything that keeps me from fulfilling God's purposes for my life. It is when
your efforts can do nothing to change your circumstance and you are at the mercy
of God. These are the real training grounds of God. Do not shrink back from the battle
that God may be leading you to today. It may be a training ground that is necessary
for the calling He has on your life.

If you can trust Him in these times, you'll know that you have gained a faith that will
move mountains and will sustain you in the most difficult of circumstances.
"Praise be to the Lord my Rock, who trains my hands for war, my fingers for battle."

Watched Narnia with cousins and my youngest uncle+wife
It was pretty much an inspiring movie. really, i dont quite
understand why some ppl thought it was etc wtf wth blah blah
Some scenes really evoke my senses, my faith etc etc
Very2 entertaining but at the same time, the movie reminded
me of God's greatness and perseverance to hang on hope.