I heard some nice news from siti, my year 3 VSC friend.
Hoho, she said Nurul, her IMD year 3 friend, would like
to make an Indonesian video for her final year project.
Hohooh. so touched. This is gd. whaha.. Now this is somethin
creative, although you would hav notice tt indo movies dun go
far from high sch love, love, love, love, etc.
But tt's teh beauty, although most of em dun really make gd
movies, some does make somethin fresh. whuaua..
E.g: Virgin <- good and controversial (not r(A) lah, sorry to disappoint you)

Gonna lend her my precious "Ada Apa Dengan Cinta" scriptbook.
hoho...

Somehow, I think, when I was in the bus this morning, I was thinkin abt
thinking again. Man.. how many times do I hav to think and think and
think and think and think... ?

Why there are so many ppl who's really concerned abt his/her appearance
heavily? I mean, oh well... ppl, you wont DIE with your current appearance.
Somehow if you can change it, change it like what you want. Do not regret.
And if youc ant change what you have now, be contented. Somehow some things
like pimple scars can heal, you bloody boy! Do not psycho me into taking
cutter, penknife and chopper to go and slash your face. Hahaha <-dun mean it

Anyway yeah, somehow I was thinking abt human. how fragile and hard it
is to be human. When we're kids, we learn what is black and what is white, but
as we grow older, we realsied that grey ares are everywhere. Liek it or not,
you'll have to accept grey as part of your life. It's soo hard when you know
there's logic behind all those. Human's heart and feelings and things that catalyst
greying of human's action, sometimes there are things tt you cant blame...


Suara apakah itu?
Hanyalah serpihan kaca yang berdenting
Di jalanan beraspal basah
Diiringi rintik hujan deras
Yang basahi tanah ini
Apa yang kucari?
Tak kudapat jawabannya
Kulari, kuteriak, kubernyanyi dan menangis
Sibakkan rambut hitam di tengah badai
"Eli eli, lama sabacthani?!"
Menerpa angin saat kendala datang
Siapa kira status, kedudukan harta dan martabat
Kan habiskan hidup 'ni bagaikan putung rokok
Mata elang sendu membujur langit
Dimana gelap, biru, tak berujung berada
Dimana asap berlalu lalang mencekik dunia
...
satu tahun
...
dua tahun
...
tiga tahun
...
Aah... Tak kuhitung lagi waktu yang berdentang
...!
Kuputar waktu kembali
Kuku merah berserakan
Berbelok,
Kulari kembali dari waktu yang terhilang
mengejar bayangan masa lalu yang terbang
Kulihat seberkas cahaya
Dari lampu pijar mulia
"Kemarilah, anakKu.."
Kumelaju dengan tangis
Menuju masa depan absolut

Whad kind of crap am I writing up there in case you would wan to know,
it's really crap. It's a series of events and probs and inspiration and mood
and everythin tt i think is rite to be placed in the crap i wrote.
Oh well, I'm sorry cos I couldnt translate them to English, or else, they'll just
sound funny. whahaa..
(now tt i remember the last time my indo gurls read my "terima kasih" bloody
poem, when i wrote it as emo poem, they interprete it as comedic stuffs.. haha
it was quite funny lah to thikn tht emo thinsg could be read as a joke too,
but in a way. oh well.. whad can i say.. whaha)

It's a luna day today. Ups.. I dun mean
Luna as in Luna Sea or Luna the Sailor Moon cat..~ La la la~
(act dumb)

K, Started the day with readin newspaper. Saw a UNSW campus
architechture plan for the SG campus. Its like WOD!! so nice...
I dun mid studyin tehre, really. whaha..

Anyway yeah, went to sch for TV PRO. Ate lunch with Alfie and
Kelvin PID. Why so strange, eating with lecturer and someone
whose the social outcast of teh course? I dunno too, and I dun care,
anyway, cos I dun mind being with them. Aft all, we're all homo sapien,
creation of the same species. whahaa.. Rubbish bin crap. Next-

TV PRo today was a bit screw up, although no doubt almost everyone
did a great job. haha. My job as crew man kept on failing me. OKie lah,
for the cameraman3, Beatrice was a bit kanchiong so i tried to go her
standard. whaha So yes, this one, she said, i'm ok. Halleluyah.
As soundman, Jason's mic screwed up on me.. and best, Angela tt it was
my audio thingy tt was at fault.
As Floor manager, I was told to sort of 'shut up' from the control rm by
the director (or issit p.a?) Obviously they dn really take my advice but be
it. whaha.. I dun mind lah. Aft all, its his choice. Lalalaa..

Anyway, went to makan at MENSA. we went there in a grp of 10, which
aft tt, 4 of them left and the remainder went to Free Access to do work.
GUess who's the hardworking one of all?? whaha of cos me..!
They were playing soldat, infiltring soldat in Rice and Shan's mind.
But it;s gd lah, aft all, Shan became so high tt she keep on tickling Rice.
Rice keep on laughin and shouting, while rainer and Joel and gQ are
gaying behind us, with the "whatver-soldat-nickname-tt-joel-has",
sound very funny lah. I tickle gQ, prompting the rest to tickle him
too. whaha
very gay. yes..

Tts all. I'm tired. Oh yeah...
Bassfish will hav an audition somewhere this sunday, hope i can go there
aft church.
Ronin will hav acoustiic gig somewhere August.
SonicFest will be at Sat 31/07. horray! Jars of Clay! whaha
I gt teh tix for 20 bucks per person, whoevere want to buy, find me. whahaha
Ciao~

Hoh.. Today I kind of feel 'light'y actually...
With no cls at all, I went to sch and do my
InMA1, a bit of IMDP2 and BroDes. yes.
Hahaha.. Anyway yeah...

Did those things in the 'sauna'ic free access lab,
apparently the stupid air-con failed on the VCS and
free access tt side, so yeah.. it's like hot sauna. whaha

Went to makan lunch with Rain and GQ, whereby
Ninah came and joined us, followed by Joel and Rice.
Rice went hm early to get her tv pro done. Slack jhia
aka sekjhia aka seksjhia aka sex didnt do his job as
Rice's partner <- as alwayz.... haha.. Kill him.

Went from lab to lab, til we settled down at the 3D
animation lab, which is also the BroDes rm. Hoho...
Was there with Rain, gQ, Joel, Rahman, Zai & Fairuz.
Shan, SiYuan and Astoria came over for a while. wahha

Then all of them leave gradually and left me, Rain, gQ and
JOel to play with the comp. haha.. I was busy doin my
BroDes, gQ his InMA, JOel his InMa and crapping,
and Rainer too. hahaa..

We blasted the speaker in my comp with songs from my
bloody dumb external hard disk. Songs rangin from my Indo
songs, to Gd Charlotte, to Bassfish, to Ronin, to piano pieces, to
French song (only 1), to chinese song, to jap song to SITT (disbanded)
Wahahaa.. super loud and guess can be heard from outside. whaha
NUtsy here and there, cant even hear whad the person beside u is talkin..

and we keep on talkin cock, so crap until rainer said this word,
(when crap has infilled his mind)
Rain>> eh, we go to opp sch to meet my friend take my labcock
and we're like
Us>> Labcock?????
(then start 'farrelling' aka 'mockery'-ing Ame-kun whahahaa)

gQ was like, "say my nameeee~!"
Joel>> BIleee (in high pictehd female voice)
whahahaha.. die die die.. we all die of craziness and lamity..
whahaha die die die..

