Heeeeyaaa~ heeeyaaa~ (Outkast: Hey ya)
Hahaha..
Aniwae, done wif my T&T small test. . 46/50..
Bloody shitty when u know that u cn score a bloody 100%.
Hahaha..
aniwaez... yeah.. today i feel in love...
I feel in love
I feel in love
I fell in love
with the stupid ultra man
that i need to draw for the Line animation journal book 01.
Hahahaha.. Seriously lah.. it is.
Cos frm whad i'v drawn so far, tt bloody Mr Egg is givin me blood problems. whahaha
Aniwae, gtg. Doin my job, later on maybe onlining.
Now, helpin my lil bro doin his perspective drawin in sch.
I cant believe this, teh sec 1s in Yishun sec Sch are doin whad we did last sem for
drfun. hahaa.. (If i cant draw tt for him, where to hid my alamak face) whaha

Ck.. haha, Had been slackin for the past 2days.
God knew whad I did these days. Hahaha..
Yeah, anywae, today, i didnt wake up late as i was expectin
myself to be. Came to church on time, REALLY on time.

Yeah, today's great. The ushers are one whole bunch of
lunatics & jokers. Hahaha.. Its like.. dream team.
Me, Susan, Billy, Doko & Steven. It's like, lamure.. Hahaha..

Aniwae, accompanied Feny to hunt for an evening goen for
her Kumon colleague's wedding. Well yeah, we gt 1 for her aft
the long 2.5 hours search. While eatin ice cream cone (her treat)
at the McD, we were talkin abt, yeah.. what else. hahaha..

So I heard her sayin,
" U know, I was once havin a guy best fren. We were frens for 6 yers
& when i went out wif Diles (her fiancee for 5 yers now), I juz found out
that he developed feelings for me. I never want to talk wif him anymore.."
Haha, kinda 'wow'ed by her statement but yeah, she made it clear to me that
she felt her trust betrayed by the chap.. Her frenship trust. Hahaha..
So I think that mus be whad 'erhem' felt when 'yeah' happened.
Yes, I began to feel guilty again now. Hahaa..
But then again, I cant undo whad's been done.
& yeah, do i sound like that IMD #1 scumster now?
I hope not. Hahahaa..
I shall force my mind to get some peace now..
Ciao.... =p

List of things I need to finish:
* COMDI print ad
* IMDP1 research & finalisation of my ideas
* Life Drawing Fort Canning thingy
* Life Drawing Final Project
* Life Drawing 2nd Journal
* Line Anim 01 journal book 01, 02, 03
* Line Anim 01 final assignment
* T&T exam

Yeah, went to church today, printed out my T&T stuffs. Phew.. haha
Few more to gooo~
Yeah, basically, i was in the church for youth, & this time arnd, I think the
music team was tryin somethin new like, i dunno, interestin style of music.

Aniwae, it came to me that I was still bitter.. Haha. Yeah, sounds cliche or dumb,
or maybe i am dumb, but watever it is, I found myself prayin to Him,
"Sayin thank You is not easy for me now,
But I will say thank You for the strength You implanted in me,
That I may be still alive, crazy as alwayz & use my brain."
Haha, sounds lame... Yeha I am..

Then came to the most emo moment when they started playin on the song
"Karena Cinta", an original song by the Indonesian Idol winner, Joy Tobing.
Well, the song (If i'm not wrong) is supposed to be a gospel song, but
for non christian public, they changed the word "Yesus" to "Cinta".
yeah, whatever it is, the song really struck my heart. hahaha..
it was like.. yeah.. erm... hehehe... I ..... cried.. hahahahaha..
But ya lah, its all rite, Susan & ci Ling2 did too. Hahaha..
So it wasnt a big deal when I found myself covered wif tears.
Yeah... It feels good after cryin. Or rather, sheding some tears.
Like a lumpful of load had been lifted somewhere somehow.
NOt all, but yeah.. hahaha..

Hari ini adalah lembaran baru bagiku
Ku disini karena kau yg memilihku
Tak pernah ku ragu akan cintaku
Inilah diriku dengan melodi untukku

Dan bila aku berdiri (And when I stand)
Tegar sampai hari ini (strong until today)
Bukan karena kuat dan hebatku (not because of my strength and power)

Semua karena cinta (Everything is because of love)
Semua karena cinta (Everything is because of love)
Tak mampu diriku dapat berdiri tegak (I don't hav my own power to stand strong)
Terima kasih cinta (Thank you, love)

Heh.. I drank a can of coke arnd 9 p.m.
One of the 7 deadly sins has been commmitted... "Gluttony?"
Hahha.. Yeah.. I drank while watchin "You are the One" on Ch8.
the show is nice, ins ense that it's hilarious & clever,
aaaaaaaaaaaaalthough..~ everythin in teh show seemed to be in such
a smaaaaaaaall world that all of them are connected in this 'friendster'
kind of link. Everyone knows everyone but it's juz that "i know u but
I dunno u know him too" those kind of things. haha.. Lame.

