Ga tau knp, kadang2 tuh kalo lagi dtg bulan,
smua juga bisa ada2 aja. Pokonya hari gw
ancur bgt, mulai dr beteeee bgt, sampe
kanciong bgt, sampe kesel bgt, sampe cape
bgt sampe sepi bgt, sampe frustrasi bgt.

Gw aja ga tau knp skrg gw blog pake Indo.

Wanita itu makhluk yang sulit tuk diungkapkan.

Aniway yeah.. gitu deh. Td gw telat ke skul,
telat bangun. kayaknya smalem gw tuh cape
bgt, pas gw bangun, dah jem 12 30. Pokonya
gila bgt. Gw mandi etc, makan obat, trus ke skul.
Di dpn kelasnya, gw ngeliat ga da sapa2, gw sms
tau mreka pindah lokasi ke LT.
Anyway sip skip skip, waktu gw dah mao kluar
buat break, gw ngeliat sepintas buku tulis dari
domba berbulu ikal itu. Ada satu gambar yg gw
liat. Ga tau knp, aneh aja, langsung gw bete.
ga ngerti knp, dah gw bilang, waktu dateng bulan
apa juga bs terjadi.

Anyway yeah, lupa gw update. Gw bs dgn bangga
bilang kalo perasaan gw ke dia tuh skrg lebih ke
sodara daripada cowo yg gw suka. Emang bener,
perasaan suka msh sisa dikit, tp dah pudar, skrg
gw lbh nganggep dia sbg kakak ato ade. karena
di dunia ini bakal ada banyak hal yang loe ga bs
bilang lao mao "A" maka musti dapet "A" dan
banyak hal dimana elo musti ngalah and blajar
dari pengalaman ini, koreksi diri sendiri, liat
dimana gw salah dan ga ngulangin lagi.

Trus, skip skip skip, kita sampe di film Edward
Scissorhand. Si alfie muterin tuh film buat kita
nonton and tulis review on it. siol, gw br nonton
1/2 dah musti ke jap cls. hahaha.. Anyway, di
film itu lagi2 gw diingetin ma dia. As in, gaya
rambutnya, gaya bajunya, gaya ngomongnya,
ga jawabnya, gaya senyum malu2nya.
Apa bener kalo karakter di film2 itu kadang2
diilhami dari manusia itu sendiri?
Trus, apa emang bener, manusia2 kayak gini yg
bikin kita tertarik? kalo gitu gw mati lah, ga bakal
bs berkembang biak or whad so ever. hahaa..

Aneh, koq jd mikirin soal masalah kembang biak
segala. Lucu yah. Buat orang yang udah bilang
ga niat tuk nikah or kawin, trus bisa mikir soal
kembang biak.

Kadang2 gw mikir, gaya pdkt gw salah dimana?
Apa gw tralu terbuka?
gw cuman pengen org itu tau gw luar dlm, nerima gw
apa adanya, yg loe liat dan yg loe denger dr gw sendri,
bukan dari orang lain ato siapapun. karena gw pengen
keterbukaan jadi landasan smua frenship, dan selanjutnya
maksutnya haha.
Stiap kali gw deket, pasti akhirnya jd temen dkt doank.
Dan kadang2, problem sama temen deket itu (gw kadang2
jd mikir, bener juga sih), di mata cowo (dan sbagian cewe)
pacar ma temen dkt tuh straight cut 2 hal yg beda. Kadang2
mereka juga mikir, ah, ga mao ah, nanti kl putus bisa ilang
persahabatan, emang bener, gw akui, bener bgt.

Ah.. gile, gw ngmgin apaan sih? koq jd rubbishy gini?
Okie lah... Musti bikin P2 neh. buai buai buai buai..
whauhauhaua

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Why am I still sick?? Why is this sickness stilll cominnnnnnnnn?
Why is my pleghm still greeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen?
With some bloody blood? Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!
I had had enoughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
(in IMDP2 mood)

Executive Summary
I am sick, am am bad moody today. I dunno why?
Am I supposed to find the reason why? Am I supposed to know why?
I woke up late, late for language of Film. Angry.
I dun understand whad's lighting etc, how to describe them etc...
Hav to do writing abt Edward Scissorhand.
Hav to do P2 for tmr's presentation.
When I finished my jap cls, I took a handbook, forgettin that I need to take
for Philo. Dumb.
When I went back to the studio.. nobody's there.. It felt so cold.


Everythin felt juz so cold. When Beatrcie hugged me cos she care for me,
I was like.. happy lah of cos, but i dunno why.. It's like... I am here but
not here. i dunno why... Argh..~
Am I imagining things? or hav I gone crazy?
Or best.. am I close to the ground? Am I dyin soon?


Tuhan, kenapa gw bete aja hari ini?
Tuhan kenapa gw jatoh kayak gini?
Kayak mayat yang ditutup pake kertas koran
di pinggiran jalanan kota,
dialasin anyaman jerami
yang teroles warna merah pekat sang darah
yang dikerubungi lalat belitung dan ulat dan semut
Ga berharga, ga berikatan.
Orang jalan tuh cuman liat,
mereka berenti, cuman pengen tau.
Liat aja, udah gitu ngasih ekspresi jijik,
abis itu pegi lagi. Ga da yang ngurusin.
Dibiarin sampe ngebusuk....
Diterpa ujan, diterik matahari.
Sendiri, sendiri...
Di dunia sendiri yang tak bergema...

Siollllll...~
Whad is wrong with you, my bro?
I am a bit pissed by him. I mean, while
makin my IMDP2 stuffs, he cut in and
asked me to share comp. He wanna
download his fanciful 02 pocket pc phone
stuffs, cuttin in here & there, downloadin stuffs
and searchin the net. Argh, i mean.. Pls...!
I hav not been usin the comp for the past few days
cos I'm sick..

I mean, I dun mind if you juz leave ur download with
me while I'm usin, and not keep on comin, searchin
etc and invadin the taskbar with your websites.
After all, you will hav ur chinese o level on monday and now
you are still playin with your bloody phone. I mean yeah..
organise your life.

And when I told him abt this, he's like.. not happy,
talkin like some sort of wonded guy blah blah..
Arghhhhhhhhhh.. Maybe I shld get another Pc as well.
BUt If i get another PC as well, well, it's gonna be another ma fan
thingy etc blah blah..

oh well, forget whad i said.
Thank you. I'm juz mad.

Ohhhhhhhhhhhh~
At lastttttttttt....
It had been days since I last blogged abt myself. Haha.
Its kind of 'not me' when I juz m.i.a from the net for
days. Hahhaa..

Anyway yeah, the cough+flu+slight fever had not gone
yet so yeah.... at last, I went to see doctor today. It was
weird when I found out that hia name is Glenn. I was
imaginin Glenn "Bassfish" wearin white doctor robe, it
was super funny.

Today was a real bad day for me, well, kind of. My guardian,
who promised me to accompany me to teh doctor backed off.
She was havin tuition with some kids. whaha.. Then, my bro
& cousin preffered to play neopets than accompaniyin me to
the doctor. I had to shove my butt & went there on my own.
Waited for 1 hour to see that Glenn doctor. The worse part,
that bloody clinic didnt hav any tissue paper on the toilet
& I forgot to bring mine so yeah, I cant blow my blooody nose.
My cough was bad but seein everyone with someone accompanyin
them to the clinic was kind of turned off as well. It was like..
well okie, maybe i juz felt like bein pampered for a while..

It was like..I dunno, cant I enjoy the 'luxury' of havin someone
to accompany me to the doctor? Haha. People may shout,
"Shuddup dumb, gow up & be independent..!" but yeah... It may
kind of feel warm when you hav somebody by your side in times of
trouble or in times of stormin problems.

Anyway yeah, to make the matter worse, my 'uninvited monthly guest'
came as well. whad aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa sicko period of time.
Huhu...........