Alter Bridge is singin on my speaker now..
How beautiful.. Hohhhooohoho..~

Anyway, sometimes people changed for the
better, sometimes they don't when they think they are.
K, I'm not condemning, but somehow, I kind of think
tt isolating social life for something which you call
"independent" is sort of not exactly right.
But anyway, after all, I'll get a 'sharp' 'remarks' after I
posted this blog anyway as always so yeah. =p

Was kind of long day today. Fell almost asleep during laoFi.
It was a bit erm lah the show, Magnificent seven.. And we need
to take note on how teh editting goes.. Oh man.
Anyway yeah. then my jap presentation, kind of not really saying
whad I want to say. Yayoi lah, keep on flashin tt "3 minutes"
"4 minutes" cards. whaha alamak.. but nvm. shall not regret.
regret will hold you down.

Sometimes we forget abt things, things that caused pain in the heart.
But once someone brought up the topic or somethin liek tt, somehow
some stuffs resurfaced, some facts, some painful remarks, some
holes and yeah.. anythin. I know that everything come because of
circumstances.. Who would know this will channel down to this? If I
didn't start, then domba ikal will not start, then ugly days wont start
then we'll live in peace. But this is whad we call regret. I shall not
regret for whad happens, cos without all this, maybe I wont grow,
Maybe I dun know that things like this can happen, like this can be
solved partially slowly and step by step. And that I am far stronger than
whad I want to be... Like it or not, what ppl assume of my strength is true,
I am strong so they know without them i can do things of my own.

Its like being too independent that when you want to find a shoulder to
lean on, you found out tt ppl pointed at your own shoulder to lean on, cos
your shape and size mismatch theirs.. Oh well, talk crap time.
sounds like jigsaw puzzle..

My uncle and aunts from Indo came, they gave me quite a wow thing to
say. haha. I mean, well, when she told me, I was like God's speakin to me,
"See kid, I wont neglect you.. I knwo your need. Be humble and ask,
it'll be given to you.." tt kind of things. Oh gosh..~
My dad's allocated money for my laptop + this.. God really blessed me.. HOho

Domba ikal datang dan pergi dari hati
Meninggalkan jejak hitam berlumpur di lantai berlian

Ikalnya yang tergerai dihembus angin
Ia melihat ke depan dengan air mata
Di tangannya bunga Mawar tlah kering
Dengan kelopak Beterbangan di senja hari

Rumput liar menerpa bulunya
Disibak dengan ikalnya
Hatinya remuk dilanda gundah
Kegalauan menggelapkan hati
Dikeraskannya sang hati

Dan dilepaskannyalah smua ikatan
Dari dunia semu, dari domba lainnya
Dibangunnya istana kaca
Dimana ia kan tenangkan dirinya dengan dirinya
Keberadaan mutlak yg berkesendirian

Di negeri impiannya
Ketika sang pahlawan kan menemukan puteri dongengnya
Mereka berdua kan kembangkan sayapnya
Terbang bersama di atas padang rumput hijau

Sang domba ikal yang menjelma jadi pangeran
Bersama permaisurinya sang bidadari bermata elok
Berkuku hitam dan berrambut lurus
Kontrast cinta sang sejoli

Dan mungkin
Ketika kutersadar dari mimpi
Capung jingga hijau yang mengintip dari pohon ara
Adalah mata hati kucing buta

Hoh.. Horrible day to end with...
These days, I am burning with madness every night.
There is always some things that makes me flip
flop and grawl..

Hoh... k, P2 1st video was 1/2 done. I'm quite happy with it.
Although, sadly to say, I missed goin to teh service and missed
seeing Feny as singer for the very 1st time, and to Sch of Rock
to support the Bassfish. ANyway yeah... My bros' back from Indo.
Together they brought for me stuffs from my mom. A pair of
slippers, 2 comic books and some medication thingy. Anyway yeah.
the comics' really goooddddd! I am very2 blissful for the ending of
" W Juliet" It uses clices cleverly and make it new and interesting.
Parfait was a bit erm.. but ya lah. better than the 10th one.

not only tt, they brought fight as well. Man... Cant they spare me?
And my cousin too.. argh.. stoopp! whad is happening to everyone?
Then those stupid programmes in teh comp failed me at the wrong
time. Cos I had this small tiff with my bro over the set up of user profile.
It's hard to kepe track with who did whad to teh comp when you're
sharing teh bloody thing with 4 other ppl.

And cos he wan to install his bloody "winning eleven 8", he deleted
some shit in drive D, destroyin some shit for the programs. Oh yeah.. diee
dieeee.. now my photoshop can only display magenta and brown and black.
Athiam>> I feel so ashamed that the comp in indo
Athiam>> had no probs in installing this game..

Athiam>>Why did you put user profile?
Athiam>> so?
Athiam>> Aiyah, norton also no use.. (and off it to play game)
Athiam>> Eh why graphic movement so slow?
Athiam>> you never install graphic card ah?
Athiam>> I placed it there whad (showin his green cd case,
i dun even knwo where the heck is tt)

Kath>> so comp how? Dad said whad abt the laptop i asked?
Athiam>> dunno lah.. suit urself
Athiam>> buy the 1400 one..
Kath>> new or second hand new where gt tt price?..
Athiam>> who said we buy new?

whad teh heck?!! really whad teh heck???
Diee diee diee. argh

Hm.. I dun really understand why but if you notice me
being angry and sad and mad and sick and crazy...
Do forgive. Maybe this is whad we call emotionally labil.

Things tt happened to me tire me a lot. I'm kind of tired of
everythin funny tt happens to me.

IMDP2 almost drove me mad, InMA1 is not much better than
P2... Stupid studio was beng locked fully and we cant get the
access to get the white cardboard.. Mney money, fly away..
Things gt a bit screwed up and I'm blaming myself partially cos
I was the one who suggested to place the shit in the sch. Oh well,
I, being some shitty human, must learn to stop being shit. Thank you.

Meanwhile, somehow today's a gd day for me too. As in, yeah, aft
sometimes you'll find urself believing that there's this pattern of
happiness and anger. When you're laughing and enjoying urself to
the fullest, beware, cos some huge turn off may cocked up and will
turn ur mood 360degree into some shit.

OKie, some of teh gd things happened today:
*went on jamming with bassfish
*some gig organiser for 24/7 youthpark gig came to audition them
*Bassfish will be in the gig
*went to buy xtrenal hard disk with gQ and Rainer to SimLim
*Cant stop laughing cos of their fake gayness
*Went to makan soya bean curd arnd Rochor st... Niceeeee
*went to parkLane cos rainer wants to play arcade..
*Went to play pool cos gQ dun wan to go hm(all of us actually)
*Rainer want to play INitial D. Lame arse Hahaha..
*3 of us went to makan at McD.. Diggie diggie dig..wahahaa (innsider joke)
*Guitar shop closed.. I wan to see whad kind of cheap ones could i buy
*Go home by 23 with the 2 gays
*took taxi with gQ, dropped him hm and go hm

everythin went "down down down down" aft this stage.
whahahaaha..
bloody..... but nvm. I shall survive..
Cos I hav to survive...

somehow I was remined by myself on sexist stuffs in my family.
K, it was not like as if other families are being spared form this shit.
Anyway yeah, watever it is, my dad was kind of disappointed when
he gt a daughter as a firstborn. Being the 1st son of the 1st son, of cos
he would want to follow tt legacy or whad so ever.~
Somehow all his sexist comments tt he had for me, started to bein
replayed back... Oh well.. NOt my fault tt i'm a female, it's your
sperm tt determine my gender. And now tt being female bounded
my feet down on the ground, I couldnt' do a lot of stuffs, I was looked down,
I am bounded by chains, rules, regulations and shit to obey, to listen and
to appear female somehow. Now tt you're sexist, it makes me more
to wish that I was a male instead.