Yeah, we went to Fort Canning Park this morning, aft the MewMoo
meeting wif Moses. Yeah, initially i dragged the departure cos i did my IMDP1
printing blah blah blah. Aniwae, lotsa ppl are in mad mood, bad mood
or what-so-ever. But when we reached Fort Canning, it'z juz.. gone..
The moodiness are slowly gone & i found myself liking Fort Canning so much,
as in.. the peaceful.. beautiful surroundin & such. hehehe//
There was music, & some sopranos, very2 tribal songs & yeah, i dunno..
I think teh jungle suits me.. whahahaa.. Yeah, lame.
Tia was hilarious all the way, & i foudn myself crappin wif her.. hahaa.As alwayz..

Aniwae, we went to Plaza Singapura to eat & crap. Lamingly play around Carefour,
taking crazy pics wif milk powder cans & coke.. whahahaha.. yeha, we are lame..
What can be lamer than this? Hahahaha....

Then i went home, get my dinner, bathe, get my line animation stuffs done for tmr,
& had a tiff wif my bro over the comp. Yeha rite, like as if he owns thsi universe,
that watever came frm his mouth is a mandate.
When he said, "eh, i wan to u se the comp" means thats' final. Off!
he can do it anytime he likes, downloadin stuffs for his ever-beloved pampered pocket pc,
downloadin junks that i'm sure even aft he uploaded them into the PPC, he wont
use it in a way or another, Huh, show off!
Yeah, tehn scolded me when i downloaded stuffs, sayin, "oh, why u download this & that,
it will lower the speed of teh comp."
Or when i needed to use he'll give me, "do work or chattin? huh, liek as if u do work"

Really, whad teh heck? Now who's older, my boi? I dun care if u dun respect or whatever
traditional stuffs abt elder siblings blah blah blah, but dun rule my life.
Funny & hilarious, yeah, tts my life.
BUt i think i love it
& yeah i luv it? I dunno, shld be..

Aniwae, decided to 'hack care' abt everythin & look on the bright side of the
sun, even if it's hot like hell, not tt i ever went there.

Yes, Beatrice & Riana (my fren in Indo) had both consoled me, aft the series of
sickenin yet dumb entries. Wow, i nv thought i wrote my entries in a very2
suicidal & angsty way.. It's like, subconsciously formed within split of seconds when my
fingers are unleashed to type stuffs. Heehe.. Lame.
Doomo arigatou, kanojo no hito tachi! (am i rite?.. or left?)

I will ganbatte & jia you, Not to ponder over soemthin that's very2 simple yet i thought,
or rather yeah, I made myself thought that i aint gonna see sunshine anymore, not tmr, not today.

Ck Ck..

Aniwae, I tried to plan my future now. hahaha.. yeah rite, like as if i'm gonna do it, but i hope to do it.
Yeah, need some form of courage, patience (load of em) & monetary fund lah of coz.
Yeah.. Aft i grad, i'm gonna get a job or if my dad allows.. i'll take BA & contd to Master.
Aniwae, aft which i'll get a stable job wif good income.. High income if possible.
So high that i could retire young enough to go back Indo
& open my own orphanage
& take in lotsa kids that has been abandoned or parentless
& take them as my own
& nurture them
& let them enjoy their time of their life
& educate them
& show them life
& eventualy let them go when they are ready

I'm not gonna open a normal orpahange, it'll be more like a shelter.
& yeah, I will need lotsa money, patience & some crews.
heh, I alwayz hav this plan ever since watchin Renjani in Biola Tak Berdawai.
+ the courage part. wonder whad will my dad do if he knows my plan..
Option a) disown
Option b) Scodlin rows for ever
Option c) regretted sendin me over to sg & force me to work for some erghh job like acc
Option d) quickly married me off before i execute my plan

No no no..
I'm gonna do it.
hahahahaha..
This is me.
Me is this.
Hahhaa.. I'm dumb.


"I'm not unwell, I'm juz a lil crazy.
I know, rite now u cant tell.
But soon enough you'll gonna scared of me
'bout how I used to be." ~ Editted version of matchbox 20 Hahah..

Alfie didnt ask us to do presentation, which is wow,
in fact he surprised us by askin us for a submisson due tmr.
hehehe.. How I loooove Alfie.. Khi khi khi khi....

Yeah. I dunno, common problems wif human being (or maybe me only)
is that one moment u laugh, the other u sux. This is weird, very2
phenomenal behaviour that is yet to be researched on, experimented on,
hypothesised on, concluded on & cured on. Wahaha..
HOw i wish i could be cured frm it.

I guess i cant really think of holiday.
It'll be a prob if my dad knows i'm havin early hols.
I dun wanna go back indo, bein imprisoned at home,
waitin to rot to death.
It's a bad thing since i know my mom is lonely,
i shld be back to accompany her & entertained her.
Whereas my dad, argh...
He must be singin his 'love songs' abt $$$$$ Arghhhhh...

Wahahaha...
Now yeah.. lokkin back & see on w had i hav done so far,
I really think i'm a lump of useless bum.
Forget is a skill i need to master the most.
or else.. the torment, the memories,
they are there,
piles & piles of it, stackin up in one
Memories of all the dumb evil stupid sick crazy nutsy things tt i did,
That hurts ppl , tt hurts me.. tt hurts everyone..
Things that ppl do to me,
Argh.. whahaha... wahahahaha..