Was asleeep after readin my cousin's indo version of FHM. haha. Yeah,
I read FHM, haha.Crazy? Hm, not really. I love to read intelligent articles
abt interestin things, like there's this BIlly "Green day" amstrong article,
an FBI article on this guy who are supposed to interview crazy murderers,
an article abt all the flops found in every movie. Hahaha.. & yeah, some dumb
stories submitted by the readers and a few interviews of some sexy bodied
gurls but the 'clean' ones, meaning, they dun talk a lot of "oh I luv sex & saucy"
kind. I mean, keep those shit in your toilet & bathroom. I like them to tell
more abt themselves respectably. Not cheaply & dumbly.


Anyway, I'm beginnin to like Giedre & Sharon. Both lecturers are nice & fun.
Sharon had a lot of things to tell. huhuhuhuhu................

Hahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~~~~~~`
Oh well, I juz woke up, interestingly at 8 o clock.
anyway yeah, yesterday was soo bad until I
couldn't take it, wen home directly after my
TV prod instead of hangin out in gQ's hse with
the rest as usual. HIkz...

Slept until 9+ & yeah.. watched CSI @ AXN while
eatin breadtalk & then slept again. Whad kind of
life is tt? Argh...! i regret bein sick. haha although yeah
before this, kind of 'miss' being sick & so on. Haha
("You muz be nuts!" haha)

Anyway, tv production is a great subject I must say.
I am very 'on' for it. Huhuh.. But too bad yesterday I
was caughin & sneeezin badly, forcin out all my junkz from
the nose & throat, if you know whad I mean. Then, Philotea
gave me this medicine, I saw the label said, "Beware, it
causes drowsiness" but i was thinkin, "oh well, to hell with it"
so I juz drank it.

True enough, after the break, my eyes were superheavy, i was
like.... drowsy.. sleepy, cant think straight.. crazy etc. whahahaa..
Probably givin Angela a bad image of myself. whahahaa.

We had this lesson on the commands durin recordin of a programme
and we were practisin with each other, in a group of 7 or 8.
While on teh bus to TM (tt's where I took a taxi hm), me & the crazy
bunch of guys (Mud, Rainer, Glenn, SekJhia) were playin with the
command when Rainer started sayin,

*Quiet on the set!
.
.
*Stand by seks!
.
.
*Take seks!
.
.
.
*CHANGE SEKS!

and we started laughin....
change seks. waahahaaha.... (seks is our nickname for mr. Sin SekJhia)

Introducing.. Teguh...~ The lame guy from KUAT cell group. Hhaaha.. He's the pioneer guy in the grp. I still remember his plead durin welcome party "guys.. pls join Kuat. I'm teh only guy there.." whahahaahaa 

Playin Winning Eleven ... they playe dit like some sort of life-&-death game. whaha 

fake babies. whahaha.. From behind: Ardiless, Harriss, Cong Ta & Agus. Haha... 

Handoko... a.k.a Kodok. Haha.. eh.. so scary boi.. whahaha... gw takut siah.. 

The IFGF Singapore youth guys at Sentosa.. Some crazy guys who went all teh way up after makan. whaha.. (forgive my cam, the resolution's a bit shitty) 

the 2 HFC scums. whaha. they looked liek as though they're at the spa. whaha.. funny.. (Xing Jie & Max) 

a happy family must consist of mother, father and son. buut whad is thiz? all guys.. dun tell me.. *in horror* ah...... no lah. it's nothin whaha.. juz some squirrel & tree game 

whaha. I juz remembered I ;left out this photo. whahaa... Faridah is the best deh sayangggggggg! whahahaha 

Hoh well.. I am SICK!
It's proven that SICK!
It's not the crazy SICK
but the real SICK!

Arghhhhhhh.. Anyway, my hands are cold now, very2 cold.
It's not abt all those fanciful lovey dovey stuffs I had before.
Haha,. This one is REAL cold. My body sux man, it cant function well,
I cant hav my best 1st day as 2nd year IMD student today.

Anyway yeah, speakin abt Moses' borin Genesis Talk. The lecturers
gave a very2 interestin performers, Tia & (whad's his name, i frget)
were doin some "theatrical" stuffs. hahaha. funny2.. I luv Tia!

IMDP2 was not bad, but considerin my future grp members will be the 2
ppl that I dun wish to work together with for the sake of my GPA, I may
consider of shiftin cls to the aftnoon one. I mean yeah, a cls of 17 ppl is
great but heck.. I still wan my GPA to be at my standard. Gaga..
& I dun wish to work with ppl who cannot work & dilly dally here & there.
I'll be dead before my age as the adrenaline gets too high & the blood pressure
jump to the highest pt whereby blood juz explode everywhere to the sky.

Haha. so graphic.. anyway yeah , move on.

Recently this BGR thingy started to sort of "attack"in me again.
feny told me tt I'm not ready for it. huhu yes..!
Anyway, Pastor Sammy from Bandung gave us the 10 keys to
find a guy/ girl in God's way. hahahaa.. yeah... I didnt jot tt down
but Feni did.. So nice of her. So yeah... I'll do whad i say when I
install my braces.. which is to hibernate my heart from lookin at
others, which I didnt..... 1 down. haha. but yeah... blah blah..
nothin big., I'm back to bloody square one. huhuhuhuhu...

wan an .. wan an..
i'm bloody tired..
my contact lens, the left one, juz tore off into 2 pieces. Juz how
great it was, a very nice present for me from my eyes when I am sick.
Haha.. Bloody hahaahaha..

Anywya yeah.. That shity asshole guy, the TP lecturer that was caught
for piadophile-related humiliatin case in Bangkok was an Indonesian guy.
Seriously, it was a real WTF shity case. I mean, dude, find trouble in Indo,
ppl dun really care, but you find trouble in some other country while teachin
in another foreign country, juz how dumb & assholic are you!
You're a bloody lecturer for gdness sake! & you're teachin in some foreign
land, bein that you carry the name "Rianto" in the middle, you shld at most
beware and be aware of such thing such as National Image. WTF are you
tryin to do? Be a man, do the right thing! siah lah!

Huah... Wake up arnd 12 30 today. haha..
Then, dilly dally-in my life until I was late
for youth arnd like.. say.. 1 hr?

Anyway... gt this interestin manga "For the Rose"
from Feni. INterestin stories, although the topic
of incest's still a bit hair-raisin to me.. It's not only
incest, but.... incest cum homosexual as well. whaha
Lame lah.. BUt nice story.

I wassss sooo tired & sleepy when I reached church,
& yeah.. although the preachin guy (the youth Pastor of
IFGF Bandung) were so powerful. Yes, I enjoyed the
presence of teh Lord today. Huhu...

BUt aft the service, i went to the office, & sleep at the couch.
It' snt like a deep sleep, i'm still aware of things happenin arnd
me.. tt's when.. the grp of guys.. the ever-lame guys started to
gather arnd me.. It's interestin becase I know they'll cocked up
some jokes like, "let us pray for katherine..." then do all sort of
pranks.. but this time.. they really prayed.. which is magical lah..
Huhu.. Thanks Teguh, Doko, Edwin, etc.. I cant really see you faces
but yeah, truly grateful for teh support. Amen guys!

Is love a physical thingy.. or a spiritual thingy or a soulful thingy?
I began to turn cold towards any romantical stuffs, like.. juz...
cannot trust anymore......
Cold as yukiko the snow demoness...
Hahaa.. so weird...
Tt is when I am still believe in the love for each others,. whahaha..
Is tt somehow contradictory or normal?

Hooooooooooaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah~
I'm back from teh camp. huhuhuhu..
Yeah yeah.. At last, I can sleep in bed.
Haha.

Anyway, bein GL is one of the most
challangin role I ever had, apart from
Robinson's intensive sales assistant last year.
BY now, you shld hav understand my meanin
of 'challangin' role.

I snapped out a bit durin orientation, I was
at the fault lah. As in, I'm not an ice-breaker
person, I dun play such stuffs & neither am I a
cheer person. haha.. Gomennasai freshies..

Ira, one of my freshies, the gen Y for IMD,
was kind enough to lend me sleepin bag on the
2nd day, although I didnt used it & sleep on LT24
with the logistic ppl & Beat. Haha.. CRazy... It was
blooody coldddddddddd..~

Smelly & rugged, tt's my style for the past 4 days.
Haha...

SO yeah..... at last, gt to take my revenge by 'watering'
the freshies juz now. Haha.. It was like, "hoh~! At last,
dendamku terbalaskan.. huhuhuhuhuhu" Yep, somethin
like tt.