Haha. sorry.. talkin too much emo may kill.
gdnite

Hoh..
Things dont go as I planned today.
We were delayed by Sherlyn who's not pro enough to
imform us that she had to leave the lab by 6 30 and
the queue for consultation still long.
Oh well.

IN teh end, ended up eating dinner at MENSA with
the 2 GMS, Chia & Fu. Talk wholesome crap and proceed
to watch movie to the library.

Our GM Chia suddenly feel the urge to watch HARRY POTTER
because he said he wanna watch a simple story withlight storyline.
IN the end we decided on XMen2.
Pretty gd until.. whereby Logan was tryin to identify
whad the heck was the gadget in Scott's car,
then the library closed so yeah.

Went to walk with em to the interchange before boarding my
168. They were talking abt stuffs from game to game and I kinda
feel invinsible on teh spot. But yeah, sometimes it's fun to just
shuddup and listen to whad ppl may have to say abt things...
It's kind of good for me because usually I was the one who'll keep on
talk and talk and talk and talk..~

Anyway, here's an excerpt of me & Ryce's msn:
Kath>> we go and jam teh fish with strawberry jam .
(Talkin abt the bassfish jamming in Simei)
Ryce>> ...
Ryce>> you are lame oso
Ryce>> hahahaha
Kath>> then make delicous starwberry bassfish jam,
Kath>> healthy for the bones and teeth
Ryce>>EW

This is kath reporting from the 06-06-58 comp lab. Rite now
I'm sittin in between GM Rainer Chia and GM gQ as they were
gaying and crapping and playing the same Aerosmith songs
from each respective's Mac.

Excessive of "Chia & Fu" will result in serious brain damage,
as they were renewing many of the Aerosmith's songs into their
own IMDBoys's sick version.. ~

E.g. #1
Aerosmith: I don't want to close my eyes..~
Rainer Chia: I don't want to close my fly..~

E.g. #2
gQ: Angry already..!
gQ: Oh die.. dieeee.... die die.. dieeee..

Oh man..~ whhaha... Noo~
Rainer and his eerie "tsukoi" sick moaning of JAV. Haha..
Oh man..He's tryin to seduce gQ!!
wjajajaa
.. Noooooooooooooooooo!!!1

Oh well, tts all folks, i need to get my 5% of the marks for the assignment.
So yeah.. ja mata..
All info above are copyrighted by rainer CHia and gQ and me. whaha
We're the lamers.. whahaa..
And they're the IMDBoys.. Do check out their wacko blog. whaha...

Huauwauwa..~ Tired~
Anyway yeah, lemme write soemthings that I wanna write.
Oh well, sometimes along the way, our hearts do not want to
obey what the minds tell them to do. Somehow, by logic, if
you know things shld not be tt way, use FORCE!

Even when you know you'll suffer, but if that's for the best of
mankind, why not?

Sometimes we hav to wake up from our dreamy life and lead
the real world. The world does not spin around according to your
will or time. Wake up earlier and start doing something meaningful
in your life, rather than get carried away by the wind of events.
Being real does not mean we don't dream anymore. Being in real
life means we know when to dream and when to get our feet set on
the ground.

Do not pamper yourselves excessively cos you won't grow or mature,
you'll get stuck in your dream adolesence mind as your age ripes and
when you wake up at last, you realise that you missed out a lot of things.

(a few rants from me to me and others who need it)
I need to press my feet to the ground.. hahaaha

Just remembered that me and Beatrice, throughout the journey back from
sch, we were talkin abt imagination from stories and animes and etc. It made
me think that normal kids will usually believe that one day, they could be
what they wan to be... (even though they imagine wild)
But I dun.. Is tt why I'm left somehow behind? Being too real-thinkin?

Argh.. sleepin time~~~~
This is wWHAD HAPPENED when I'm rantin nonsense before I sleep.
So yeah.. whaha.. dun really hav to bother me..
ZzZzZzzzZzz

oyasuminasai..~

Well, foremostly, I would like to say sorry if I'v been like
a bit snappy arnd 11 pm..Haha.. I wasn't in my good mood.
My cousin really annoyed me with his ever-oh-i'm-the-
saddest-person-on-Earth stuffs, making me go bonkers.
I mean, dude! Look up or cut ur birdie and become some
darn female! (btw his name has to do with bird) I shall not
go further on him.

Then a few of my ex sch mates keep on disturbin me with
some sort of *censored*. Then a few ppl asked me out and I
can't make it and the p2 online meeting came a bit arghh~

And then came a phonecall from my friend, talkin abt Racist
stuffs. Okie, I'm sort of pissed by teh fact that some KIDS
write rubbish on 'project superstar' comment board. They really
write shitty hurty comments on both my indo kids.. When i mean
a lot, means excessive.! My caller observed tht teh rest of the guys
only gt like, whad, a few bad remarks.. Oh well, some kids just dun
wan to learn from whatveer shit Maria Herdtog had caused.
I am not really provoke, but my caller who's much older, he tried to be
another kid who wanna provoke back the taggers. Oh well! Stop!

I mean, why cant you guys just be optimist, cheerful or
at least think of somethin bright or divert your mind to somewhere
else better, like doin ur work and stop making me worry.





anyway, speakin abt rushing.. I am now rushing for tommorow's
InMA1 shit. haha.. Pray good luck to me.

HOh..
Today's a relative good day for me.
Last night's crazy rush for Language of film and
Japanese visual board earned me some relief.
Haha..~ printed the visual board, full A3 colour
for free. Huraaa~ whahaa.. The sch's great!
I'm lovin it..

Anyway.. yes.. tmr's InMA1, a bit sucky, I
didn't touch on it but yeah *glitterin eyes*
I will survive.. Pls wake me up at 7 tommorow,
or else I'm gonna be doomed dead for losin another
for Sharon's Broadcast Design. hahaa..

IMDP2's movin on, although we're more like
crawling rather than walking in terms of speed. haha.
but ya lah, i believe in ur mind to crack up some shit for
the P2 thingy. haha. Although somehow I'm not tt convince
but yeah~ whaha

A lame thingy I said to WeiShan when she was collecting
money for the Visual central thingy and asked me if I could go
and help her check whther Bon has sent her the script:

Kath>> Okie.. tell you what, if teh script is there, i'll go and sms u.
kath>> If teh script is not there, i'll still go and sms u
kath>> so teh bottomline is, whatever it is, I'll still sms u
Shan>> Errrr... hahahaha.. dots.

Okie, this is lame. whaaha.. I was thinking if I keep on
being lame and helpful for the rest of my life, will ppl take em sriously
whaha. Oh well.. maybe this is teh price for being kind and so on, but if
I were to change msyelf and be more 'mysterious', I may not be able
to do so, cos i know whad i am doin now would not hurt ppl. whahaa..

Oh well. ciao la la la~

What on earth is going on?
People are acting in inexplicable ways;
random things are happening right,
left and sideways; and there you are,
stuck in the middle.
Keep your head down -- this'll clear up soon.

A quote from Friendster's forecast on me.

Quite true, somehow.. Haha.

Anyway. Lets talk somethin nie and light.
This week will be one of my busiest week, it's true
and I'm worried I'll not be able to make it.
Haha..~

Anyway, 1 thing I've learnt so far, that like it or not,
nothin will ever wait for you. Catch up or ketchup!
OKie, i'm bein lame~

Haha.. It's like a war on week 5 of semester 3, can you
believe this? whaha. When submissions and proposals
came by and you found other stuffs happenin and needin
your attention as well.. You cant just leave it, or let go or
abandon the probs... Face both.. I cant afford to lose one.

