Enlightment Part 1

Lalalalalala~
Today;s work was fun. We had a very small team.
Working with Daniel, Jerome, Louis, Wendy, Lirong & Gavin.
We had Loewe Show in the French Ambassador's place.

So, being paranoid, the sms read "formal. brown & jeans"
although the 'formal' & 'jeans' part were quite contradictive,
i rushed myself to get a freaking formal outfit. And yes. i gt it.

It was fun, feels like cosplaying <- really!
And 1st thing came: i met Ian (UDC's one of the co-director/ producer).
And by 11 am my feet burns from the heels tt i bought yetserday.
by the end of the day.... i really felt like hacking my feet off my legs.
lol. but the show';s quite fun.
i had my dosage of smoked salmon! wohooooooooooooooooo

And yeah...
A list of models whom i wan to do vectors on:
1) antoinette
2) *all-time fave* Leandro
3) Tanja
4) Neda (too bad she's nt around anymore)
5) Robert M <- new hahahaha.. i find his face interesting.. lol.
6) Thiago Mann <- his old short-hair look
7) Zuzana <- redo the old one with better pic
8) hmm.. maybe Henzo as well. whahaa (i freakin love his hair, can we just vector his hair? huhuuuhuhuh <- evil thought khi hi hi hi)
9) Dimas <- k he's nto model, btu he gt tt look

wooooooooooooooooo!
guess i have to invest on cameras now.. whaha
so i can snap snap em and vector2 em. wohohohoohoho~
who wanna be my 'victims'?
wahahaa

Rar!~

ah.. tmr... is another working day.
Today was so hilarious. (ok nvm, maybe its just me..)
was doing xmas video for ci nelly til 4 and so....
was late for ushering..... whahaha. dman cab fare kills me... financially.
and then we went off to eat at cine.
and after which, because of my 'plea' to ci jeanne and cindy on
accompanying me to buy a pair of heels, the FREAKING WHOLE
20 OVER PEOPLE from my church joined in and accompany me.
walauweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh.
scary..its like.. claustraphobic effect i supposed.. erm well. erm.. hm..
and then they were tryin to (jokingly) intimidate me by:

ko charles>> kath, you wanna buy heels ah? where?
anton>> nothing comes free in this world.. so... *smirk*
ko kiki>> katherineeeeeee... where you wanna buy your heels?
ko dave>> ah... next week buy bag yeah?
budi>> heeelsss heeeeeellls...

and many more.... waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. its like..
whataver i choose, they will have to see...
imagine that lil tiny shop called "charles & keith" @ wisma atria
was surrounded by them... and 8 gurls went in to accompany
me, to find for me, and to advise me on which heels to take....
and everytime i looked at the guys outside, they will be like
"cieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..... " and made lotsa noise..

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa......
scaryyyyyyyyyyyyyy..............

whuahua
but anyway. i gt my heels. hehehee.


lame thing:

#1: Paul & Joe
Ci Jeanne>> jo, jo! this is your shop~ (pointing at Paul & Joe)
Jo>> yes yes. come.. come in. u'll get 10% discount
Kath>> i tt u own the shop. for free lah.....
Jo>> cannot cannot. Paul is my co-owner mah. have to ask him 1st.

Ci Jeanne>> we have a "ben & jerry" in church, so where's paul?

Jo>> he;s at home resting...sleeping

#2: Charles & Jeanne
Anton>> ci, ci, Charles & Keith, ci...
Anton>> why nv open rival shop, "charles & jeanne"
Ci Jeanne>> dont want. if i do, it'll be more creative than this
kath>> ce, sell other stuffs as well lah.
kath>> and yeah on one shelf, we will be able to find bible ...
Ci Jeanne>> -.-!!!!

#3: lame
ci nelly>> you guys... are lame...
billy>> lame? this one? (touching lamp post), no i'm not a lamp
ci nelly>> -.-!
anton>> lame? no no, im human being, not lamb chop
mazmur>> lame? to stick stuffs? (lem = glue )
ci nelly>> -.-!!!!!!!!*vomit blood*

#4: numbers
Genevieve>> ci, why 'six' is scared of 'seven'?
kath>>...
Genevieve>> because 'seven' 'eight'(ate) 'nine'
kath>>-.-!