Yeah, i'm nutsy ..
nee dto do my digimagin, renderin Amanda's 3rd face now. hahaha...
Ciao

Hm.. Well, obviously i think i indirectly hurt or offended anyone
on my prev entries.
Okay, i apologize for it. I dun mean it to be tt way.
Yeah, itz juz.. general terms.
I dunno. i'm talkin crap.
the more i continue, the more i shall banged my head against this comp..
yeah, talkin 'bout testosterone-charged female, I am beginnin to feel
more & more like a guy. Hhaaa..
Yeah, i shld visit woodbridge to check out whether i can reserved a place for me.
Yeah, pls..
I need to shuddup. or else.. This wont stop. Gahahahhaa...

Hm.. Suddenly I was reminded of my entry on Parfait Tic's dialog..
Funny la la la la~

I feel bad,
I am a defect human being.
I feel things I shouldn't feel,
I do things I shouldn't do,
I say things I shouldn't say,
Tell me,
Why do I live?


The reason is God.
He wants me to live.
& so I live.

I think I feel better wif specs. hehe..
Well yeah, I dunno, this is juz lame & funny.
To think that I am not up to a female standard,
I shall be ashamed of myself & hid in the jungle of East Timor.
I shall run, and jump, and run and jump,
And run and jump, so as the clouds rolled by.

And run and jump,
And run and jump,
As far as the ocean stretches,
As high as the mountains,
Then when I reach the peak of the breakwater,
I will shout His name, the Lord Almighty.
I will look at the sceneries around,
As crystalised tears break my brittle skin.
Afraid as I am,
Much afraid as you are,
The fear inside has began to diffuse out.

Closin both eyes,
Prayin for courage,
I plunged myself against the sea,
Against the air,
Against the wind,
Against everythin that blocked my visions,
Against the odds of human err.
And when everythin is over,
I shall be reunited wif The Highest One.

belive me, only dumbie would do this. Harming yourself wont be doin any good.
In fact, you'll go hell when u hurt the "temple of God", which is your body.
& When u take your own lives, you are to committ murder.
The choice is yours.
Dun be dumb. Rite?

haha, i remembered the time when i was sec 3.
In frustration, i cooked up a compo of a gurl
who lived a blissful lives..only to find herself
broken and betrayed by her real life,
that she went havoc and hid herself in the east Timor jungle.
To think abt tt, wow.. hahaha...

Yeah, maybe i could hid myself in that jungle when i could
no longer take the world in peaceful manner.
Buildin myself a hut of wood and blah blah blah,
much alike to 'The Hatchet" story book. Argh.. Bloody hatchet!
U destroyed my Literature sec 2's grade!!!!
Plungin it down frm A1 to c^! Bloooooooody!!!!
(i know its my fault anywae..)

Ah~
Today.. I saw a bird in the sky.
It was red in colour,
flyin high above the fluffy clouds.

The sun was shining hard in his place,
& I found myself wonderin if the sun will
go down on my side & heat me up like hell.

Anywae, as I said earlier on,
The sky WAS blue.
It was red now.
Yeah, sux, it was red now.
The sky bleeds,
Juz like those women bleed on their peak of the month.

The deep dark red bloody sky
terrorised my dreams day & night.
Like faces that mock on the road trip.
You cant ignore their banging of heads.

I banged my heads too,
W'all my might my head was down.
It didnt hurt tt much.
Only a lil bit or two.
Shriekin voices that is unheard,
Wait! Did I say voices?
There's no voices at all!

Yeah.. There's no voices at all....

Only the thrill of the nite,
Eloping at my feet,
eating my brain juices,
Screaming emo rock,
Biting fingernails,
Scalding hot H2O,

Whad do I see?
Whad do I hear?
Whad do I feel?
Hello... Hullo... Hallo...

Ah... drop dead end of the road
Yesh so this is the end of the road.
To this feeling that only be felt by me,
I thereby said, "hello, hullo, hallo"

Haha, I'm lame, didnt I
Juz write down 1 sentence by 1 sentence. whaha..
lamin to myself.
Thiz iz fun, i shld hav done this more often. Wahahaa...

Hah~!
Hahahahahaahahahahahahahaha
hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
Hahahahahahahahahahahaahaha
hahahahahahahahhahahahahahaha

Ternyata dia emang udah punya dambaan hati.
& yang pasti bukan gw karena gw ga pantas miliki dirinya.
Jadi....................
Hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
Hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
Hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

Yang penting gw ada Tuhan,
Gw ga butuh yg laen.
Yang pasti, makasih karena loe udah tulis di jurnal loe,
Jadi gw skrg tau apa yg loe maksut..
Jadi gw boleh terjun bebas di angkasa..
Yeah.. whaha. Mati aja.