If you knwo what i mean... Rethink of everything.
Female, sometimes, there are things in which you ought not to
ponder for too long. Yes, i'm still battling this myself but believe
that friendship worth more than your unfulfilled desire of
a homo sapien. After all, keep yourself controlled, do not rush
or do regretable things. When you found urself hard to believe
things turned out to be this way, get some fact clear, we cannot force
things to go our way all the time. There'll be time to give and take.
And since what you do could not revise the time, let go.
When you start to give space, maybe homosapien will open up and
be normal, instead of endless accusation that draws a clear walla between.

cheem or lame or rantful and rubbishy? yes! but yeah..
hope you understand tt i am not condemnin you.
I tried to say it but words just dun come out of me easily.

An Indo poem I did during IMDP2 class,
just for fun. haha.. No meaning to it.

Kutakut akan kekelaman hati,
Tersadar gasing tlah kuputar,
Tindakan culdesac tuk kembali...

Berlarilah, kasih..
Janganlah dimakan waktu
Yang kan hilangkan jati dirimu
Kutak mau kau derita
Hhari sendu tiada mawar
Jagalah dirinya senantiasa
Kuatkan hatimu
Mungkin jalanmu kan panjang,
Berliku, melintang..

Ingatlah selalu, wahai domba ikal
Ku kan selalu doakan kebahagiaan.
Tanah lapang berbunga tempatmu berlari...
Menerjang angin, menerjang badai,
Kembangkanlah sayang mungilmu..
Mungkin kau kan jadi
Masa depan sang mawar
Tapi ingatlah
Milikmu kan jadi milikmu.
Bukan milikku, dan juga miliknya.

Ingatlah.. Ingat..

Hoho.. NOwadays I kept on listenin to my playlist.
Huhu.. A mix of so many songs.. whaha..
Indo, Jap, English, Chinese, Latin, French, Indian,
Korean etc. whaha..

Oh I'm mad.. yeah~

Anyway... lemme think for my p2.
More updates when i gt mood. whaha
ciao~

Huhuu..~
I forgot to blog this last night. haha. Paiseh..
I met Sugih in the Ang Keong and today in
sch. It wasnt planned but its funny, cos I tt
he's tall or somethin. hah. (sorry yah Gih..)
whahaha..~

Anwyay he'll be at teh Channel U Superstar
Project as M1, so yeah, pls vote for him..~
Hahaha. Hidup Sugianto!!! haha
(Sugianto: my dad's name too)
Haha..

Ahhh~ my back is currently achin, quite bad I think.
Thanks to late nigh sleepin time, my pimples had been
poppin out faster than bullet train. haha.

Anyway yeah, shldnt get close to alcohol. Now I
remembered clearly why I stop drinkin. haha.
1. Pimples
2. Fats
3. Not good
4. Die young <-unnaturally
5. Waste money (unles go fashion show for free flow)

but above all, ALLERGY!!! whahahhaa.. I'm quite thankful to
Him for givin me this kind of 'limit'.. haha. As in, I wouldn't
want to imagine me being crazy cos I know I'll be one if I dun
have limit., whaha..

Anyway yeah.. Life had been pretty 'new' on me these days.
I gt to experience extreme cases day by day, some which I
dun quite happy abt it but yeah, you can't change the fact tt
they exist.

Askin God to keep me in His hand so I wont slipped away and
start finger-pointing or worse, assuming things. Gimme zillion
patience and enlightment, to see why things happen, how can I
help and what will be the result. Haha.

yes, i'm askin too much from God..Wahahaa
Evil Indo woman. whaha.

Anyway yeah... off now.
Wan an~

my gank who came with me to Rock on Singapore: Joel, Ninah & Rainer. 2 Gm and 1 foot soldier (read PROJECT:BLOG for more detail on rank) wahahaha 

nice sky.. whaha. Rock on Singapore at 7 pm 

In topshop, bored after tryin 2 not-so-nice-on-me top & coat. whaha.. In my tank top (cos I wear soome thai-styled clothin on teh outside but haven wear it when teh pic is taken. whaha) 

me and my mirror twin at Guess Takashimaya. whahaha.. (tryin clothes.. the blue top not bad but yeah.. too transparent. whaha) 

Madness

Covering your ears won't help

When words seep through the opening

Shouting out loud wont help

When your throat is being held

Then why why why

This whirlwind in the head keep on playin me?

Asked myself of how I used to be

Forgotten the way I am

Used to laugh

Used to smile

Used to focus

Used to love

Used to cry

Used to pray

Then what's happening?

When the glass had been shattered

When the clay had been broken

Will it be a piece again?

Time flies like the air

Seepin through my sanity

Will I ended up seieng green and pink?

Surrounded by the white walls and metal sleeve

Creating images from pills and pops

Will you forgive me?

When worth and honour stripped

Exposing the nakedness of life

Yes.. my crap. whaha dunno. write for fun. whaha

Oh well, I slept late so I wake up late.
I wake up at 10 and battled my laziness to get off the
bed and went to church, being 1 1/2 hour late.!

Ci Ling2 kept on askin me to go forward for the
altar call and at 1st I was "WTH?" but yeah... In a while,
after I stood there, I realised why...
It was hatred. Not tt I hate her, doesnt have to do with
her but yeah, hatred that hid inside my heart was the cause
I guess, for me to feel empty most of the time, hatred that
turns joy to sorrow, fullness to emptiness. haha..

Anyway skip skip skip~ Went to makan at Cine. So enlightened
by Ricey's founding on the $2.50 roast meat rice. hahaa. I save
up a few dollars yeah~ *hurrah*
Then, went over to HMV, tryin to find some local bands' Cds
but the counter said it was sold out. whaha. Lalala, sad.
Went to look arnd, again, they dun hav Sonicflood's 1st CD...
Bloddddy! All I want now is that CD!! Maybe i shld listen to
Sharon's advice to get it at Katong shopping Centre. whaha.
Btw, Sharon's my lecturer. She cute alrite, being amazed when I was
listenin to "Love song for a Savior-Jars of Clay" She was like,
"Wow! tt song was 10 years ago!" whaha. & i'm like, "Nah, It's nice..
best song.."

Ah.. tired.. I dun think i can finish my work tonite.. whaha
help meee!~

any its alrite. there's still tmr. wahaaa.

Anyway yeah... I saw some improvement on someone somethin
somehow. hahaa. It makes me kind of smile and yet havin this
lump but it'll pass somehow I believe.

I pray for their best. whaha..
Oyasuminasai onichan~

Hohhhh~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~`
Rock on Singapore is good..~
Okie, I think today is one of my fruitful day.
I mena, not those sch work fruitful but yeah,
fulfillin day.

Watched that French movie last nite, then,
sleep til 11, then go ol til 3 then go bathe and met
Berlany & Haryanto at Cine, cos they're watchin
Ghost Train and Berlany was away in US for a
loooong time and surprisingly we still keep in
touch, all hail to Friendster.

Went to spend my time by tryin out clothes in
Guess and Topshop. Went to Zara but too crowded,
decided to skip tt place. haha. So yeah.. fun.Then,
met up with Rain, Joel and Ninah. we went to makan
at Lucky Plaza food court, fun place. Hahaha.
Talkin cock as usual. oh btw, if you guys wanna see
whad kind of cock we're talkin abt, tune in (I mean,
click to my link) toProject: Blog. It's a very lame blog,
but u can see whad are the stuffs we were sayin this mornin
on msn while I did conferencin with gQ, Rain, Glenn & Joel.