Took quite a few of clothes rfom the orientation. Interestin.
Hahahaha...

Huhuhu, in LT 24 now, on my way to Lalaland. Haha..
These 2 days were havock lah, although the frshies and
the programmes okie. Haha.. Anyway yeah, juz to inform
ya the latest news. Gtg,.... Wan an,.. whaha..

Huahhhhhhhhh~ This is 6 20 a.m. in the mornin &
I'm bloggin in the sch tutorial room, whereby evryone
is still sleepin like the dead. Huhuhu...~

Yes, the 1st nite of us (GLs), & lotsa us nv bring slepin bag,
includin this funny chap named Kath. Which is me. I was
sleepin on top of the table. Owch.. painful spane, numb
fingers etc.

Ah well, yesterday was quite okie, except for the bad weather
and some killlin here & there. I'm actually knd of tired but as the
station game resumed and we gt to the station whereby us GLs
were playin in the trainin camp, I began to be crazy and ra-ra
over this, very excited that when I realised, I was shoutin on the
top of my voice, to cheer my group ppl up. Juz how crazy I am..
HUhu..........~

Am I numb now? God, I envy those who can be very passionate abt
You, and now that lotsa things happened and I am beginnin to get
numb of things... even Your presence and callin. Why is this happenin?

~Eli, Eli, lama sabactani..?......~

~Hide not thy face [far] from me; put not thy servant away in anger:
thou hast been my help; leave me not, neither forsake me,
O God of my salvation~ (Psalm 27:9) King James Version

Looks aliek battle royale. wahhaa.. They're playin some station game in Deisgn sch. huhuhu.. (nolstalgiac abt last year's orientation. whahhaa some shity frenziness, whahaa..) 

My Crimson grp. whahaha.. Gd job ppl! 

Oh eyah.. both depicts my mood today I guess. whahaa.. 

CRazy shot that I did with my phone cam. haha. It was supposed to look liek someone's eye view.. I did this by coverin my top part of hp with the sock casing, then let the lens peeped through the openin. whaha 

Somethin t popped out my mind while I was
on my way home from Khatib...

Kepada yang kan datang,
Kapankah kelak kau kan sampai?
Apakah kuharus menunggu sampai akhir nanti?

Kepada yang kan datang,
Apakah kau bisa melindungiku,
Ketika badai menerpa
ataupun hujan berhenti turun.
Ketika hati menjadi kacau;
Ketika galau menjadi takut.

Kepada yang kan datang,
Bisakah kau berjanji tuk temaniku,
Sampai rambutku berubah putih
dan cucuku terlelap di pangkuan.

Ku tak mau sumpah serapah
yang hanya bisa mendamaikan sementara.
Ku tak harap cinta sampai mati
melainkan tanggung jawab dan perasaan sayang.

Bisakah kau buat tenang hatiku
saat kau tak disampingku?
Bisakah kuterlelap saat kau di sisiku?

Akankah kau belai rambutku
dan kau genggam tanganku
ketika kita menyebrang jalan,
kau bimbing jalanku.

Kau yang kan datang,
Saat kau berkelut dalam hal2,
Kukan janji tuk menemanimu.
Tanpa banyak tanya kupeluk raga itu
Dan kan ku disana sampai kau pulih.

Yang kan datang,
Ku tak tahu apakah kau kan datang,
ataukah hanyalah ilusi semata,
yang hanyalah mimpi, mimpi indah belaka.
Mimpi yang kan membunuh,
menusuk dan melukai.

Kau kan kunanti...
Sampai kusadar bahwa kau tak kan datang.

Ah well.. Kadang2 ada waktu dimana temen ngerasa
dekeeeeeeet bgt, eh abis itu jd jaaaaaaaoooooooooooh
bgt. Apa itu emang di gw, ato itu emang di dia, ato kita
berdua juga salah?

Somehow waktu dia muncul dgn kuping 'baru' nya, gw
jd merasa somewhat 'kesingkir'? Aneh... knp yah....
Kayak, gw ga dipercaya, ato ga tau knpa, tp kayaknya
jd jaoh aja, kayak gw dah lama bgt ga ngmgan ma dia,
ato ga ngerti lagi apa yg ada di pikirannya.

Kayaknya perasaan sayang & suka itu kuat yah, somehow
gw ngerasa kalo dia dpt inspirasi dr cewe gbtnya yg juga
kalo gw ga salah liat, emang suka soal tindik2...
Ah well. wahhaa. Kuhanya bs menonton di samping lapangan.
whahaha..

Emo emo emo...~
Today I wake up at 4 30! Incredible & bloody
amazing, managed to sleep only like... 2 or 3 hours..
Hahaha.. Anyway yeah.. spotted pimples all over,
whaha, goodbye my glorious face. whaha.

The orientation this year, surprisingly didnt drag
for the attendance takin. Haha, I was kinda happy with it.
The freshies in my grp (CRIMSON) are kind of not bad,
in teh sense they are kind of fun and open. Haha..
It was fun lah, although I shouted like some mad
ass. Oh yeah..~ I am mad.. Mad am I..

Supposedly need to go with the Bassfish to the autidion
place but I mistook teh place & yeah.. things get weird here.
Haha, everyone was down down down, even I gt this sleepy
sicky bad-moody down feeling aft a while waitin at the bus stop.
Hoh yeah.. Speakin of which, maybe it's my 'time of the month'
soon. Haha.

Mud did somethin to the ear, wahaha.. GQ cut his hair...

Hm.. whaha.. Its been a while since I felt this
churn in my gut. haha.. Anyway yeah.. funny.
I started a devotional book yesterday... &
while browsin through the bible on the....
erm.. Levitians, i chanced upon a verse that
is against homosexuality. whaha.. Which is gd,
so yeah...

This is unrelated to the stuffs above...
In a way, my eyes refused to see more.
Maybe I'm turnin into some ratu Salju.
My mom once said I'm a cold hearted person. whaha..
Is she right?

HUaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh~
Orientation's on!!!!! It's time, my friend,
to enter teh war between the reality, of
havin to face sleepless nites and scorchin
sun and blooody intense workout to get
everythin done.

Anyway eyah... Supposedly i'm an usher today,
but guess whad, wake up super late... Haha..
I was to be at Crown Prince at 9 30 and I woke
up at 9 31. Waited for taxi or bus (which ever come 1st)
for 15 minutes but nothin past by my road,. whaha.
Then, it wa sthen when i realised i nv bring EZ link.
So went hm & by teh time, tehs ervice has already started.
Blooody~

Was in a very bad mood and bad headache and bad sleepiness.
Almost sleep throughout teh whole sermon, Yes.. Devilish evil!
How dare you disturb me? Arghhhhh~ In the name of Jesus!
I rebuke the dark forces! waaaaaaarghhhhhhhh..~

Hm.. then... makan at Cine.. went to Feni's workplace (Black Angus)
and was treated with mudpie (me, feni, stef & irene) by teh manager.
NIce chap.... Really~ The pie is superbbbbbbbbbb..~
It has given me a new idea. whahaa. yes.

Anyway yeah.. Went to buy my bro's blooody O2 adaptor, then to
Anchorage.. whaha. With feni, diles (the owner of e hse), billy, cong ta,
agus, wei2, kendrick, mazmur. The car was super crowded. whaha.
Read lotsa comic book there..!

W Juliet is gettin greater & greater.. ! My Makoto naritaaaaaaaaaaaa!
If I were to meet a guy like him, i'll prob say, " wo yuan yi jia gei ni"
Hahaha.. (I agree to get marry with you)
Makooooootooooooooooooo~

Gabrieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelll! This is Pst Joseph Tamba's son. Soo cute. whahaa. I wonder if i could register him as one of my future son-in-law. whaahaha... (if Makoto Narita is to come.. haha) 

Ci Vera & me. whaha.. After eatin teh ramen.. Ramen high~ whahaa... 

an experiment of Feni & Irene. I look like proper girl. Hm..~ 

bassfishy.. whaha i dunno whether this will be viewed as a small icon or whad,c os somehow teh picture i post is nt this big. whaha 

Today was kind of a fruitful day. Yes,
I went off to the Simei Jammin place with
the bassfish. They played well today,
much better than the prev practice on
Wed. Anyway yeah, rushed to church..
Was quite late in teh sense, i missed the
praise & worship session. The preaching
pastor was Joseph Tamba. huhu, Great man,
great leader, he made me realise quite a few things.

