Arghhhhhhh
*relax-ed*

good job for Gab. lol.
wasnt expecting that
i was quite.. er.... how to say it
amazed and tt gives me sort of ideas on what
would i do for the documentation
whahhaa

and anyway..
we see eye to eye, btu we just didnt know how to
fuckin express em out.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

i can breatheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Syndrome of nosebleed:

+ cant stop staring
+ cant stop thinking
+ cant stop talking
+ cant stop.. err.. okie worrying
+ cant stop cant stoppin

SHUDDUP LAH KATH!!!! SH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(convo ender jiu shi convo ender.. wth i was reminded of the this line)
anyway lalalalaa

today i went to the Vancouver International Film Fest.
Saw big ppl, yeah really big. whahaha
er... went with Lynn, ended up seeing more people.
Interesting day, not good day for some ppl.
Rainy day..
er... what else shall i describe...
oh okie...
went to chillout at BK downtown while talkin some hangout talk

hmmm...
interesting observation today.
its funny how the buddy2 feelin i generated, kinda, er...
how to say it, a bit too much.
okie, not an understandable statement but wtv whaha

"hunger is the best sauce in the world"
i freakin agree to that. whahhaa
it was witty, whoever that created the line, i love yo
whahahaha

and errr.. tmr.... oh wait
before we go to 'tmr''s topic, kinda wanna 'report' on whats
happening. whahahaa
We had shooting on Thursday.
Shooting for that simple 2-week exercise that every group has been
having probs with. mine not spared. whahhaa
Kinda feel depressed somehow..
esp in the 1st week.. whahaa
there he was, my friend, my ally. and he was sooooooooo quiet.
i tried to hint hint hint, but to no avail..
and there they were, the 2 blurries, trying to get their point across
by 'talk cock, sing song, no need to draw' mantras

anyway.... ah yes..
which kinda reminded me of today;s talk by some screenwriters.
if you commit yourself to a project, love it.
hahaha

okie, so, back to production.
It was actually fine, but nobody logged the tape
(cos apparently i did but give up along the way as nobody continued)
nobody thoought abt continuity shots (for diff shot sizes..)
there was no MS or diff angle shots..
only LS and CUs... how... how.. how.. depressing
but well, its done..
ah and yes... veyr random.
it was random to the power of 100

so the next day, i landed at my friend's (ally) house.
And mr dunno-shit-love-to-kaopeh stated that he's home
for whatever-the-reasons are.
but of cos, jobs gt done.. not in the same way i imagined.
but its done (music)
ally gonna edit the thing and i may be checkin it out on monday.
whahaa

sorry ah, very bad patience. only when i know things are done then
i'll be able to relax. whahaha


oh yeah, i realised patterns within people arnd me.
Like,the ally i found... he sorta reminded me of Mud.
very quiet, attached to laobu.
When you dont talk to him, he'll be damn quiet..
And when you talk to him, he'll give the smile (mud's smile)
and they're freakin talented. whahhaa
oh yeah, and he free-walk but we parkour
(me and mud, i mean, and the rest of gayboys)
man.............

i miss those old days
ollllllllld gaying days
of us... parkour-ing at the void deck.
as Shan and Ryce tried to videotaped us doing them...
And then we'll go home with collection of bruises
And i was soooooooo small size last time
GQ still had his nice (my fave) belly
and Joel and Shan would always go home together
and me & mud would catch the same bus (168)
and I'll stop at the seletar camp,
while he continued his way to Woodlands. whahaha

And we would eat in angkeong, or in canteen...
Mud will order his fave chicken rice (halal) and bandung
we would sometimes hang out in GQ's house
just to see them jamming
or to watch parkour vids
which we did every night after sch hahaha

and then the group gt bigger...
seks and glenn and joel and shan and rice and samson and.. err who else?
so nostalgic lah~
we could watch random vids too or play games...
or do work together...
what was the last project we printed in GQ's hse?
the army pattern thingy.. er..... digiess?
oh okie.. GQ did on parkour print...

And every sat is jamming day...
so i would always be up with their new photos.
listening to their new songs...
followin em to the simei industrial park...
and then to east pt to eat lunch.
always at the usual foodcourt which did not have varieties of food

Or we could always hang out as super huge group
at Esplanade
either drawing Boteros, mewmoo outtings, random outtings,
digimaging outtings..... or just random outtings....

would walk from bugis to suntec to esplanade.
and then take funny pics, have dinner and stuffs...
or just hang out... hang out.. hang out....
in studios, in class, in canteen, in labs...
shit! i miss those days

those gaying days...
whahhahahahahahahahahaha

Intoxicating

Intoxicated
the presence of whom i shall not speak of
the smile of whom i shall not think of
the sight of whom i shall not talk of
the beauty of whom i shall not describe of
the.. the... the.....
the intoxication!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


omg!~ whahahahaha
okie. first of all, this is not about female.
so dont get me wrong. whahaha
2nd thing, ah well. human.
cant human feel a bit erhem2.. whahahaha
oh well...~

lalalala~
but nothin new.
same ol boring me
just this makes my day brighter
by a few percent, just like when you press "brighter" for your laptop)

lalalala~

Kalau bisa kukatakan
Kan kukatakan saja
Lirik dan sinar mata
Kutebak siapa yang kau cari