(canda.. when will i get to such extreme)
whahahahahaa

wooohooo,,
Bloody lame. I cant use my comp at hm...
Well, appareently it had broken down,
reformatted & yeah. blahg blah blah,,

Aniwae, cant do my sch jobs now.. ARGH!! whahal..
So yeah, went to sch earlier & hide in gQ's hse. whahaa..

Aniwae, today's T&Twas a bit sucky. I gt heart attack.. whah
(connotation), yeah. lotsa holes here & there...
Argh! but yeah.. i cant help it, i'm sucky nowadayz..

& yeah, juz did 60% of the 1st images for next week's submission.
for digimaging. Haiytah....
dunia ini kacao...

Yeah, nowadayz.. my brain dun work the way i want.
Yeah, i keep on imaging.. juz liek digital imaging.. whahha..
Imaging~ imaging..~
Argh.......
Agony in distress.. but yeah. not anyone's fault. only me.

Td gw lg jalan brg mrk, kedengeran dia ngmg somethin soal
cewe lah, apa lah.. gimana yah, gw emang manusia biasa,
manusia biasa yang bs terbakar cemburu. ato apapun juga,
mungkin kuping gw selective hearing. Yeah, gw sux.
big time..
yeah..
hgahahaha
but i dun care..
When we reach the time whereby u can both function as female & male
(not physically), u dun feel there's a need to get into a romantic relationship
wif any guys (or gurls.)
Solo might be gd for me. yeah, i sux big time.
wahahahaha..
& i'm psycho..! Lets go woodbridge.. whahahaha.

Aniwae.. whha. today i get to see what IMD showcase is all abt. whaha. Nice2..
Well, itz juz not my gd day. I know i shldnt be bitchin abt it here.. ahHahaha..
Yeah,
i'm this sickenin gurl
wif sickenin head
& sickenin smile
wif sickenin feelings
& sickening emotions.

I shallnt elaborate more..

Well, td gw ngeliat dia duduk bareng cewe itu. Waktu gw isengin si cewe earlier on, dia blg,
"oh gw ga mao dia" dgn bercanda. Dulu ngmg, "dia bukan punya gw"
Well, obviously mereka tuh jd deket bgt. Cewenya ga byk omong, tipe cewe yg gw rasa
cowo itu bakalan suka, karena dia tuh tipe cewe yg tenang.. kayak air di hulu sungai.
Sedangkan gw tuh kayak murky mud water yang jijay & ga tau dlmnya paan.
Aniwae, yeah, dia duduk bareng cewe itu. Trus mrk duduknya dkt bgt. I mean, gw ga da
hak sama skali buat ngmg kayak gini. gw ga blh sama skali untuk ngerasa entah sedih, ngiri ato
sakit hati, toh bukan dia yg suruh gw suka dia.
Umngkin emosi ini bentar lagi mati, mati ditelen Bumi.

"We are born wifthout sin, but we are born in teh world of sin. That's why we are attracted to sin.
Sinful is not our nature, for God didnt create a sinful nature of anyone...
It is more likely you & ur self determination, moral values & belief that meter ur sin" ~ Ci ling2


Yeah, i did a test frm XiaoHui's blog. whaha. & this is the results..
Results
Your answers suggest you are 'Planner; Logic; Heart; Introvert'
Your answers suggest you are a Nurturer

The four aspects that make up this personality type are:

Summary of Nurturers
Care for the important people in their lives
Strive for harmony and avoid confrontation
Think of themselves as gentle, conscientious, and mature
May have trouble making decisions that could hurt others

More about Nurturers
Nurturers are quiet people who believe in order and diligently look after the people they care about. They focus on the needs of others and establish routines to help them meet their commitments.
Nurturers are the most likely group to say they prefer a job where the same thing happens every day, according to a UK survey.
Nurturers remember details that are important to them, such as their friends' birthdays and anniversaries. People with this personality type value others' feelings and may challenge behaviour they think is insensitive.
In situations where they can't use their talents or are unappreciated, Nurturers may feel bitter and seek support by complaining to their colleagues. Under extreme stress, Nurturers may become preoccupied with the worst possible outcome and believe that they are heading for disaster.
Because they are so caring and loyal, Nurturers run the risk of being taken advantage of.

Nurturer Careers
Nurturers are often drawn to jobs that allow them to help others.

Go here -> http://www.bbc.co.uk/science/humanbody/mind/surveys/whatamilike/
to find out more abt u. whahaha..

Hm..~
"Frid, lets cry together... Biar senada, biar kedengerannya kayak nyanyian.."
Yeah, tts my current msn nick.
Haha, for a thing or another,
we were both clueless abt how guys view gurls. whaha
& yeah... *sayang2 Frida*, i shallnt elaborate more.

I mean, over the time, i can savely said that i am
numb of all these. & yeah so, 18 year of singleness opened my eyes
widely that guys:
1) no matter how nice they are, or how eligibe they are,
when they dun like, means they dun like.
2) They may act accordin to their preference.
A nice guys acn also act jerk when they need to.

Betul Frid? hehhee...