Went to Orchard with INgrid & Ci Lala aft
youth, whicle the rest were havin music ministry meetin.
The guardian's daughter turned out to be in the
Topshop as well so yeah. She bought me a red tanktop.
Haha. Very nice of her...

Feni & Irene were doin things to my hair. wahha.
They sort of 'remake' my hairstyle and made me look like
a gurl. hahaa..

Feni highlighted the same thing gQ highlighted to me last nite.
I am whad I said I am. So watch my mouth, do not lower myself
til the end. Respect myself and love myself. Hahaa..
Kind of yeah.. true...

Ate Ramen Ten with the youth & Cici Vera... Haha. She kept on
askin us to join young adult, haiyah.. sorry lah ci, kalo gw join young
adult, nanti malah diajak kawin lagi. whahaha. jokin2...
Anyway.. yeah.. there were like.. 20 of us.. & we were lamin arnd
the ten (ten = shop in jap language).
Supposedly to walk arnd Orchard rd but after much consideration &
lightning strikes, I decided to follow Ko Toni to go home with the
church's car. whaha. There were 5 of us in the car. Anton, Agus, Irene,
me & Ko Ton. so yeah, basically i am at hm now, safe & sound. whaha.

Heard that arnd 2 or 1, there was an earthquake. My church office in
Lor Ampas was hit as well, the lights gave those squeekin sounds and
Ko Ton was kind of scary cos it was durin the music practice...
Anyway yeah, prob i was in jammin studio, tooo noisy & vibrated to feel it.
Feel sad for Sumatra, it kept on bein hit by Earthquakes. Dunno whad's
the exact plan of God by doin this?Will there be somethin to learn from
Sumatra? Is there anythin you want us to know, God?

Tmr servin as usher. Anyone who would love to hav the chance see in me
in long skirt. whahaa. come to teh service. whahaa..

Hoh.. wake up late today. Spent my whole day
in sch..

Was late to sch cos i was playin with my bro,
then with the guardian's grand daughter before
leavin the hse. She was so cuteeeeeeee. once she
wanted me to hold her, she dunw an to let go huhuu

That's my chaaaaarm. whahahaa..

Anyway. things are gd. Are gd. although i proclaimed
today as a mad mood day for a lot of ppl in the camp.
Hahahaha.. yeah. tts it..

wearable art backstage: another pic of it. This time, we can see more outfits. yeah? whaha 

New Zealand tourism event tonite: wearable art backstage. This was one f the model's 'freak' outfit. whaha. imagine how we fitted her inside. huhuhu...  

kucinnnnnnnnnnngggggg.. I saw this cat when I was waitin for 168 on the seletar camp bus stop. It was lookin at the other direction, and i was sittin above it on the seat. So yeah, with my lil 'meow'-in, it turned up & i snapped the moment.. huhuhu.. huuray~ 

Huaaaaaaaahhh~ Today was actually quite
busy and tiring but overall it was a good experience.
Anyway, I slpt quite late last nite, it was like. almost 5
in da mornin, chattin with Mud & Shan & Erick & Fred.

Wake up arnd 8+, which was a bit late, but yeah, made it
in time to join the orientation GL grp at the Sports complex.
Next, we're grouped into 2 grps & my grp has lotsa crazy ppl.
Haha. we had Eugene, everythin is enough. hahaha.. Anyway,
was told to buy stuffs to make a raft for raftin competition tmr.
Left early cos i gt my fashion job. Today everyone seeemed a bit
nervous even Justine was doin her 'yoga ritual' jhuuhu..
Things went okay... Yess!

Saw Felix while we were transportin some of the door gifts to
the backstage. haha. As I greeted him a hi, he asked me whad am I
doin there.. & so i said, "dresser. I'm a dresser..." & you know whad
he heard, "agressor?" whad the heck?w ahaha walauweh. dumbster..
Hahahhaa..

Ate salmon sandwich again. Oh i could die eatin the salmon.. Ohhhhhhhh
I love ittttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt

Ah well, yeah... Here I am..
Not in my best mood still.

Anyway, I dun write this to spark off tension between both
of us. Yes I know we shldnt be in tension now, cos this is really
not a rite time & i dun usually do this. But when we dun see
it eye to eye, and I dun see any reason for me to accept your
view. Then be it. Do not use force to drill it on me. Esp when
you're bringin the name of God into the picture.

I dun this quality of leader from you. When you say repent,
means you repent and prevent yourself from sinnin, the hard way.
When you love someone, esp the Higher Being above, you dun
bargain your way. You do sacrifices for Him. Am I right or wrong?
When you believe in Him, that doesn't mean I will automatically
listen to whatever you hav to say and accept whatever your
thoughts, being we believe in the same Father.

ah.. i shall stop.. I shall stop. Thank you.

is this dumb enough? yes I am dumb. This is how I get to try out diff clothings without buyin em. whaa for whad? whahahaa.. (it'z juz for a few second of photo takin haha) 

haha. tryin on the red top and checkered blazer on Topshop. Of cos I wont buy teh blazer (239 bucks) but i'm thinkin abt the top. hmm. whaha not nowwwwww. not nowwwwwww. wahahaha... (idiot. whaha, my usual habit of 'coba2 baju') 

one of the outfit for the fashion show. Like I told ya, freeeaky. whaha. nah nah, this one not my model's whaha. the whole dress was made up of hands, styrofoam hands of cos... but it's quite heavy & teh models need to dance along with teh ooutfits.. crazy.. huhuhu... (salute em..) 

today's jam: Ninah the hippy one..  

Feni on da floor. Haha. we're watchin "howl's movin castle" yesterday. whaha & stuffed ourselves with fooood.. snacks. whahaa.. (man, i feel guilty whahaha) ya ga fen? 

interestin tree.. I saw this when I'm standin at the overhead bridge to get to Harriss (risso)'s hse yest. whaha..nice bark. whaha.. 

Dimas, the church's pretty boy. Haha. he's 24.. yeah.. can you believe it? & he's the one who composed, wrote and sang the 1st song in our IFGF Singapore Album. whaha..  

catherine lim yin2. my twin in church. whaha... She's 20 this year... or issit 21? whahaha.. pretty twin of mine, unlike teh twin here. whahaha.. hikz.. sorry guys, she's taken. huhu.. 

jokko my 'bro' whaha.. it's been a while man, since I met him. whaha before this, we lost contact for like.. 7 months. whaha. funny bro of mine. Our personalities were opposite but yeah, we could be friends. whaha. & i can bully him all the time. wahhaa.. 

Another day past by. I would like to apologise
to Stanley & Faridah cos I cant come for today's
orientation GL trainin camp. haha. Looks like
they're havin fuuuuuun in Sentosa (accordin to
Beatrice).
Wake up arnd 9 30 and yeah, took a shower blah
blah, went for the bassfish's jam session. Oh well,
not their best today, but they'll do better. Auditions.
Huhu.. soon, my boys.. Anyway, yeah.. took a few shots
of photos from my hp cam, whaha. Then mud went off
to meet kelvin & gQ hui jia cos he gt chalet aft tt.
That leaves me with Samsong & Ninah, so yeah, we ate
at Simei there. Talk some crap, as alwayz, procrastinate
a while then moved on to Orchard rd. whaha..