#5: hearing problem
kath>> yeah, so Zeno shall be the sacrificial lamb
ko Charles>> sexy visual lamb?
everyone>> -.-!

#6: Hush Puppies
Handoko>> I saw Budis t-shirt with the word "hush puppies'
Handoko>> and i thought of something new...
Handoko>> instead of laughing loud, when you wan to shut someone
Handoko>> u say,"shhhhhhhhh, woof woof woof!"
Genevieve>> hey!!! i like the ideaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Everyone>> walauweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh *cryyyyyyyyyyy* T.T!!!!!!


moral of the story:
cold jokes are very well loved...by the indos whahaha

Substitute

Hahahaaha. I just found out abt me being a substitute for this
girl when she cant come to work. There's sure be disappointment
in the fact that i'm a substitute. But i'm really2 greateful and
appreciate the fact that she herself told me the truth abt the
background of my employment.

This is the work relationship that I'm looking at. Wahahaa..
Oh well, I still prefer working with clear conscience rather than be
kept in the dark and not being understand why things were governed
these ways.

It made life simplier cos then we dont have to misunderstand stuffs
plus its easier to track down where the roots of misunderstanding
may be if it happens. Agree everyoooooooooone?

Anyway, this makes me free to go sch for thurs & fri.
And this made me free tmr, so i can take my bro to the hospital,
i can do my church stuffs and i can go for the prayer <- in my 5 years
ever since they started this prayer meet, tmr shall be my 1st time.
wohohohohoohohohoho~

gdnite everyone...

Ah yah... bought "perfect girl revolution" til vol 9.
pls faster... faster.. faster.... come out with the 10th, while ouran the 9th.
i cant cant cant waaaaaaaaaait...

*phew*

In between smiling and frowning and having no clue at all (heh?)

Haha. Lalalalalalala~
Today was a weird day. It's really2 weird.
Anyway, before i continue my rattle,
wanna wish every human being on this galaxy
Selamat Hari Raya Idul Fitri. Mohon maap lahir & batin.
yeah.

K.. whahaa.
Listening to 'maliq & d'essentials' is FREAKING DANGEROUS.
I just recon their songs... woken up... some scary monsters inside me.
damn why??????????????????????? arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!~
It feels weird, maybe i was reading too much the new manga
that i just picked up (well, not so new cos i read the scanlations before)
I feel like.. Sunako.. weirdly yeah. whahhahaaa

lalalalalalalalalAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

Maliq oh maliq why are you singing those
crappy love songs???????
Stop singing crappy songs ans sing rock!
lol...
any rock also can!!!! granite, lime.. watever!!!
whuauahuahauaua
lol


k im just crapping. hihihihi

How days had passed without me knowing

Haha. Just read what the p3 members wrote on my peer assesment.
Quite... i would say... sting-y (not stingy k) on the feeling.
Well its kind of... painful to have my faults rendered out on a piece
of documents... hahahaha

but anyway.... yeah.
tmr will be working again. its weird. surely be weird.
but i hope things will be alright.

And seriously Im getting sick of me being confined within me.
How i wish my courage to speak out and talk on the phone
resurface. whahahahahahaha
(listening to this weird music... interesting. lol. whaha)

The Prestige

Whoah i love the movie. Seriously. It takes time to understand
the 'british' accent and yeah... michael caine's accent was kind
of weird, but ANYWAY it was a great movie~
The concept was interesting, to think of such a 'bold' scientific
thingy and magic. And DAVID BOWIE.! whaha.
I tt the guy really looked like him, but "ah. cannot be lah, David
Bowie rarely act in movie.." lol. and true enough, its him.
hahaha.

Bale & Jackman were poweeeeeeeeeeer. Johansson as well. hehe.
(heh, Bale & Jackman sounds nice for a company/ brand name)

Sound interesting didnt it?

Anyway... yeah... interesting thing happened today. Huhuhuhu.
Its just like *flaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaash* and i know i could not
afford to flunk this 'crap'. I certainly dont want my stupid problem
to affect a lot ppl. huhhu.. so yeah. since i saw/ heard abt something2
i guess its time to end things. Disguising under the pretense that
nothing noticed etc will only create deeper hole in the sinking sand.
lol. yeah. the normal-kath-talk-super-crap-and-codetic-entry session.
Hahaha.