& yeah, I'm a lil bit 'sick' inside. I kinda feel "blacky clouds all over".
Its bad, its bad.. but it cant be undone.
God, provide me strength,
to hold on to Your feet.
So that i wont fall down more,
Into the bottomless pitch blackness
& once I fell apart,
For I'll never be able to get myself together again..
I guess..
Hahahhaa....
yeha yeah.. I am crazy.
but crayz is gd. It'll help u to get out frm the world sometimes..
I wonder if woodbridge wants me?

Tia taught us some skills of drawin, called..... (erm yeah, well i forgot.. Haha)
It's like, u hear musci, or u see somethin tt will inspire or rather u get immersed
in thing & you start scribble or draw it out. Yeah, dah feeeelin~
Hahhaa.. & I kinda liek tt way, expressin ur emo in a paper, a gd way of running
away faaaar~~ Faaaaaar~~ frm the blooody submission, presentations & paper works..
ARghhh! Hahaha..

Aniwae.. Today is the day... Haha. Its the open hse day.
TP was fully crowded,esp at the Fashion show Stage, whereby i swear i could get
suffocated, due to lack of O2 (nah, i cant swear. yeah, i dun swear.)
Crazzzzy! But at leats yeah, i luv all the clothes, how i wish i could design em all too,
or rather, yeah, hav em to wear for my nothin-to-do time (which is yeah, rubbish,
cos i cant fit it & even if i do, all the bloody fatty stuffs will be like.. escapin through the
uncovered parts of me.. Ikh!!)

Farah & Fariz came today. (Farah brought her fren, Azizah? Hm.. i cant remember,
all i know, a Cedar gurl wif A for her 1st letter & yeah, some Z in the middle of her name..
Yeah, howww ageing i am... )
It was Farah's idea for the 3 of em to come & yeah, things went nicely. We even hang out
in teh studio, while i did my work & they hang arnd. hehehe..
Yeah, such a lovely day.
Oh yeah.. forgot to mention abt Jared & hans' twin ex-prisoners outfit. u'll laugh, i tell u.
really~ hahahahahahhahahahahaaha

Yeah today is not bad..
Considerin i dun hav cls & i came sch to do my work.
Took photos of Amanda for my digimagin.
then had lunch wif tobing & the twinz.
Later on, went to some bazaar in business sch &
ate ice cream at Jupiter while gossipin, well,
not really gossipin, more like talkin. Haha..
Abt entranec test etc.. & yeah, they gonna change
the name of IMD, startion frm next batch.
What a jerk!
& yeah, of cos, the 'mimpi buruk' stories.

& yeah, i feel lot lot guilty.
Very10 guilty.
Did i juz killed someone in the making?
I'm truly sorry & apologetic..
Oh gosh i sound like bastard..
Yeah i am..
*roar*
I killed people.
Yes i killed.
& i shld be killled.
Ha..ha...ha....

(nah, the last 'killed' is not true, i am not gonna get killed.
I need to live for the sake of ppl)

oh yeah.. dia gunting rambut kmaren kmaren.
Wahahaa..
oh well, rubbish.

Then again, I'm talkin rubbish
Tong sampah is where i belong
& i'm lame.
but i'm lame
& i'm nonsense
But i'm nonsense
Lalalalaa~

Aniwae, some thought comes to my mind.
I am scared of the future
I cant guarantee a life for myself
Let alone livin my dream of supportin my folks back there
I wanna be somethin big,
Well at least noticable, to make my dad proud of me
Maybe to u it sounded more like boot lickin
But i hav to make him see that he shld not regret havin me as a daughter
Knowin tt i regretfully go against him for most of the stuffs tt i do
Rebellion boils within the blood
For all i know, i might be evil
Thank God i found God
Yeah He really toned me down a lot
Taught me how to live in this end of times
& some sort of 'support' me to survive in this weird world
it's ok
As long as i do it the rite way,
I will survive
& i shall be someone
That i myself can see someday
Not some overgrown thoughtless sick human being


*yeah it's true, i did a test frm a link on frenster, abt
"whad age do u behave" whaha..
Surprise2.. miine is 26! whaha.
Whereas most of em is like.. 20, 22, 24 teh most.. whahaa
yeah, suddenly i feel old & ageing.
shld admit myself into the museum & be shown as a form of
antique. whahaha..

lame2.. yeah i'm lame..
lalallaa~

yeah.. I'm evil
I alwayz ended up hurtin ppl.
Yes i'm shitified.
(sound sliek i'm Edward The Sccisorhand, huehue)

Kenapa yah? Gw ga pernah blajar ngerti.?
Manusia yang kalo dijelasin masih ga ngerti2 juga,
Whad makes me different sama si mimpi buruk then?

"Kalo ga bs ngerti juga, mendingan mati aja"
~yasha (vol 5)

Wow.. wahda short day in sch...
& i had to suffer goin home in the heat!!
Arghh!!
This is one of teh reason why i dun like going home at noon, or
even afternoon, cos of the bloody sun!! waahahahaha..

Aniwae, Get my model for Digital Imagin, which is Amanda,
teh ADM chio bu. whaha..