I gt a fashion job at Grand Caphorn Waterfront HOtel,
somewhere arnd River Valley. It's for the New Zealand
Designer Competition or somethin. Crazy wacky weird but
definitely beautiful dresses.. It's supposed to be called
WEARABLE ART. Haha. The models (who happened not
to be real models, but more of dancers...) are nice. I luv mine,
her name is Justine. She's kind and cooperative yeah. whaha.
She had 7 'freak' dresses all together... Our 'mamasan' Clarissa
was funny today, she said "oh, i'm your mamasan, since today
I'm the one that calls u guys up" funny. hahaa..
you shall be called obasan, whaha. jokin (obasan= auntie)

So yeah, the show started at 7 (it's a rehearsal today) and there
I was in Orchard rd, gettin boreeed at 4+... whaha.. Went to
Kinokuniya, Zara, Topshop to play along with the goods they sold.
Yeah I read some books, tried some clothes. whahaa. Kinda like
one of teh top shop thing, huhu.. but yeah... not tt impt, can buy
later, when my cash is overflow (which i doubt ever).. whaha

Anyway... New Zealanders are friendly, they loved to ask us
lotsa questions. whaha. & i gues Justine could sense that i'm not local.
haha.. & i guess the other dressers whom I knew today were a bit
freaked out by my 'scary, horrendous' hua yu (chinese). whaha. I mean,
I spoke super rigid chinese with weird mumbling cos I dunno the words.
Haha... Mom, were's your chinese genes? wahahaa How could you be
gettin 1A and 2Bs i ur recent chinese exams (she took up chinese dip in indo
to be qualified as teacher) whereas I spoke chinese like some lunatic.

ah well.... today's highlight:
* Saw the filipino female model, forgot her name, the one that my indo
twins and Jessica were praisin abt. She went to Orchard, but headed
to diff exit as mine. whaha..

* saw Agnes Monica's huge poster for a brand in Taka dept store. I mean
AGNES MONICA! Argh.. tt bloody indo teen actress yucky.. yuck yuck.
I was quite shocked when i saw teh poster cos it was really unexpected
& yeah, i jerked a bit when i saw it. whaha. funny, i think ppll will be thinkin
whad the heck is this gurl doin?

*ate smoked salmon sandwiches today. whaha. yessssss.. for a salmon freak
like me, how i wish i could juz 'dismantle' the breads and juz eat the salmons.
wahaha. but we shldnt be tt selfish, Kath. yeah? whahaa

Ah.. finished my watch on "sepet". Hm...
Overall, okie. Too nonsense in some part,
I guess local movies (local as in.. Indo, Sg
& Mly movies), they dun really provide
full linkage to the stories inside the movie.
Hm hm.......

Huhu, the female lead looked like Andien
(Indo singer) + Farah (my friend). huhu.

the biggest stupid pt from the movie:
this damn chinese guy had sex with
another bloody gurl when he was wooin
the malay gurl. Whad's the logic behind that?
You call that modern? I call that nonsense
and immoral. Hah~ & he sweetly asked for
another chance. Yeah rite.. Funny.

So yeah, that's my whole review. haha..
If you would like tocheck the movie out,
find me for the copy. huhu... I'll be most glad
to lend it to you, but remember to return
that to me back. whahaha..

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Whad a day.. Hahahaha.. Tired2..
Anyway, it's funny when my bro metioned
I always wake up when he came hm from sch.
Haha. Funny... haha, why am I laughin?
Because I think it's funny! Haha. (okie, lame).

Anyway, my friend Levan had somethin on,
so in the end we didn't eat dinner as planned.
Instead, played some neopets with my bro &met
Tobing at his Novena Church to pass him the
"virgin" DVD. Haha. Yeah, he's now really into
Indo movies. whaha. Of coz man, Indo movies
shiok! waahaha.. esp when I keep on lookin at
Nicholas Saputra. haha. oh yeah, tt's a part of it,
whaha. but the storyline quite interestin...

Then, rushed to Risso's place. Ingrid, Feny &
Diles were there. Haha. The crazy Diles, he supposed
to hav his exam tmr, but he seemed to dun care &
was playin Winnin Eleven with Harris. whahaa..
Feny was like, "eh, tmr is HIS exam, but here I am,
findin answers for all his assignments.." Haha..

Watched "howl's Walkin castle'. NOt bad, quite impressive
actually, abt the artwork (heard they nv use CG). Storyline
wise,.. i cant say more. It's a big complicated, with a big
"How come?"s here & tehre. whaha..

Oh well, the movie session ended up with me all along watchin
by myself, Ingrid sleepin beside me & feny + Diles goin hm
cos Diles want to sleep. Oh my gosh..~ whahha...

Oh yeah, bought this new VCD from woodlands. Haha. It's a
malaysian production VCD, but with English subtitles of cos.
Interestin storyline isa w teh synopsis), will watch it soon.
Entitled "Sepet" (which means "almond eyes)
Another VCD that keep my curiosity goin is "jangan panggil aku cina"
(which means "don't call me chinese" <-anti-racial movie theme lah )
haaha.. couldn't find it in Indo.. whaha but i'll get it sooon~ sooon~
jhaahaha.. erm.. welll, as soon as I reached indo lah. Paiseh. whaha.

haha... As i browsed through my blog, I saw this
Happy moms' day tag from Hanshen. Funny, reminded
me of my stupid yet hilarious incident in church. haha.
They had this sunday sch kids singin for momma's day.
& aft which, all the mothers in the church were asked to
stand up & the kids will bring to them a styrofoam heart
(nice stuffs). Haha..

Tadia & Meifie who sat beside me took my right hand
and raise them up. Well, I tt sunday sch kids are much
more clever than this so I let teh gurls play with my
hands.. when this sunday sch boi... came to me ...
& GAVE ME THE BLOODY HEART! Walauweh so paiseh..
Tadya was like, "ibu.. ibu, slamat hari ibu yah.. ibu jangan
bohong, anaknya kan banyak. suaminya mana bu?"
Hahaha.. Crazy. whaha.. Do I look like an Ibu? arghh.. whahaa

Anyway, did sms my mom, only to realise that in Indo,
mothers' day is supposed to be celebrated on the 22nd Dec.
so yeah, imagine her facial expression when she gt my sms. haha.
Anyway, she asked me to wish her once again in December. haha.
funny..

Ahhhhhhhh~ Another slacky day gone by man...
Anyway yeah, gt to know a new friend. Another
Kelvin. hahaa. Why is that name so overused?
Well, even my youngest bro's Calvin! Haha..

Anyway, yeah, he, mud & me hang out at their
McD base.. which was near FuChun Sec Sch.
Then went to Mud's hse to watch battle Royale.
And slack again. whahha... The root beer float had
to be forgotten since we drank teh root beer w/o
thinkin abt the ice cream. hahaa..

Anyway yeah, Beat, DO NOT WATCH OR READ
Battle royale. haha. You'll not be able to tahan it, i guess.
Gory, irrelevant but yeah, i guess the exagerrated effect
of the blood sprut reminds me of Kill BIll, not that I
watched one, but i saw one of the short preview.
Hahaha.. Anyway, interestin. haha..

Ah...~ watched CSI Miami before I went online.
Haha. Slack my way man.. CSI MIami is kind of
interestin, intelligent. It taught us on how to kill. Haha.
Jokin, it taught us on why we shld kill cos in a ny way or
another, they'll discover it. so save teh trouble. hahaa..
(Remind me of Conan. whaha)

Hm.... 3 more weeks to the arrival of my Crystal Dragon #23.
Haha. Cant wait for the comic booook~ How I love thee, Kinokuniya.
I'll be loyal to thee and frequent visitin thy store.
Hahaha.. Whad am I sayin. hahaha..

Anyway, the emo part. Was a bit into my thinkin mode while
on my way home. Haha. It's weird but I suddenly think abt
death. hahahaa. Oh yeah.. Weird, maybe because of last sunday's
sermon, whereby Om Coyo was sayi abt the bus incident thingy.
Haha. Oh yeah, this is how it goes:

There's this person who took a bus up to a mountain. She stopped at
one of the bus stop on the mountaneous area. But as soon as the bus
drove from the stop, a big huge rock fell over it, causin every single
soul in the bus to get killed instantly. Somehow, a typical Christian
will say, "Praise the Lord, for he had spare my life... blah blah"
but she didnt say so, instead she said, "I shldnt hav gone down the bus,
so we would be in time to avoid the rock... " Unselfish act...