Hilarious, and for 1 thing, I dun do jerk off. Tt was a line from
American Beauty's Kevin Spacey while he's in the shower.
Alfie showed that part fo movie to us for lighting observation.

Rock on Singapore was good! Very interestin indeed.
Hajimemashite, we were made to sit on the grass and listen to the
bands. haha.. Throb is not bad, but they dun suit this kind of
open areas, they shld be doin gig at lounge and pubs.
Ugly in the Morning is high, although I dun quite like the vocal
for their 1st song. BUt yeah, they rock baibehhh~!

Electrico electrocute me~ whahahaha.. The bassist maade me think
of gQ whahah. although they dun look alike. haha..
It's more like, mellow2 kind of song, interestin. With the hot babe
Amanda, whahaa.. JOel was beggin me for the copy of Cleo tt
has Amanda in BIkini. whahahaha.. Ronin is really wow~
A lot of screamo and a lot of stage act. haha.. Although I'm quite
*dots* by the undergarment thingy but yeah, in rock concert these
things happened so yeah.~ whaha.. Surprisingly the bassist truned
a bit wild on stage at teh later part. whaha. Levan is gd, his vocal is
, his stage act is... undescribable huhuhu..wow..~

It was funny tt Rainer said he feels inspired to come back to the music
industry again, as I told him before this tt his voice is awesome, he
shld probably come back to music scene. whaha..
Then Rainer & Ninah did some stupid stuffs like
"Electrico!" "Ronin!" "Electrico!" "Ronin!" what the..~ whaha

Yeah, btw, we met Xiao Hui & Abel there. both are Electrico fans and Ronin
too. Haha. Funny ppl~ Had been a while since I found myself feel enjoyable
like this. whahaa.. madness lah~ The guys are so gay. they keep on askin
each other to suck nuts etc blah blah ya dah ya dah..~ I shall not describe
more for the sake of those who thinks really2 graphicly <-eg: Samson

Hahaha...~ Oh well, plan for now is:
*download photoshop cs 2 trial kit
*go bathe
*type out dialogue for tv pro (Partnerin with Jason Nguyen Thom)
Yes, we're the immigrant force.. whaha
*do some photoshop changes for the IMDP2
*maybe if gt mood, do some changes to the p2 proposal. whaha

see, my life is fruitful. All i need to do now is to start bathin. whahaha.
So yeah, bubye. Gonna bathe now.. No jerkin scene k?
Save your bloody imagination for some IMDP2 thinkin space.. Do not be
like Joel..

(From the Lucky Plaza basement comin out to teh road and headin to ROS)
JOel>> Hey guys, do you mind we walkin pass by teh sex shop. I wanna see it...

Ermmmmm.......

The most awaited lyric of
Rewrite- Asian Kungfu Generation
(Full Metal Alchemist OST)

kishin da omoi o hakidashitai no wa
sonzai no shoumei ga ta ni nai kara
tsukan da hazu no boku no mirai wa
"songen" to "jiyuu" de nujun shiteru yo

yugan da zazou o keshi saritai no wa
jibun no genkai o soko ni miru kara
jiishiki kajou no boku no mado ni wa
kyonen no KARENDAA hidzuke ga nai yo

keshite RIRAITO shite
kudaranai chou gensou
wasurarenu sonzai kan o
kishikaisei
RIRAITO shite
imi no nai mousou mo
kimi o nasu dendouryoku
zenshin zenrei o kure yo

mebaete ta kanjou kitte kuyan de
shosen tada bonyou shitte
naitekusatta kokoro o
usugitanai uso o

keshite RIRAITO shite
kudaranai chou gensou
wasurarenu sonzai kan o
kishikaisei
RIRAITO shite
imi no nai mousou mo
kimi o nasu dendouryoku
zenshin zenrei o kure yo

Hoh, I lovee the song...

Hm..... Hm... Hm..
SOmehow I wonder, somehow I wonder again,
Whad is happenin to me?
I shldn't blame ppl for somethin tt they dun
feel liek doin but here I am, talkin shit, and
feeling congested.

I mean, argh... no, i cant say it. Nvm.

Apa susahnya sih? Bener2... Pergi juga elo ga rugi,
elo bisa blajar banyak dr mereka dan gw juga bs
ktmu tmn gw. Tp gw ga boleh ngmg gini karena
ini bakal bikin gw jd manusia yg selfish bgt.
Manusia yg ga mature, yg ga berharkat & bermartabat,
yg kyk anak kecil yg bikin malu.
Jd yah, gitu deh. Ngambang aja..
Nanti gmn yah? Gw juga pusink, gw ga mao bikin mrk bete2
tp gw jg ga enak...Gw sebel ma diri gw. Coba kalo gw
lbh kuat dikit lagi, tp kl gw lbh kuat, mungkin gw bakal
dianggep bs ngelakuin segala hal sendiri,
jadi gw ga bakal dianggep cewe..?

Ah~ At last, my comp had been
reformatted, interestingly,
nothin was deleted,only yeah, the
inside of the xp is gone.

Trully thank God for that.

Somehow today's InMA1 is really
killer... I was made bad mood, real bad
mood, to utter fcuk when lecturers are
arnd is not somethin common within me,
mind you.

OKay lah, she went out while we did out
shit and best part, I FORGOT the rules
of table within table. OKay lah, proves me
I'm dumb and lame and forgetful.
Nvm, give and take.

Went to MENSA with Shan, gQ, Rainer,
Hans, Mud and Seks to makan dnner, which
followed by pool session at the Pavillion with
everyone minus Hans and Mud.

Fell asleep for a while at my cousin's rm then
watched "Pas Do Tout: He loves me, he loves me
not". Well, I must say I'm quite surprised and
amazed by how the guy make the movie. I mean,
wow~ To make an image of the guy with tablets and
pills are wow~~~~

Amazed me.

Weee~
Last nite was one of my earliest night.
After my free access lab-in session I went
to Jap cls, then met up with gQ, Ryce & Rain
cos they were at the MENSA when I'm done
with my Jap.
We went to the library to read up some stuffs,
while gQ is doin his work. I took a few scriptwriting
books on animation and film. They were enriching,
really good. Borrowed the matrix one, usin Beat's
matric card.

I had to admit, the storyboard they draw is superb, I
would spend my life in Kunlun Mountain and Ghobi
Desert and Sahara, Kalahari deserts to meditate and
learn those skill but I dun think it will be enough to
reach tt level. (talk cock session started)

I would like to dedicate a song for my Lord God.
"Take me away" by Lighthouse
This time what I want is you
There is no one else
Who can take your place

This time you burn me with your eyes
You see past all the lies
You take it all away

I’ve seen it allIt was never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you

(chorus)
Take me away
Take me away
I’ve got nothing left to say
Just take me away

I try to make my way to you
But still I feel so lost
I don’t know what else I can do

Cause I’ve seen it all
It was never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you

(repeat chorus)

Don’t give up on me yet
Don’t forget who I am
I know I’m not there yet
But don’t let me stay here alone

I’ve seen it all
And it’s never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you

I’ve seen enough
And it’s never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you

(repeat chorus)

Take me away
Take me away

Take me away, God.
Take me and hide me away..~

mew~ My internet at home had
tottaly screwed me up. Haha..
Oh well, sounds wrong..~

OKie, now I'm in sch, rushin for my
IMDP2 and yeah, to tell you the
truth, I hate bein immobilised at hm. haha
Without internet access, tt is.

Hoh, P2 just finished and I am now in the
free access lab with Rainer & Joel, who
both wanted to create a lame blog, do join
them f you want. They both go under
"Project: Blog" in my link.