Jika bukan diriku
Maka jadilah kehendakNya
Jadi jangan kulihat lagi
Dengan sorot mata yang sama
Yang terikat terperangkap
Di dalam indahnya jiwa dirimu
Bagai malam tanpa hujan
Bagai air tanpa goyangan
Bagai dingin di hari panas
Bagai hangat di hari dingin

Yang menggetarkan hati ku
Yang sudah sunyi
Yang pernah mati
Tenggelam dalam kekecewaan

Liriklah lagi, wahai sahabat
Kepada sahabat, kepada sahabat
Jangan padaku jika tak Kau berkenan
Tapi genggamlah tanganku
Jika memang sebegitu indahnya
Duniamu, jika digabung dengan duniaku

Angkatlah mataku
Buatku percaya, pecaya, percaya
Pada kemungkinan, keindahan, kesenyawaan
Kita
kita
kita
kita

STORY OF CHIP

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
hi again
whahha must be wondering
"Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh, why this xiao ca bor wanna blog today?"
oh well...
cos.. cos.. cos.... errr.... i wanted to..er.... type nonsense today
whahahahahahaa
gg

Here i am, just finished cookin the weird-taste pasta...
with potatoes, bolognise, ham & chickeeeeeeeeeeen...
and weird milk, since there was no more soya milk,
i kinda use the amway protein milk.
hope nobody die. whahaha..
or if they are gonna, at most only me & bro tts not covered with
BC insurances. whahahhaa lame

anyway, crazy weather today.
was shivering like idiotic kookoo clock.
ah speakin of clock.
this morning when the alarm clock rang,
i jumped over my bed,
tryin to off the bloody noise that could make the whole block gone mad
and guess what...
the lovely long toe nail (i forgot to cut em)
stucked on one of the folds... of my blanket
and *crack* i managed to turn off tt bloody damn thing
and i started to feel pain

went out and saw what happened
nice toe nail.....2 last from right leg.....
gone by 80%
hahaha
NAISH!

So days passes by without me noticing
that i have been here for a month.. or so.

ah welll...
yah pokonya gt deh
yah sejujurnya sih...
ada yang mengganggu di hati
tp blm pasti
gangguan blm kuat
jadi yah udah
kita hentikan sampe sini beritanya
oce?
hehe

hmmm lemme think
i felt and comtemplated about writing this..
whaha
this... this......... urge to write this....
errr this...
errrrrrrrrrr
somethingggggggggg
errr someeeeeeeeeeethiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnng

okie anyway
lets skip the introduction.

talking about reality of life.
sometimes, in a way or another
i kinda observed how people loves to talk or brag about themselves.
its funny how we did all these things intendedly,
accidentally, subconsciously or absent mindedly.
Well i guess a slip of tongue and it'll be gone
but constant repetitions of braggin and sometimes, self-loath,
may not be getting anywhere nearer positive.

sometimes we love to be the centre of attractions
to show how some people may not have it, while we actually have
to let them know that you has history printed on your back
to let them understand about your situations, and talents and so on
so sometimes as much as people loves hearing them
there will be a time where fascinations turn to uglier feel
negative clouds of thoughts may seeped in
things unthinkable of, image assumed of, labelling, branding...

i know its funny cos everyone of us would have these
limelight-grabber periods in life. once or more than once.
we wouldn't know who's going to open the pandora's box
and release the hot air.
ah well

its life
have it there
not have it too many

Ah.. been lookin back at friendster page
It was funny cos i dont really looked at em anymore.
well, not even myspace i can say. ahahahaa

and yes, of course, there are things that i left behind
(eg: all those nice-lookin me in photos hahaha)
eh seriously i looked like a lot of funny things:

tap-dancing aunty <- anton's latest comment
utada hikaru <- makiko's latest comment
so chinese <- gQ's latest comment

eh so waht do i look like? whahahahahhaa

anywayyes, comin back to the topic.
i know i know, relax laaaaaaah
hahaha
I kinda miss.... singapore, i guess. whhahaa
although i stil prefer being here than there.
like, i missed the recent IMD gathering..
all the belated bday celebrations with the botaks
the gaying sessions with the crazy guys
the ns talk-shit kind of things
the emo-sharing times with shan
and hunting time (not boys lah! finding stuffs.. ) with rice
the bitching late-nite (super late) moments with ing2 cing2 bing2
the pukat with ISC
zenobia.. just 1 name to sum up all the lame activities we did whahaha
the upcoming new paper new face.... fashion weeek.....
UDC..... the moneeey (hehehe im so in need to buy lotsa electronic stuffs)
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

eh seriously, poly life's the best whahahhaa
can cry can cry can cry cry cry

but oh well
the path that i chose (which God told me to choose) is definitely
leaving my whole comfort zone thingy
so its either move forward... or move forward