Ah well, back to my story. haha. Yeah, I was quite convinced that
I shld not die that early. I need to do more stuffs, there are things that
I need to settle before I can say "okie God, take me with You.."
Oh well, whad's with the "die early" thingy tonite..~
For sure, I havent give my best to everyone yet.. This is juz not enough,
I an do better than this. whahaa..
Before I die, I would want to see some positive good improvement from
some ppl that I cared for. I would love to see my bros bein independent,
my mom bein happy, my dad not bein bitter anymore, my Shan gettin
her true happines, my Beat gettin her confidence, My Ji gettin her best
results, my Rin gettin her happines, my Feni gettin married whaha, my bro
gQ gettin whad he wants to do in life, my bro Mud gettin to love some ppl
& to get whad he wants in life, my bro Jokko to get a gurl, & many
more. yeah, I am crazy & lame.w ahahaa...

Shall stop ratterin abt everythin now. blah blah..
wan an..~

Ah.. juz remembered somethin from Ko Benk's
speech last nite.. Hm.... He said this:

"Gw bakal tanggalkan jubah 'anak' & pake jubah
'hamba'. Gw bakal serve orang2 demi nama Tuhan..,
walau gw disuruh sembah sujud sekalipun ke org
manapun, gw rela karena ini demi Tuhan.."

which means
" I will take off my 'son''s label & put on 'slave''s label.
I will work for God and serve the nations..."

Yeah.. somethin like that lah, but teh point is...
to be able to give up selfishness and do somethin for the
people... That is somethin I would love to do.
Manicured nails and pretty curls will not make you a better
you, ah well, although it'll make you attractive & so on, so forth..
But if you hav those + a heart to give & serve... tt's even better.
haha. Since I can't have the prev 2 beautiful points.. i shall hav
the heart to give & serve, tts enough for me i guess.
Cos i'm not really lookin for guys nowadays,, whahaa..
Maybe i'm genderless after all.. I mean, I shld be genderless.
Hahaha
Dumb as. whad am I talkin..

this mornin I was talkin to Feny,
"Fen, our church's theme is "be a blessin for the nation" & I guess
we're doin well. Look at us, every after church session, we'll
go out & eat at Cineleisure. haha. Isnt tt 'blessin the nation',
increaisn GDP?" whahhaa.. lame~

Ahhhhhhhhh~ Pardon me for sleepin early
yesterday. haha. Had too much 'plant waterin'
session yesterday. HIkz. whahaa..

Anyway, last night, after my previous blog entry,
I went to the Oliander Tower again for ko Benk's
farewell. We had bbq & basketball game.. In which
I dun play bball, juz walked arnd, bringin food & so on.
Yes, I'm pretyy lazy like some snaily snail snail.

Anyway, at the end of the crazy frenzy session, we went
to the middle of the swiimin pool (of cos, not in da water)
. It was like a concrete pavement... in the middle of the
swimmin pool & one by one said somethin abt Ko Benk,
thankin him, abt our first impression & so on. I guess,
we had like... say 20 to 30 ppl last nite. It wa slike... a 2-
hour session or 1 & 1/2 hour? hm hm.... Then at the end
of it, prayted for Ko Benk etc.. blah blah.. Supposed to
push him into the water but in teh end he pushed Risso
to teh water & jumped in himself. Haha. How self-service..~!
Feny was cryin a lotttt.. Haha. I guess both of us were sick
because of tt. wahhahaa.. lame~

Anyway.. Was late today for the sunday service. I am sleepin
in my bros' rm recently cos they had 4 bed & my cousin +
the roommate were in Indo for teh time bein. Anytway, so I
placed the alamrm clock on teh flooor in the middle of my lil
bro & me, It was sooo soooo interestin tt his pillow fell on the
floor, coverin my alarm clock. waahah so no sound at all. & the cold
weather + thunderstorm. Argh.. Anyway... still went to church.
Hoho.. Ko Benk treated us with KO Eddy's "Ayam Penyet" haha.
& yeah,.. "peterpan will be here in Singapore for a concert on NOvember!"
Yes yes yes! whaha Erica went crazy, she said, "KO, ko, nanti kalo Peterpan
dtg, gw yg ngelayanin yah.. gratis juga ga pa pa.. hahaha" CRazy.. whahaha
Funny, crazy.. crazyyyyyyyyyyyy!~

& yeah went home & sleep till 9+.. Hahaha..
Then watched U Channel for the first few times in this year. Wahaha.
It was a chinese movie lah, "My 18-years-old wife" if i'm not wrong,
bad content but it's funny. haha...~
Then... Watched "my chemical romance" in mtv weekend hangover,
& "Linkin Park concert in Detroit". Haha. Crazy lah, I was enjoyin it.

Haha., watched em with my lil bro & keep on laughin cos he keep on
attackin my glasses, whahaa. crazy dude..~ whahahaa...

Ah..~ Today, my friend, Today..
Today is the day, I can feel it..

Anyway.... Wake up quite early. haha..
Amazingly 10 a.m. ! Ate some delifrance
stuffs from my guardian & went with
Beatrice to Serangoon Central, checkin some
orientation stuffs. huhuhu..

Anyway, Went in the church like arnd.. 3 pm,
almost 4. Haha. Risso was leadin the worship,
like sista, like brother siah..~ Lina, I think you're
very proud of him deh. Haha..

Today, it was Ko Antonius who was sharing.
An eye-opening testimonial. Yeah. i wont exactly
tell you whad, but yeah... Maybe I shld deal with my
dad too.... Maybe I shld forgive him like how Ko
Antonius forgive his dad, to get everything right on da
track again...~

Anyway, yes. kO Benk's leavin on Monday nite...

Again, there's this part of the prayer today that made me
realise that.. This is not the end. There's this situation in
my life & I shldn't dwell in it anymore. This is not where I
will end my road. Therefore, trust me, I'm still workin on it
day by day, second by second. Yes, I am selfish.
But I tried & now I'm tryin again. I am to let you go forever.
Holdin back will never work for everyone, and I know somehow
I am one of the source of you problems. I am sorry for that,
I should hav done it earlier, I shld hav done everythin like whad
I keep on promising you and the rest. Somehow they juz dun work
in me, but now I'll try again. Final try.
I am thankful for your forgiveness in me. & yeah, thanks for the
friendship. HOpe I don't do much savage on this friendship..

Tts all. Haha... For now, findin peeeeeeeeace..~ WHAHAHAAAA

Shan's bday again. hahaa.. Looks like takin some class photo.. But then again, hahaha. Freddy & Abel, "prayin" for their "ancestors". Hahaha.. Crazy. whahaa..... This was anotehr way to misuse the studio. haha. How i missssss sch.. i misss schoool! arghhhhh~ 

han's bday too. Haha... Fun day, fun day... Hahaha... This was arnd 8+ pm i think. haha.. Haha, that dumby who wear beanie (which is me. haha), still remember how HOT is was at the reservoir. arghhh!  

Shan's bday 2005. haha. This was how we 'misused' the studio given. haha.bloody shit, they gonna scrap studio. Hikz.. argh.. nooooooooo! my hang out place. my hevane! whahaa.. hikz, hikz..  

Haha. Forgot when is this.. Ah.. I think this was when we went out for a movie..aviator if i'm not wrong., haha..Me & Shan talkin on the phone. Haha. Lookin at my phone. hikz.. reminded me on how it died. hikz. my kid, pls RIP.. (my kid= hp) whaha. whaha..

IMD chalet nite walk. Haha. These crazy guys were playin their guitars and doin same fake 'stage act'. Haha.. Crazy kids. (the same spot used by Denise Keller for Eye for a guy 2. whaha.. (Fred, Joel, Glenn & martin) 

The first IMD chalet. haha. how i miss the time.w ahaha.. Argh..~ This was durin gQ's (my 'bro') bday. hurraaaah~ whahaa... With the gank.. Jared, Glenn, gQ, Max, Joel, XJ, Kath, Siyuan, Abel, Sharon 

Sometime along the sch days. haha. Me & Joel, checkin out my deviantart. haha. Where is Joel these days ah? Gone missinw ith his rashes? Haiyah.. 

Haha.. was in Suntec City after the BOtero Drawin. The 3 HFC GUrls. whahaha... Beatrice-Shan & Me. whaha.. Crazy gurls in black. as alwayz. whaha.. 