Why is it that human can be attracted to each other.
Under the category needs, cant human just be satisfied with the term
"friendship, close friend" etc etc...
Why these kind of crap resurfaced after so long?
Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
If we're not close enough to the person, how could we gather up
the courage to say that "i think i like that person".
Isnt that the biggest crap we're ever heard in human mankind?
And why is it that the dying heart beats again.
This is sooo crap. whahaahaa...
Pls just euthanize these feelings so i wont be bothered to look around
And be affected by things that happened around me.
And things will not go far before it become hand-able.

Haiyah....
Wanita..wanita..
repot yah jd wanita...
haiyah....

YOU KNOW IT WHEN YOU THINK YOU DONT KNOW

Hueh.. sometimes life is just to weird. Well, i mean, unique.
And yeah. ok. both.

I was out of job. My bro had a broken wrist.
These situations' kind of pulled my moral down.
It seriously destroyed my common sense of what i can do
to make things better. I could just blame everything to stuffs
which, in the end, are situational.
I know why was like that and
i couldnt be bothered to blame it all around.
Yet Yesterday's sharing during cell group kind of make me
realise why was I there.
Things are planned.
Pre-planned waaaaaaaaaaaaay before I experienced it.

It's not like everyday you'll out of job and your brother broke his wrist.
And you had to take care of him, and you stayed in your uncle's place.
And you had good food, and you did the videos pretty smooth & well.
And you went to the cell group, you shared thsi with your friends,
And the sharing that nite gave you exactly the verse that reminded you
not to seek 'the world', but seek God first.
And your bro had behaved better. And you kind of get your job back.
And you went to church to do the video again.
And you joined the rest for a prayer meeting.
And you're prayed and be reminded again that you were given the
authority by God to claim what's yours.
And you missed dinner with the rest.
So you accompanied another girl to get her stuffs.
And when you went back, your colleague sat infront of you.
So he tell you what happened that led to your comeback.
And when you're home you realised that all these were planned.

isnt it?
Well if i wasnt late 45 minutes and if the stylist didnt sent me home,
I wouldnt be there at home when my bro's sch called
to inform his broken wrist.
I wouldnt be there with him in the hospital.
Neither would i be able to accompany him and take care of him.
Neither would i be able to attend cell group, meeting with ce Nelly,
prayer with the girls...
Nor tommorow's church service.
And I gt my job back after a week.

I dont understand how God design all these,
but He's really a true-blood designer..
He knows design very well and He knows how to make his
design works and bloomed.
Interesting way but now I really learnt my lesson.
Let Him be in control, because human mind are only
limited to whatever knowledge he/she had received
or presumed; because God can work wonders and if
you let Him take the control, things will turn out unexpectably.

The Nameless Monster

Once upon a time, there lived a nameless monster.
The monster was dying to have a name so badly.
So the monster decided to set out on a journey to find itself a name.
But the world was such a large place.
So the monster split into two and went on to two seperate journeys.
One went to the East and the other went to the west.
The monster that went to the east found a village.

There was a blacksmith at the village entrance.
"Mr.Blacksmith, please give me your name" said the monster.
"I can't give you my name" replied the blacksmith.
"If you give me your name I will jump inside you
and make you stronger in return." said the monster.
"Really? I'll give you my name
if you can make me stronger.", the blacksmith told the monster.
The monster jumped inside the blacksmith
.The monster became Otto the blacksmith.
Otto the blacksmith was the strongest man in the village.
But one day he said:"Look at me! Look at me!"
"The monster inside of me has grown this big!"
*Chomp, chomp, munch, munch, gobble, gobble, gulp*
The hungry monster ate Otto from the inside out.

The monster then went back to become a monster without a name.
Even though he jumped inside Hans the shoemaker....
*Chomp, chomp, munch, munch, gobble, gobble, gulp*
He went back to being a monster without a name again.
Even though he jumped inside Thomas the hunter.....
*Chomp, chomp, munch, munch, gobble, gobble, gulp*
He still went back to being a monster without a name.
The monster then went to a castle to find a wonderful name.
Inside the castle, there was a very sick boy.
"I'll make you stronger if you give me your name" said the monster
In reply, the boy told him "I'll give you my name
if you can cure my illness and make me stronger."
So the monster jumped inside the boy.
The boy became very healthy.