P2 was a bit okay for me cos Wahidah branded
my grp as the more clear group of the 3. haha.
Not tt wow, but not bad..~

Startin to reserach a bit on Jap Manga. Ever thought
why I love Manga a lot? They give us a new world
whereby things go nicely and yes, teh best part,
you can create the world yourselves, everythin accordin
to whad you want.

Most of em has good storyline and yes, some freaky great
sadistic interestin Godly storyline, tt is. yess~

Ah well, stop bloggin now and do my work~
Ciao..

Anyway.... As to wahd Hans said, I do agree with him, tts why
I would never be able to lose myself completely to career, cos
Career will never fulfil my inner satisfaction. Eh~ dun think
wrong stuff.

So yeah, ciao~
me

HOh~ Tmr is my IMDP2 proposal submission.
I'm kind of thankful that I gt SiYuan and Freddy
and Max in da grp. I mean, some probs that we
were posed to had been solved so far, smoothly.

I woke up on time today, BUT I slept again & made
myself late for my orthodonthist appntment. haha.
Then I gt myself to sch, ate lunch with Mud, Asraf,
Sharon, Max & XingJie at mensa. Sorry Rain, I gt ur
msg just when I settled myself on the chair for my IMDP2
stuffs in the free access lab.

Anyway yeah, TV pro is fun. I gt grouped with Jason
Nguyen Thom for the assignment 1. hahaa. "Immigrant grp"
hahahaha.. What the heck..~

[ryce edit] I'VE HACKED INTO KATH'S BLOG ACCOUNT.
i will leave now... [/ryce edit]
Oh well, I had notice that yeah, many designers are
single.. or yeah.. somethin like tt. For ppl who wanna make it big
in design stream.. It's really rare to find them married.
Will I be one of them? Huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuuuuuuuu~

Ah.. this kind of things shldn't bother me now. Now that I shld
juzt solely focus on my GPA, my friends and family. Opp gender
attractions shldn't kill me. Yes, shldn't!

Let's make me fall for Glivis (Crystal Dragon) and Makoto Narita
(W Juliet) and Sei (Yasha) solely. NO more than all these stated. haha.

Thank you..
Wan an..~

Sometimes, even close friends fight, but when you know there's greater
things than alll the probs we hav, we'll still stay strong? Isn't it?
Nobu and Ren solely.

yesterday.. During LaOFi, I watched
Au Revoir Les Enfants. It's a good
show, really, you may find yourselves
sucked into the story, so mesmerised
til you shed your tears for the characters.

It's a beautiful story that doesnt involve
BGR, a topic I kind of 'urgh'-ed nowadays.

Whatevr it is, try to get a look of it and
yeah, war is bad. War is evil. I cried for the
Jews and I cried for separation.

At last, after my fast of cinema for 2 months,
well, not exactly fast, considering that either
I gt no money when everyone wanna watch
movies, i gt no mood or everyone had watched
em so i'm left with no one to watch with.

Imagine, i havent watch star wars! Arghhh~

So yeah, "Unleashed" was good. Good story, gd
shots and angles.. BUT.. as a film person, this
movie had a few 'slips' in continuation. I shall
not persecute the movie cos I find it nice. Haha..

So yeah... Last night I wanted to blog some things
outta my mind but my comp was a bit crazy now.
haha. Okie, I'm lame..~

I went through some stuffs and some things stroke
me. Forgiveness came easy when the things involved
is a minor case.. Sometime we loath that we could forgive
easily & stuffs, but the truth is... human are not build
that way. It's thousand times easier said than done.
But yeah.. sooner or later things will definitely be resolved.

Tuhan Allahku,
Dimanakah Kau ketika kutercampak?
Kuinginkan dekapan kasihMu
Kuinginkan lindungan hangatMu
Tuhan Tuhan Allahku
Berikan ku ketabahan, kesabaran dan kekuatan
Tuk ubah dunia dan ubah hidupku.
Jangan tinggalkan diriku
Terkapar di rel kereta api.

Today was MeowMoo's last day of sale. I was quite amazed by
the effort of slacking that almost everyone had put today,
includin me as one of the big time slacker. I would dearly love
to thank my LaOFi, becos of that, i was late for church today.
Anyway, jump scenes, jump scenes. We did all the packing up
and celebrated Abel's bday by havin an ice cream cake. whaha.
Then we dirtied a table cloth, Elim Chu may kill us (or solely
Freddy, that one i dun mind). Haha..

We did things like as though we owned Orchard Road. I think
it's gd to behave like this while time and age and self control
dun really play a big part on our lives. Dignity still dun pull us
down to Earth, whereby so many things we couldnt do in order
to abide certain house rules.

Anyway yeah, met Kelvin slaxativexs (Mud's fren) on the booth.
He was one of the breakdancer (so i herad, but i didnt meet him until
today) whaha. He was pretty funny dude. Tts all I can say.

Next weeek, I will go down to Orchard Green for "Rock On Singapore"
performance. My friend asked me to go and I'll be bringin more ppl.
Oh well. For fun.

Today's supposed to be a happy day, so I concluded we don need bloody
emo entry today. Hahaha. Read from beatrice's blog for more detail on
today's wonderful events.

All I can say is... when you're strong on the outside, people tend to forget
that you cannot survive by yourself solely.

Hmmmmmmmmmm~
After much thinking and self thought and advises
and crapping and laughing and tearing and madness
and whirlwind and blabbering and devasatation and
psychoness and reasoning and confusion and anger
and disappointment and etc.. blah~, I began to feel
a bit 'back to myself".

Oh well, some things are not supposed to bothered me
anymore, and some things must be straightened by me.

My mindset and my vision, my goals and my emo,
everything need to be adjusted to get me a better
survival chance.

I would like to thank Beatrice for lendin me her XP CD
and my cousin for lending me his Norton 2002. They sorta
save me. whahaa..

Went with the Bassfish & Rainer for jammin, aft which we ate
and me & gQ & Rainer went to Glenn's hse to watch "Be Cool".
On the way to Ninah's hse, gQ made an interesting comment on
"I realise East side people has their own way of sayin lame things..."
blah blah, then i was "oh.. so you're sidist ah?" whahaha Lame~

Anyway yeah, as alwayz, I'm sorry but today's entry will
consist of some Indonesianism. whaha...~

gQ blg dia ga kaget kalo cowo itu bs suka ma tuh cewe. Gw ternyata
harus ngaku kalo kata2 tuh lebih gampang daripada prakteknya.
Dr hasil penyelidikan gw, cewe itu anaknya emang tipe nih cowo.
Manis & cakep, putih & feminin, suku kulit kuning, senyumnya manis,
pokonya gw skrg bs ngebaca trait & similarities yang cowo itu liat dr tuh
cewe. Dan waktu gw baca online buku hariannya, dia udah jelaaaaaaaaaas
bgt kalo ngasih tanda2 dia lagi jatuh cinta.

Huh, manis banget yah, kayaknya cewe itu ultah deh ini hari, kalo
ga these few days deh. Watever. haha..

Gw kira gw dah bisa dengan bangga bilang
"Oh, dia udah bentar lagi jadi masa lalu"
Trus, waktu kejadian beginian dateng, gw
malah kayak anak kecil bete2 sendiri.
Betapa kecilnya & rendahnya diri gw.