& yeah, talkin abt sch stuffs, i tried doin some of the administrative
stuffs over my IMDP1 & COMDI, sortin out stuffs to be done.
& i suddenly remembered of an incident that involves Felix the Lecturer.
Yeah, on monday, he brought the topic of accepting critism.
(which is actually a part of the syllabus)
& he did said soemthin abt some students that blogged bad stuffs abt him.
Well yeah i did, browse through my prev entry.
& like, while he was talkin ,i looked at him & he looked at me,
in the sense that the eyes did the speaking (soemthin like this lah)
Felix: I know u did it
Kath: yeah, so wahd?

I dunno, its true i am angry & pissed multiply on that day. I am to admit that i
was wrong at that point. But well, then again i stull see no sense in
penalisin the word 'gay' & how his explanation doesnt satisfy my judgement
to use the word 'gay', added wif his sarcastic stale humor abt himself being born
wif that word as a meaning for his name. Dude, reflect urself.
Like whad u said earlier, If u dun wan ppl to do tt to u, dun do tt to ppl.
Even in this real world, you hav to practice kindness or else
it will be extinct.
Its true that kind ppl are fast depleting, but this does not create an
excuse for us to be unkind like them as well.
Know urself. Who are you? What are you? How are you?

Hm.. Suddenly I felt lame now. wahaha..

Things happened & changed so fast in this universe.
The fact that we learned yesterday maybe stale for today.
It is at the hands of the new generation
That they determined the freshness of an info.
Thus we're livin in a dangerous world;
An uncertain world that can anytime turns it back on you.
So watch out,
be alert, be patient & be open hearted.

Aniwae, a stuff that I was conversing wif my fren last nite.
I dunno, quite an unusual stuffs for 2 consecutive nights
2 diff people really2 gunned me down to the core.

The 1st one, being a lil bit drunk, well i dunno if whatever he
said is 100% truth or some juz slipped out of consciousness..
Somethin to do abt frenship & stuffs (read my prev indo blog entry)

The 2nd one, its a bt the meaning of Valentine etc.
Well, Valentine means a diff thing in each individual.
As far as I know, it is considered more as a myth and legend,
than it is as a religious celebration.
Aniwae, in a war, esp religious war, there's no saying that
"oh, i hate blah-blah-blah cos they killed blih-blih-blih religion person"
In a war, BOTH party are wrong.
I dun believe in war.
War will start when one provoked & the other gave out aggressive feedback.
Thus, in any cases or another,
unless if it is for country to be freed from torture or colonialisation,
then war is juz a waste of blood.

Yep, u may not wrong when u say somewher in the 7th or 8th century,
muslims were slayed by the Christians or Roman Catholics and therefore you are
disappointed by this fact. But this shld not lead u into stereotypin that all
Christians & Catholics are muslim's enemies.
Same as the Indo's 2003 Xmas bombing. While people were having Xmas mass
in churches, bombs exploded and injured, killed hundreds of lives; & who did it?
Those radical terrorists who uses the belief "Islam".
Well, we shldnt stereotype all muslim as terrorists.

We shallnt judge people by their religion, for aggresive behaviours are not
originated from the root of religion. By stereotypin, you degrade urself to
the lowest in the sense that you dun understand the fact that all human are equal.

Same thing goes for race & gender. Difference does not mean division.
God doesnt want His people to go about dividing themselves.
So why bother dividing urself? Branding urself as different higher species
when u are only mere human.?


Oh well, here i am rubbishin again..
Oh man, I shall stop here..

Weh~Today is Valentine's Day...
Its a very funny2 day (if u know whad I mean)
Hahha, Started the day wif COMDI meeting
Then, at 11 50, start givin out all the gifts to teh 30 guys.. whaha

Yeah, i am able to reveal it to u ppl now!!!!
Haha, Me, Beatrice & weiShan plotted a lame gift for the guy.
A Panadol menstrual Pill enclosed inside a clear small glass bottle! whaha
Inside, there are our personal messages.. whaha & yeah,
to amke it even mroe special.. we had CERTIFICATE OF AUNTHENCY
wif serial numbers & our signatures, how wonderful it is.. whaha. whaha!!

Aniwae, went to Peninsula wif Mud, SekJhia, Jason & Glenn. They bought
their stuffs & we went to hav dinner at Funan.
Then went back to tampines to stone at the McD while discussin some
'yellow' issues. whahahaa,, Very2 'Yellowww'..!
Its funny when u find urself there talkin abt all those wif guys. itz juz funny..
Abt educating each other, talkin crap etc..whahaa..
& worse.. it's on valentine's Day..

yeah, where hav all the sweet romantic great wishes
& dreams in Valentine's Day
tt i used to hav back a few yers ago?
I guess time had change my mind,
To make me realise that nothin goes liek that in reality.
Maybe for some yeah, but not my real life.
Funny.. Yeah.. whaha...
But its ok.. If i can make it for 18 yers,
whad's teh diff to experience teh same thing for another few decades?
Lame lame.. whahaha...