The night before Christmas. Haha. Oh well, cant believe we're still in sch even on the xmas eve. haha. animation room. I was takin pics of my Indo Twins whaha when Beat took this pic. whaha. funny. I miss the twins.. Ing2, Cing2. Hikz.. kpn kite show lagi? whaha 

Another one pics in the same scene. haha. Cheryl, Dana, Rahman & Eman. Haha. Haha.. Rare pics of Ramen, he'll kill me if he know I posted this. whahaahahaa.... Hav fun man, see ya arnd in sch. whahahaa (evil grin) 

Linus. whaha.. This series of pics that i'm gonna post re taken from beat's gallery. haha. see the link. I misss sch.. argh! whaha.. So yeah. this is Linus, one of my gd fren, durin ur life Drawin cls... Measurin some stuffs on teh wall. whahaa  

Today, time flew quite fast...
Woke up arnd 1.30. Haha.. It was like..
Now my sleepin time had changed. Haha.
Arghhhhhaahahaha........

Went to play with my bro (his neopets lah..)
then, did some gdbye stuffs for Ko Benk..
Yep, He's gonna leave Singapore for good..this sunday
So we're gonna hav a farewell bbq tmr @Cath & irene's place.
Haha.. experimentinw ith white pen on black paper. Hoho..
I luv the results.. Maybe shall scan it in & posted it for
Deviantart. HOho..! Again hoho!

Went for cell grp arnd 6.. Yes, as usual, the latecomin woman.
Haha. Met up with Stefanus, Teguh, Steven & Susan in Toa
Payoh interchange, then moved our way to Oliander Tower.
Anyway, once I open the Irene-Cath's room door, imagine..
I saw a farm.. whaha. I practically saw a farm of crazy kids!
It was like.. so many! Never in KUAT pukat history ever we
had this huge bunch of grp.. whaha... It wa slike.. small rm,
cramped.. whaha.. We had:
*me
*feny
*genevieve
*susan
*Irene
*Catherine
*Vera
*Tadya
*melodya
*Agha
*dimas
*Ci Ling2
*teguh
*stefanus
*Steven

Haha.. Ate nasi goreng, oh lala~ Indo food is great yo~
Then, aft the sharin & stuffs, I was given a task to
decorate a shirt for Ko Benk. whaha.. We hav our evil
plan for him for teh bbq hwhahahaa..
Anyway yeah.. whaha. Tts abt my day...

Oh yeah,. the guardian's granddaughter came juz now. Haha
She was like... a year pluz now. & She didnt cry when i hold
her. Huhuh! yes.. My skill of playin wif kidds didnt go misssin!
whahaa.. Whad a good Charlotte. whah.. Yes, her name is Charlotte.



For today's cell grp, we re talkin abt HOly Spirit. Oh well,
suddenly one of Ci Ling2 & Dimas's stuff remind me of a friend.
Hahaha..Read up on my prev entry abt the meetin og Meowmoo.
Tts' exactly whad they said (abt whad I said there.. haha)

HOhoho...
New photos are uploaded in my "photos".
hahaa. Juz click to them (see right side of this blog)
& view my idiotism. whaha
Hurrrah.. wahaaha!

ah... Listenin to Beatrice's Super Fresh.
Haha, Quite an old CD yeah, but anyway,
I dunno.. Still.. I listened to it. Boredom kills
I guess..

Anyway, the details of my 'today'. Haha
Gt up around 1+, rushed to get myself to City Hall,
met Mellisa at Yio Chu Kang MRT. Was late for 20
minutes. There were me, Beat, Shan, gQ, Max, XJ, Fred.
Anyway we were talkin abt MeowMoo. Sigh, so much
stuffs happening. I dunno man, i guess this meowmoo
prob worsen my bad mood. whahaa.. Anyway, yeah...
I'm a bt pissed by teh fact that someone abused "God's name
& bible quotes".

Ah well, yes,liek whad he said,
human flesh are weak, we tend to fulfill our lust,
blah blah blah, we succumb ouselves to our fleshly desire..
(not juz lust k?).. But yeah, if you love God, if you love Him dearly,
sincerely... then why lose out to your flesh? Why let your flesh
control you? why not drive your life with the love you hav for God?]
Control yourself... as how you would not want to disappoint your loved
ones..

Argh.. I'm disturbed now. wahaha.. Yeah.. waahahaha..
Nothin lah, seriously nothin, juz me & my weird way of relievin my
PMS. hahaa..

Skip, skip skip...
Now, we went to do our photo-taking at Esplanade.. Hahaha.. It was fun
but tirin too. Aft which we went separate way-- I went to Tanjong Pagar
for an international student forum research on Singapore Education.
Thanks to Evelyn.. I gt 40 bucks from 2 hours' stuff. wahhaa..

Didn't know Johannes my ex-sch mate was there too. hahahaa.. (evil grin)
in the end, I was sent home with their (Jokko-Johannes) car. whaha
HOrraaay , haha. My 'bro' Jokko! whahaha.. It had been a while...
Hahaa.. Funny guy, I love to bully him, release my stress on him.
& he's still cool with it. whahaa. Cos he did teh same to me. whahaa..
Ya ga Jo, ya ga Jo? Blackmail, blackmail,blackmaill! whahaha

This boy (jokko) is an interestin homo sapien. whaha. he had this strong
will & different way of thinking. Never once he gave me anythin cos he
believed he shld not give anyone anythin unless she's the girlfriend.
w ahaha.. evil you jokko!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hahaha


Di akhir cerita
Pemeran utama wanita hanya bisa menangis
Tapi kemanakah tangisan itu?
Digantikan oleh gelak tawa
Gelak tawa sendu hampa dan kosong
Yang bergema di 4 sisi tembok bergerigi
Sinar mata yang terpancar
Mencerminkan kesepian tiada tara
Kawan menjauh, sobat sembunyi

"Apalah arti dari keberadaanku?"
"Siapa yang kan ingat diriku?"

Hanya hembusan angin malam terdengar
Menggantikan kecegangan dan kelam malam
Diam diam suara tetes air terdengar
Tiupan seruling alam berkumandang
Seolah mengingatkanku,

"Anak-Ku, kau tak sendiri"
"Walau kadang kau rasakan hampa,
Kutetap berdiri di sebelahmu"
"Tak kan ada yang bisa pisahkan kita"
"Karena Ku cinta kau selamanya"
"Tlah Kuberikan hidup ini padamu"
"Apalah bukti2 yang perlu lagi kau lihat"
"Apa lubang paku di tanganKu tak membuktikan
Kasih, Cinta dan pengorbanan..?"

Dan kuteriak, tak bersuara
Kumenangis..
Tersungkur...
Di depan mezbah Allah....

fariz... i forgot to post this pic of his. whaha.  

Ah.. Today was another tiring day. Couldn't sleep
yesterday, it was until 4.30+ a.m that I stop
chekin out frenster, sendin testimonials etc..
& yeah, the best part, postin boring & lame bulletin..
Too bad most of em were Indos. whahaa.. Paiseh ppl..

Wake up at 12, went out for another MeowMoo meetin
with the packaging printin guy. Oh well, nicely done
the design, hope he dun give chepo lame prints whah)
The folders for clients are done too. Shan & I went out to
print em yesterday.. Then me & beat folded em..
Fillin them with teh stuffs. Anyway yeagh...

Then went to Beat's hse. Took "super Fresh'.. Oh I am
adoring Joe from Good Charlotte! He is cool! Admirable!
Arghh.. haha.. If you dun get whad I mean, read this month's '17',
I read em from shan's..

Not in my good mood now. Sorry, I shall stop here.

action kid.. tt's my black shirt. whahahaa.. (it was my mom's haha) 

my lame bro. whaha.. He's with my shade. whaha the free one from Styel Mags. whahahaa.. This is supposed to be some junkie post. whaha. choreographed by him & me. we are lamers. whahaha 

oh I am soo handsome. Haha, if I would go for sex change, guys forget any gurls.. I'll be sweepin them away from u. haha.. (shades are not mine, it's my guardian's hahaha)  

Shan & Beat... Haha.. my gurlssss..  