Gw ditanya gQ knp gw ga mao pake rok lagi. Mungkin loe bakal
ketawa kalo loe tau alesan gw yg sebenernya. Gw takut nanti
gw ngundang wrong attention. Gw ga mao cowo2 yg gw ga
suka tertarik ma gw. Mungkin naturally cewe2 bisa seneng kalo
ada cowo yg suka ma mereka, gw sih jd takut. Mungkin gw dah
18 taon jalan 19 ga pernah disukain cowo, jd gw naturally takut
bgt kalo2 yg suka ke gw tuh cowo2 yg bukan menurut hati gw.
Sedangkan cowo2 yg gw suka, mereka smua ga pernah ngeliat gw.

Gw takut, semua yg gw alamin, bakal bikin gw tambah pesimistic
sama hidup ini. Hidup ini cuman sekali, gw ga mao nyesel dan gw
berharap gw bisa coba smua yang gw mao raih di idup gw ini, termasuk
mencintai & dicintai. whaha (oke lah, sama lawan jenis yah).
Kedengerannya gw laper cowo bgt, tp gw ga ngerti, emang smua org
punya kekurangan, tapi apa kelebihan gw ga bs bikin cowo ngerasa
gw pantes buat diri mrk. Gw selalu terbuka sma mereka, apa yg
mereka ngmgin gw slalu coba untuk ngerti dan pelajarin.
Orang tuh bohong kalo mereka ga mentingin kecantikan luar dalem,
karena gw juga ga mao calon suami gw ngerusak genetic keturunan gw.

Gw cuman pengen tau, apa sih rasanya disayang ma cowo.
Waktu gw perlu sandaran, dia ada di samping gw.
Gw ga perlu yg muluk2, cukup toleransi & timbak balik.

Wahaha. ya gitu deh. Pokonya, moga2an aja gw ga jd keras &
nutup hati. Kalo sampe itu terjadi, wah gw ga tau deh bakal kayak apa
idup ini, kayak idup yg di dlm es batu. Dingin & mati.
Gw ga mao gw ngerusakdiri sendiri, gw selalu coba buat ngelakuin
smuanya secara mandiri, tp kalo kemandirian gw diartiin sbg gw
tanpa siapapun gw jg bs bikin smua, gw ga bakal rela. Tp gw dituntut
buat begitu. Apa gw masih ada masa depan yg cemerlang?

Apa Makoto "W Juliet" Narita & Randy"Alpen Rose" masih sudi muncul
di hadepan gw? Apa yg muncul tuh Makoto & Randy, tapi punyanya orang
laen? gw cuman bisa ngeliatin & liatin aja, sambil nunggu kepunyaan gw
di tepi perapian dingin di bulan Januari.?

Oh, i'm talkin crap. thank you for reading. whahahaa..
I feel old & i shall vanish now.
Ja mata~

Oh well, Yes.. I'm in a horrendous mood now.
I'm sorry but it's true, i'm a sicko these few days
so if you guys see me behavin like monster,
I'm sorry.

Hehe.. I'm so thankful for the 'beautiful' night I had,
of the paranoia hiding in the blanket, thinking abt
scray things and qorrying whether I'll be having bad
sweet dreams etc.
And the lateness I had for this morning didnt help me
either, I woke up at 9, cool! I gt Broadcast deisgn at 9!
And as I rushed for my day my aunt & guardian kept on
tellin me not to go home late etc, blah blah. As in, I don't
have choice do I? I feel like buyin a comp of my own,
mind you, 2000 bucks will be gone and I dun have it now~
And yes, I was waitin for taxi for 30 minutes and there's this
2 fellas waitin as well. Bloody~

Argh.. Thank you for a 'wonderful' day, thank you for the
'wonderful' night.

Sometimes whad you think is not whad you get.
I had judged wrongly.
And I failed, I am trapped.
Thank you

thank you
whahahahahahaha..

okie lah, need to get back to do my broadcast design.
*put back my mask*
*smile*
*laugh*
Hahahaha

(backstage: tears)

A lil bit of self thought.

Whad does it feel to you when you're being
invinsible to some people?
It rots your soul when your mind plays an
illusion of extreme loneliness, yes, loneliness
although there are many people around you.

How evil the devil is, I am sucked into the
deepest core of ugliness sometimes. Blinded
by the rage of selflessness. Haha..~

There are times that you just want to say
something but I can't. Restrictions and
metal chain holds down my throat; silencing
the lamb with ugly, tattered coat of life.
My life is fragile, yet is not. I tried to be strong
but somehow there are times when I just feel
like falling to some support and easy myself
and sleep. To be strong is to be weak sometimes.
people assumed things, they assumed that when
you're strong you do not need to be taken care of.
They assumed when you're brave you are never
afraid. Yet all you know is nothing but a piece
of mask.

And that the blind are actually seeing,
and that the deaf are actually hearing.
It is painful to cry alone in the room, trained by nature
to cry soundlessly and with minimised movement to
prevent publicity. Its dumb.
the world is dumb sometimes. hahahaa.
And on top of that, i'm teh dumb one as well. wahha

Oh.. yesss~! (sarcasticly)
My comp had been a total mess by now.
There are 3 viruses which the antivirus
couldnt destroyed and I'm now waiting
for someone to lend me a Windows XP
and Mic Office & Adobe thingy installation
packs and finally, reformat the comp.

So yeah, I'm pretty much immobilised at
home, cant do anythin much except MSN
Messenger and Microsoft office thingy
using my hsemate's laptop.

In sch now, tryin to come out with a proposal
for tommorow's Broadcast Design and maybe,
if I'm fast enough, I'll be doin photoshop for my
InMA1 too. haha..

Hm.. Maybe after my jap cls I'll do it again. The
moral of the story is... you know that design school
is no place to slack, you have to crazk your brain,
come up with beautiful outrageous ideas and
keep on improving to satisfy the hunger of high
GPA. Screw GPA! Haha..

Ppl said marks are not important, but I said it's
important to a certain extent, so as to say that
everything in this world has their importance
to a certain level, it is you who determine how
important they are in your life and if you regard
them as somethin unimportant, maybe in the long
run you'llregret making that decision. Like.. oh well,
I talked too much.

There are things that I juz want to shout out loud
for people to hear and listen and understand and
accept and adopt but nothing can control a human's
heart. Nobody should, in fact, God didn't control human
hearts as well. That is why I shouldn't force my bloody
way through. There is alwayz ways to make people understand
better, but not by force. The more you exert force on
human, the more they'll retaliate. That is something I realise
in the long run (and from somewhere too) but yeah, my
main point is..... do not use force.

Hoooh~
My Internet explorer at home havin probs now. I'm sorry
if I took a loong time to reply mails or sometiomes late
bloggin etc blah blah ya da ya da..~

Anyway yeah... These few days I am feeling more tired than
usual, sleepy and worn out, really worn out. Hoh..~

Sch has been good, really good although tehre are many submissions
and deadlines & yeah.. practically sch worn me out, to sum up
the whole thing, although yes... there are many other things as well.

Today, there'll be SIP talk, I cant believe I'm in bloody year 2 now,
hwo I wish God chipped in more time for me to enjoy myself and let
me hav more adventures with everyone before out time is up.
I am scared, it's true, ppl are changing arnd me. We are more focus on
our works but yet... ppl become more cold. Oh well, maybe I did become
like them too,.

Hooooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~
hajimemashite
watashi wa katorinu de,
temaseku poritekuniku no dezain no
interakutibu dezain no gakusei desu.
watashi wa indoneshia jin desu.
doozo yoroshiku.
(thank you for actually lookin at my crap.
the translation:
how do you do,
i'm katherine, temasek polytechnic design IMD student.
I'm an Indo woman.
nice to meet you)

Haha. crap. I luv suzuki sensei. whaha She cute.

LaoFi we did a lot of observin of old movies. Which is cool.
Alfie is lame, as alwayz still. haha..