Yeah, i love u ppl,
& tt will never change.
Even though we might hav some ugly talks
or misunderstandin or whatever it is,
I still keep u ppl in my heart.
Its funny, but yeah.. blame me.
juz blame me..
Hahaha...

ck~
The dumbest story of the year..
This gurl by the name of Kath actually went
crazy by waking up arnd 8, then took a taxi to
church as she tt it was her duty for the mornin mass.
dumbster, she juz realised that her's in at the noon
& she went back home. dumb dumb dumb. whaha


Aniwae, went off to Beatchan's hse & did the
"Project 01: Bloody Valentine" whahhaa..
It was funnnn! Though i shalln't displayed all teh infos
today, but well, yeah. i'm havin fun..
everythin is great! We took like, hm.. 5 hrs to finished off teh loose
ends, hehe, while i'm cuttin here & there,
'beautifying' the stuffs here & tehre..
Havin autograph signin session is another lame but fun thing to do.
Aniwae yeah, wif a lllllliiiiiiiiil bit help frm Beat's bro, Joel. Waha..

I figured out that our younger bro sound the same.
Its juz tt "her bro = (my bro + my bro) : 2". whahhaa. weird..

Aniwae.. yah like tt lah.
Tadi gw ngeliat nicknya cowo itu di mesenjer.
Dia tulis sesuatu kayak,
"menyebelin bgt buat melihat ke belakang dan memikirkan tentang
apa yang sebenernya bisa loe lakukan"

(okie, i'm playin lame now)
Menurut hasil pemeriksaan jaksa penyidik,
badan inteligen kami telah mengklasifikasikan hasil pemikiran yang
ditulis berdasarkan nick pria bersangkutan tersebut.
Adalah dua kemungkinan:

1) Bahwa yang bersangkutan masihlah memikirkan masa lampaunya,
dimana ia berbahagia bersama dengan mantannya. Dan dia menyesali
perbuatannya yang telah menyebabkan sang mantan memutuskan hubungan.

2) Yang bersangkutan menyalahkan dirinya sendiri ketika sadar bahwa
perbuatan yang tak bermaksutnya menimbulkan gejolak2 perasaan.

3) Yang bersangkutan sedang sedih

Yeha i'm lame I'm lame. but lalalala~
who cares?
This is my life
God & me rulez over it..
wgaaahaha

Lame..
gw paling benci kayak gini.
Apa yang gue orang udah rencanain,
udah susun bae2, kalo bakalan bener2
kacau sampe kayak gini,
gw dah bete banget.
gw paling benci kalo ga diappreciate.
Persahabatan bukan sesuatu yang loe bilang,
"oh, smakin loe mao jd tmn gw, semakin gw ga mao jadi temen elo"
Apa itu?

Orang ga jadi temen gara2 mereka mikir,
"oh, gw mao berteman sama orang itu"
Itu cara cari temen yang unnatural.
Orang jadi temen karena mereka kenal,
karena mereka bisa ngobrol & bs relate
diri mereka ke orang lain.

Gw paling benci sama orang yang bilang,
"oh, loe ga kenal diri gw"
emang betul gw ga kenal,
emang betul gw ga pikirin, mao gw kenal kek,
mao gw ga kenal kek.
Kan terserah elo yang ngasih info.
Loe mao sejelek apa, loe mao sejahat apa,
tapi to teh fact elo bs bilang and sadar
kalo elo tuh di dalamnya bukan orang yang kita kira,
itu tandanya elo ngerasa elo ga pantes jadi temen kita.
Kenapa ngerasa elo ga pantes kalo emang elo udah jadi temen kita?
Apa loe yang sebenrnya pengen begini?

Terserah elo mao nganggep gw apa,
gw ga tau gmn perasaan yg laen kalo mereka denger ini dr elo.
Personally, gw bener2 ngerasa elo tuh membiarkan
diri elo dikekang sama pikiran2 negativ,
elo pengen smua orang menjaoh dari elo
hanya karena elo ga mao ada kejadian jelek antara elo sama orang lain.
Tapi itu cuman pelarian karena manusia ga bakal bisa idup tanpa teman.

Yang kayak gini bukan cuman elo doang yang pernah ngerasain.
Jangan kira elo ga tau rasanya waktu gw harus nerima kenyataan
kalo ga smuanya yang gw liat bejalan dengan mulus emang begitu adanya.
Jangan salah sangka kalo gw ga pernah ngalamin hal2 yang bisa
bikin gw mikir, "emang mati cara paling bae buat nyelesaiin"
Manusia tuh kalo ga pernah ngerasain sedih, seneng, pengen mati, terharu etc,
dia ga bakalan bisa ngehadapin percobaan2 seiring dia tambah tua.

& ini tuh udah successfuly bikin gw inget lagi tentang hal2 yg pengen
gw lupain, thank you.

#somebody, pls translate this to Justin. I'm lazy to write this in English#
ciao

Wow..~!
Last nite.. i went to slp at 2:30... well, almost..
Haha, myc ousin & i felt hungry so we went eatin
instant noodles, cooked usin the cup noodle method
& yeah, great emough, my uncle woke up & asked for
one too. whahahaa..
I ended up sleepin wif super full stomach.. (pig!)