Official meowmoo folders for client. Hahaha.. Yeah man, it was me, shan & beat who did the thingy.. huurah.. whaha 

Lighthouse - Take me away

This time all I want is you
There is no one else
Who can take your place
This time you burned me with your eyes
You see past all the lies
You take it all away

I've seen it all
And it's never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you

Take me away
Take me away
I've got nothing left to say
Just take me away

I try to make my way to you
But still I feel so lost
I don't know what else I can do

I've seen it all
And it's never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you

Take me away
Take me away
I've got nothing left to say
Just take me away

Don't give up on me yet
Don't forget who I am
I know I'm not there yet
But don't let me stay here alone

This time all I want is you
There is no one else
Who can take your place

I've seen enough
And it's never enough
It keeps me leaving me needing you

Take me away
Take me away
I've got nothing left to say
Just take me away

Take me away
Take me away
I've got nothing left to say
Just take me away

Interesting son sent by my Rice to me.
NIce...~ Aniway yeah.. this song really
sounds like some worship songs..
Which is beautiful, as u see in teh Lyrics.
great.. i can recycle this song & sing it.
hurrah~

Huarghhhhhhhhhhhh!
Whad is he tryin to do man!~?!
My bro's juz sooooo arghhhhhhh~

Oh, well, 1st-ly he kept on askin me
abt my whereabout, then asked me
to go Outram MRT... Then set up
i-banking. I mean.. who are you to rule
my lifeeeeeeeeeeee??????
Arghhhhhhhhhh!
Kid, you're 19000 years too young for this..

Anyway, light stuffs abt today.
Went out with Shan to get the MeowMoo
folder printed. Cool, the stuffs is awesome...
Yessss.~!
Then, went to meet Beatrice (went off of point
from my original plan to hui jia & rest, makin
arts with my beautiful tablet...) at Heartland
Mall, gt the papers & did some stuffs for the
folders. It was fun, doin the fodling and stuffs,
crappin and ermhem2-in abt things.
Wahahaha.....

Nothin new today... The boss is quite happy abt
the folder. Yes man! Hahahaha..
Fred, I think u shld pay Beat more like the guys..
She did lotsa work too, man!

La la la la... Went to install my beautiful drawin
tablet (recently). Now I can do my stuffs in peace..
Hohohoho.. Yes, gonna post the 1st result when
I'm done. Hahahaa...

kath: myself.. It had beena while since I posted my pic. (issit?) whaha. crazy me. Taken by feni, who had juz gotten herself a camera phone & started snappin pics of everyone. Jia you, sayangku! 

crazy siblinghood: cici ade sama2 gila.. man...whahahaa.... I looked like some guy.. gantengnya.. whaha 

crazy siblinghood: gila.. totally gila.. whaha.. sorry, itu kaki gw yg jelek. paha babi hutan di belantara irian jaya 

Crazy siblinghood: Cant stop posing. everyday is a crazy day for us. whaha 

Irene the heboh gurl: Eh Rin, gw blg juga apa.. cakep kan? ga percaya photography skill gw seh loe. wahahaha hai......~ Kawaii ne? 

my bro the crazy one: ah.. gaya loe.. whahaa.. keren kan? sapa blg ini rambut anak jaman doeloe? whahaha 

my bro the crazy one: gilaaaaa.. udah gileeeeeee. whahaa 

dumbster siblinghood: whahahaa.. 

my bro teh crazy one: Urghhhhhhhhhhhh~ 

my bro the crazy one: Bweeeeeeeeeeeee~ 

my bro the crazy one: Haha, i saw the huge 'light bulb" on ur nose~ 

crazy siblinghood2: whad the heck? 

crazy siblinghood 1: me& my bro... whaha.. 

I juz gt my super straining day of teh week (I guess..
If everythin's alrite for teh next 6 days.. how lame).
Okie, maybe not for teh week, but for a while. haha.

My depressing stuffs was actually caused by my interestin
menstrual cycle. Dumster! Haha. This mornin I wake up &
feel very2 'light', so light tt made me thnki, "so weird? Where
the heck is my moody?"
Yuan lai......... whahahaha.. The thing, yes, the unwelcome guest..
sick! so yeah.. I was sufferin today from cramps.

Nv been in cramps for my whole 18 years 3months a few days...

Went out with Rain & Beat to SimLim. Gten myself a drawing
tablet for 83 bucks! Banzai, i love You, Lord!
Then, ah.. I shall not bitch abt my bro anymore as u guys know how
tryant this homosapien is... Oh well.. Then, went to work at my
uncle's place, clearing up his bloooody boooks and medicines..
Whad teh heck, he eat like ,tens of tablets everyday.. for his
watever i dunno.. whahaha.. oh man.......

& now.. I'm tired.. Lemme bathe.. whahaa..
ciao..~


Anyway, abt the Dec somethin last year blog, the albino guy
had identified himself to me. So nice of him...Aw~
He;s from Ronin-- Levan.. Wow..

Huaaaaaaaaah~ Went to church today, nothin special..
Oh yeah... I'm down with beautiful flu, dyin. Haha..
& now my back ache like some ol' gramps.

I don't know why, these few days, my mood had been
horrible, maybe PMS? Hm.. who knows..
I can't concentrate.. Argh.. *looked arnd..*

Bonded with my brother quite a lot nowadays, we were
laming around, creating all sorts of funny faces & took the
pics, or creating some lame videos. haha. Man, I can cry
him a river, not beause of sadness, but because of the funny
stuffs he did.

Tmr shall be another packed day. I juz dun understand, time
runs after me all the time. Haha..

Apakah hari esok kan lebih baik?
Ataukah ku kan memandang langit dengan tatapan kosong?
Seperti sedia kala,hanyut dalam pikiran.
Lepaskan lelah, resah dan galau, Tuhanku.
Kuinginkan kedamaian jiwa tuk hari2ku.

Apa pernah lo ngerasa keadaan "kadang deket, kadang jaoh"?
Gw tau kalo ini ga bakalan ada kelanjutannya, tapi aneh aja.
Dunia ini penuh dengan keanehan. Kadang deket, kadang jaoh.
Kayak maen karet aja. Ditarik jaoh, dilepas deket.
Tapi pada akhirnya karet itu juga ga bakalan sama elo lama,
karena karet tuh ga da harganya di mata elo.
Betul?

Gw jd ngerasa kayak karet.. tp cuek lah. Whatever negativity,
gw tengking dalam nama Tuhan! Gw tuh berharga tiada tara man!
whaha, apa coba..

Ah.. Today I wake up soo early liek hell. haha..
Okie, tt's a joke. I woke up at 10, cos Cath called
me to ask me abt the youth service thingy & crazily,
I slept again. When I wake up, it was like.... 12++,
I went to my room to check out some papaers on my
bed when i saw the usher schedule.

Haha, *sudden splash of images* USHER MEETING!
Haha.. So yeah, rushed to Ko Terence's hse, everyone's
there. I joined em for the last 1 hour only, then we headed
to church office for the youth service.

After which (a super super emo & great worship session),
I went off at 4 30 to Clarke Quay & meet the Bassfish & Seks,
Hans, Fariz, Lynn for the gig. Haha.. The gig was fun, although
a bit cramped & super hot. Shan came, Rain too. Fairuz was with
his band for the last performance. I hate to say this but the
music's good, only after u minus the vocalist. Overall, bassfish did
okay. Wish u guys all the best. keep on training.

When I went home.. My guardian called me. Whad happened next
really shocked me man.. I mean yeah, I like this maid of mine.
She dun really talk much & yet.. she could do her things rite. We can
joke arnd. Oh well, my guardian went hm arnd 10 30, she went to the
toilet next to teh maid's rm, only to discover some 'black shadows'.
When she on teh light, teher's this indian dude who were hidin
behind the cabinet, squattin under a chair.. He was sleepin with my maid lah.
OMG, OMG. Anyway... I do understand that certain ppl hav certain need
and some gt higher needs than teh other, but tt doesnt mean you can
anyhow do it somewhere ... Very risky, dangerous etc. yeah.... & teh
best part (sarcasticly) is that she had this bible on top of her desk, together
with teh photo of tt guy that she juz knew for a few days.

Arghhhhhhhhhhh.. Humansssss!
Control ur desire!!!!!