Me & siYuan went to meet alfie actually to discuss our IMD
stuffs, since the other members weren't present and we felt
none of the ideas can make it. Hu.. blooody.
Anyway yeah.......... talk quite long, we did the talkin from
6 30 i think, up til 8 30. whahaha. isnt tt cool? We can
communicate better than.. watata. whahahaa...
evil grin, blame the rest, i dunno anythin abt watata
until i found out.


oh yeah....
everyone's sick.. cough2 all the way. whaha..
tmr p2.. moooommmmyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy~

hoh well.......~ i'm gonna talk a bit abt some ideology or thinkin
or understandin, dependin on how u see it.
(cos partly I dunno whad's it called) haha

Sometimes, along the way, we may find out that things dun go
our way, we cant get everythin to go solely accordin to our will &
so on. Tts why self control, patience and faith are needed to
counteract in these kind of times. When things dun go your way,
do not get overly upset, so upset that you juz abandon everythin.
By doin tt, you'll running away from probs, creatin new probs.

There are times when you need to take decision fast, or else your
problems will get 'snowballed' into a larger ones, pressurising you
to take fast decision when somethin triggers the probs to fall down
on you. Settle most of your pros 1st before you sleep.

enough of my crap. so long and good night
so long and good nightttttttttttt~

Lalala..~ Today, my 1st breathtakin record of not
being late for usher duty for like... 1 year?! whaha
This is great! Yeah yeah~

Anyway... speakin of which, I am still sick of coughin.
Haha.. been eatin KFC's shroom meal for these 2 dinners,
cheap & easy. haha.

yeah. today's nt mewmoo's gd day. haha.. BUt yeah. i gt to
see an interestin homo sapien. whaha. with red hair & interestin
stuffs on his fingers. Anyway yeah, pathethic me went out with
Vic to the Heeren, as Victoria was cosplayin as the astero, teh chara
on Xj's collection. haha. I was patheticly short of 60 cents into buyin
myself a new ring. haha. bloody funny. Yeah.

In church.. Pst Handoyo was talkin abt love (kasih, not cinta).
I mean, with forgiveness as welll, & bitterness and everythin.
oh well, yes.. Which arouse my mind of my present status. Am I tt
forgivefull aft all? Well, i dunno man. Maybe i'd created somethin deep
and big yet I dunno how to explain it...

Hoh..~ Why is my sickness stil with me?~!
Off you go, sickness! You shall not remain
in my life amymoreeeeeeeeee!

Anyway yeah.... Today went to record the
bassfish jammin. Took some shots, you can find
them in the bassfish photo link.

Anyway eyah, rushed to church, then to mewmoo.
Feny went back to Indo at 3 pm. HIkz...

mewmoo seemed to do better in the new location.
I was playin with Vic's black lipstick & plannin to
buy one & wear it to anywhere lah somehow, when
I gt teh thing from Vic. whahaha.... Vic was soooo cool
today. wahha Oh yeah, btw, Vic is the female who sat
with me on my picture above., whaahha..
Anyway yeah, she has a bf, so yeah. doo not let wrong
stuffs corrupt ur mind., whahaha..

Somehow at this point of time I realise that I am 18,
goin to be 19 and stilll single, although I'm not so sure
whether I'm available or dead. Haha..
& it's so weird that now when I look at guys I dun hav those
feelin of 'deg2'-ism. whaha. It's so weird... Am I out of
humanity now?


Kadang2 malah ada perasaan rada ga enak sama cowo, as in
gw ga brani blg "oh gw suka tuh cowo" (walau skrg ga da)
soalnya di otak gw pasti ada kata2, "yeah rite, loe dah tau kan
loe ga bakal bs jadi ma dia, inget yg dulu2"Haha. yes, i'm
a losy person. I'm sorry. whahahaa..

I shall be doomed in my old days man.. whaha...

hullow.. Huhuhu...
My mucus had this beautiful mix of slimy green
and blood. whaha. & yeah.. it had been so wonderful
that I had stopped worrying abt myself. It's like,
it came to the point whereby I could not be bothered
to think much.

Anyway yeah, I guess I really need some sort of hard disk
or whad, to build up my portfolio, store my shits etc.
Anyway yeah, the headache is still with me, & it began to
get a bit unbearable. really wish to bang my head against
teh waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalllllllllll..


oh well. yeah.. see ya..

Huhu, blogger shall feel honoured that I blogged today,
although I'm now havin this very2 uncomfortable feelin
allover my body. It's so weird ya know...

Hah.... Our P2 didnt turn out as bad as I tt, although yeah
we still haven meet to decide which shit we'll chose for the
final one. Oh well~

Fellin so tired so I planned to slack at the studio. IN the end,
I slept while talkin crap with Rayner, who slept himself
at the other side of the table. So lame. wahahaha.. If you
know whad we're talkin abt.... huhuhuhu....
(Beatrice's gonna murder me with her bare hands)

Hahaha.. anywya yeah, went to Mewmoo stall to help out again
tonite, there's this 3 americans who came & bought like.. a total
of 5 shirts with them. It's like. they're nice ppl, they dun ask so
much, dun give you so many oad and juz say, "give me that one"
& "I'll take this". huhu. 2 of teh few magical words that I would
love to hear every of my day in the stall. hahaha..

Anyway yeah.... whad's with me & scandal? I gt no scandal. Do not,
I repeat, do not create rumours. Hahahaa...

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.................~!
So little time, so much to do......~~~!!!

Anyway yeah... arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh..
Social abuse, somebody send wahidah a
letter of arrest before the sun rise pls!
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~

Oh well... PLs, let me wake up on time tmr.
hahahaha... I am now on my way to presentation.
Juz how crazy this is. Argh..~
When I'm sick, things started to popped up like
those blooody pop ups on the net. Roar~!

Sometimes, I wonder why. Me with all this sickness and
bad mood, me with this gloom and all negativities.

Its so weird...

Okie, maybe it's not that weird at all, but yeah.... A lot of
things happened, and maybe.. my heart grows cold. As in,
good things hardly gets into me, maybe again, i created my
own barrier. This is so weird. i dun do this last time.
So why now?

Have you ever pictured this:
In the hot scorching sun,
At some cityside's railtracks...
With high grass surrounding ...
A shadow of man playing at the rail.
Blue eyed, blonde hair.
Long and wavy...
With straw hat..
And long, hippie kind of white blouse & white long skirt;
Playing balancing at the tracks...

Sometimes I think of that.. Haha.
I dunno why....

Okie, last nite I didnt blog becos.... I was sooo tired but yet
worried and kan chiong for my IMDP2. IMDP2! A bloody
nightmare of IMD population! Arghhhh~ Oh well, then again,
some may feel that it's an interestin subject, which I hav
no doubt in it. Except that my class is combined with another
class, which has wahidah as the lecturer. Haha.. Colonialism
started again. How I wish the class is combined with Alfie.
Alfie's good! I luv Giedre too. Arghhhhhhhh..

Anyway yeah.. the point is.. stop whining and get your butt up,
shove it and start doin your work! Arghh

Oh yeah, we had bbq last nite. It's for the MOI/IMD ppl. Year
ones were quite a few, although I saw Felicia, Ira & George
(my CRimson kids). Year 2s were yeah, us lah. haha. A few
year 3s and non-IMDs... Lecturers etc. haha.. I didnt really eat
but seeing the monstrous kids (guys) eating the otah, piles &
piles of it, making me smile and full. haha..

Funny...~
Anyway yea, i cant slack now, need to do research.
So yeah, for now.. sayoonara~