The King was delighted.
"The prince is well! The prince is well!" said the King.
The monster became fond of the boy's name.
He also grew fond of his life inside the castle.
That's why he endured even when he became hungry.
Every day, even when his stomach became very empty, he endured.
But then he became so hungry....
"Look at me! Look at me!" said the boy.
"The monster inside of me has grown this big!"
The boy then ate his father, servants, and everyone.
*Chomp, chomp, munch, munch, gobble, gobble, gulp*
Because everyone was gone....The boy left on a journey
He walked and walked for days.....

One day the boy met the monster that went west
"I have a name" said the boy.
"It's a wonderful name."
And then the monster that went west said..."I don't need a name."
"I'm happy even if I don't have a name."
"Because we're monsters without names."
The boy ate the monster that went west.
Even though he now had a name....
There was no one left to call him by his name.
Johan.It is a wonderful name.

Heh. this was a story within a story. Taken from a story inside the

manga (/anime/upcoming movie) Monster. Very interesting story.

Phsycological thriller. Woohohoho.

Anyway each time im in depressed situation, this story

came up to me...

"look at me! Look at me!"
"the monster in me has grown this big!"
~Monster

Illogical Spiritual Devastation

Haha. As im freaking devastated by double shit-blows that I'v
just gt, i'm kind of reminded of some 'moral of the story'.
Blame it on my arrogance but yeah maybe I'v placed God behind
and asked him to 'watch my show'. So He decided that I'm too
arrogant to live my way and kinda let things happened for a sole
purpose: submission.

Imagine losing your job and having 1 brother broke his wrist within
24 hours.. Is that mad or... maddd?

hm.
tts all i can say.
im tired.

Mood: devastated

hi.
my name is kath.
and... whad's my name again?
Okay, if my name is kath, how sure can you be that I am kath?
Or is there anyone by the name of kath?
or does kath exists at all?
seems to be a hard question, i supposed.
What is kath?
Nothing can define kath.
Kath can define nothing either.
How kath is kath?
Well its hard to measure kath cos kath is technically not present.
It is neither smelt nor heard.
It is lighter than the 24dm cube of air.
And it can only be felt by supernatural powers.
So clinically speaking Kath doesnt exist.
How do you know that Kath is present?
Kath will cause slight irritation to the eyes and to the nose.
Throat may be inflamed sometimes.
And ears my experience slight deafening sound.
To remove Kath from the air, simply press ESC.
go to add/remove program.
and restart your system.

hahaa.

walauweh. this is freaing lame. whahhaa.
am i haze/program? whhahahahahahaa
lol
.nvm.
gdnite everyoneeeeeeeee~
kalalalalalalalalaa

Imac had gone mad

Dear all, i had a freaking big headache right now.
Imac tried to be stubborn and crashed its CPU.
I can only say, "aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh!
you freaking Imac! What the hell?!"

haha. anyway yeah. Today we had a grp of Nigerian
ppl visiting the church. Loved themmmm..
That guy, who was preaching... he was sooo charismatic.
Gohoho., and tt lil girl.. kawaiii nee


Time wasnt on my side today. I had to do these things rite aft service:
1) draw for Gladys...
2) shouted for lunch together...
3) meeting with ce nelly
4) rushed to meet feny

fun lah. of cos fun. but demandingand tiring as well.
whahaha.
anyway... i am seriously pissed with mac.
but im kind of erm.. well.. positive abt my mac.
since i had laid hands and prayed for it. whahahaha
yeah yeah yeah.
trar!

Whoaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
my nose was blocked at LAST! Great, wrong timing!

Anyway, today's show was cancelled (heck no one told me earlier),
Sat & Sun i'm free! (yeeeeeeah) and... sad to say, no incomre lah.
haha. nvm. its just money. lalalaalaaa~

Saiyukiiiiiiii..... at last, after 2 years doubt of buying it... i bought it!
I bought the last volume of gensomaden saiyuki at Kino (by mangapop)
Freaking stabby in my heart (and purse, of cos), but i just love Hakkai too
much to stop myself from exploiting mself. whahahhaa. yeah~!

Today worked a while, met the gurls and went to east coast park to have a
session with Ablazers & pagem-bugem + china ganglands + 2 viets.
Hahahaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. Tiring. speaking chinese is tiring cos it uses up my
brain cells and i kept on saying weird wrong grammatically weird words and
sentences. so as to let you know, many had been laughing at my chinese,
english & even indo (ok, and singlish too). so i suck at languages oke?
But hey at least its okay, there 4 languages at my hand now whaha.
whahahahahaa.

And i realised that i almost couldnt understand what Ce nelly was typing
abt in her turning jap bulletin, which made me feel sooooooooooooo
low japanesely. haiyah...... 1/2 a year's study wont get me faaaar lah.
Its not even surpasees the basic, man!!!!

And yeah so i had been oozing myself with scanaltions. And i have to say that
most of teh stories wwere, like.... u know, so shoujo manga (cos they are!)
bu soem are quite believable. I like the fantasy interetsign story by Bisco Hatori.
(the ouran high mangaka). She did one abt werewolf, vampire & a girl. The chara looked
like Tamaki, Kyoya & some random girl (no, no, not haruhi). hahaha.
but it was nice seeing guys cried. hehehehehe....

I think i have some weird fetish towards crying guys, guys with loong hair,
guys iwth chiseled jaw and long hair, guys with black short hair & specs,
guys with curly/ way hair. bishoneen guys. notify me if you're one.
And i'll stick a "kathg, pls divert your attention to something else" stickers all over your face.
whahahaa (and hair, i supposed so)
Its just the sense of excitement seeing artwork by God. hehe. dont you think so?
(ya kan, rin? ya kan rin? whehehehehehe)
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ok. i think kath has been blank in her mind and outtta her mind.
pls do forgive.
she's gonna log off now.
and continue with her fetish on scanlations..
and maybe someday she will reveal those guys she spotted on mangas & modelling world.
for display. whuahauhauaha
(yes she's mad. someone called woodbridge! nowwww! heeeeeeeelp!! arghhh!!!
she took a knifeeeeee!!! <- yeah rite AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA)

so drama. hahaha

Oh yeah. just remembered this one.
Last night was mesisng up with the old greeting cards, postcards & bday cards.
I found that over the years, many2 ppl loved me. hahaha
it was so touching and 'rain' started to pour down. Even those who shunned me
these days, when i read back those stuffs. They were just so LOVELEEEY~.
hahahahaa.

ARRRRRRRRgh!!!!!

3.31.. Gj, freakin slow. -.-!
C+ for vid ed was quite a blow. erm ok. to be honest,
freaking mind-blowing business to me.
Apart from that, i'm quite ok with everything.
a bit 'sad' for 3D chara cos i was expecting more.
But yeah, i know i had lotsa 'faults' so i had to cver em up
with the editing of cam movements.
So yeah so whad!
Anyway, ganbatte Kath!
The world will spin with or without your presence.
So why not make the world spin the other direction.

(heh i'm talking tooo much)

must be the 'after-effect' of reading too much
mind-blowing scanlations & watching too much
mad videos, apart from re-doing 5th original's MV
and supposed to be doing Nothing Changes' editing.
And tommorow I'll be starting work.
Madness but yeah..

Just when i thought i like slacking, work comes back.
hahahaha.. life is just a funny thing. So much slacking that
i dont even know when is the results announcements.
I think I'm just... outside the normal realm.
Not too sure if its good or bad, but something like this
kind of 'wake me up from the shithole i was in lately' so yeah.


hahaha.

SUSAN'S BDAY (last week)

haha.. these are the photos.... gt it from Ce Jeanne...

The big question comes... Where is SUSAN?
Ans: finding mother for favour to take the photo (haha)
and yeah so we just take one w/o her. hahaha

Now the 'real' one... Susan is da gurl~ ahhaaha

I really loved Susan's aunt's hse. hehe. niceeeeeee... soft lighting
(too dark though)
and nice flowery pottery furniture. hehe.
and of cos... nice photogenic Zenobia who failed deleting her pic.

The next day... Victim and the... abuser. haha.
Jo & Zeno with the "ape neeeeeeeh?" look Haha

Hah, laugh somemore Sil. Hahahaha..
Was laughing at the 2 of them after i took the shot above,
and so it's payback time. haha