Aniwae, today went wif my momma a while, ate lunch wif her
& my mom's frens (which is the mother of my bro's ex clsmate,
whatever..)
then went to search for the keymaker.. whaha, before givin up aft
found all the 3 were closed.. CNY really2 disturbed the accessibility of
some services... Thenwent to sch, did my live journal & Ja9 journal
in the Bapho room, whle pickin up some scrap photos frm Jason &
waited for the 2 HFC sistas.. whaha..
Then we went to Justin's hse bai nian... & play cards.. wahah
yeah, i broke my promises not to play, but i didnt take teh money,
fair enough? whaha..

Yeah, i dnno, but last nite, my cousin introduced me to a song by
Corinne May: Fly Away. The song was like.. awwww.. angelic..
It was abt mother... & yeah, came to think abt it...
This world really needs ppl who can hav those kind of kind heart & patience,
to face the world & spread their kindness arnd.
There are too much negativity generated by teh world..
Its like.. the evil had taken over the world, makin this world darker by
each day. & yeah, there are hardly any ppl who possessed the ability
of being patience & carin in times of difficulties.
which is, unfornately, i'm not one of em.
so yeah.. God, grant me patience. Grant me great extra amt of Patience.
To face the day.
To face difficulties.
To face troubles & hardship.
Amen.


Aniwae, dah gw putusin not to giv anythin buat 14/02.
Gw ga mao dia nanti ngejauhin gw lagi kayak dulu.
Aniwae, kmaren dia send gw lagu yg di dlmnya ada lirik,
"di dalam kerangkeng ini , tak dibolehkan cinta"
yeah well, ya dah lah. Gw jg bs idup.
walau di dlm kesedihan.
mungkin dia dah suka tmn gw, mungkin yah.
biarlah. gw harus blajar dr lagunya si Corinne ttg
"gw terlalu cinta ma elo untuk memintamu tinggal"
waha jayus tapi bener.

Phew..~
Today i was LATE again.. haha...
i wake up at 8:44! wahaha..
So yeah, thx to the great uncle 'taxi driver',
within 13 minutes, he delivered me safely to my sch
wahahahaha..

Aniwae, yeah, did a part of the 'Valentine' business
wif the gurls. whaha. & the rest, they're in Beat's hands
lah.. whahaha.. I trust her wif em. whaha..
aniwae, yeah. went out wif my mom. haha
Gt a 'baju' frm BUgis Street, wif my mom.
It was like, the last shop standin i guess, since we went there
quite late. whaha..

Aniwae, yeah. to sum up the whole story, i am in my uncle's hse
trayin overnite wif my mom. Need to find me?
Sms or call my hp. Ciao!

Procrastinatin today...hahaa..
Wake up at 1, did teh final touch for Angelina.
Ate Maggie mie & chicken chop...
Then, re-read all my bday card tt i had here in Singapore. Haha
Very heart-warming...
Then fell asleep.. while dremiin abt soemthin weird but lame..
Then woke up, drink a COKE! whaha (beat, u shall be proud of me)
while writing lotsa lotsa 'love letters' for bloody VDay 2005! whahaa..
But yeah, not yet finished, expect soemthin simple. whaha..
Did my IMDP1 a lil bit & yeah... tts all..
I had a smooth day i guess. whaha. then, takin some pics wif my
brother, while lamin arnd.. Hahhaa. beleive me, full of procrastinatin.

Niwaez, my momma brought me 2 series of Parfait Tic.. & yeah, i'm gona
quote the whole 2 page of the vol 8.. Juz for fun..

Issochi: ya. Kayaknya jadi suka.
Daiya: Waah! Begitu ya? Beitu ya?
Issochi: Tapi, aku tahu sih, itu lumayan berat!
Daiya: Jangan ngmg begitu. Ayo bersulang!
Issochi: Meskipun baru hari ini aku menyadarinya
Daiya: ----------....
Daiya: ..Eh.. Itu... Sperti apa rasanya?
Daiya: Apa misalnya di bagian sini (pointin at his chest), terasa tertekan?
Issochi: Aah, aku, sih, nggak. Rasanya deg-degan, hangat!
Issochi: YANG TERASA TERTEKAN ITU,
Issochi: "CINTA YG MENYAKITKAN"

Weh.. yeah.. Valentine's Day is comin reaaaaal sooon.
& yeah.. things were still slow. whahaha..
I think we might hav to do it somewhere these few days. whaha
Oh well, this will not cause damage to ppl.. really..

& yeah, gw ga pernah dpt apapun dr cowo selama idup gw 18 taun
di hari yg sort-of-suci-buat-org2 ini.. Aniwae, when did i start givin
Val's day stuffs to some guys?Oh..~ erm..... Lemme recall..

* Confidential.. but funny.. i dun mind but names will be disclosed*

Haha, i guess it was started frm pri 6. I wrote a love letter, or whatever it is i dunno whad to call it, but yeah, simply dumb if i would recall tt times, writin some erm.. lovey stuffs abt how my feeling goes & whatever-the-shit-it-is.. whaha.. It was for my fren who sat beside me durin pri 3 term 3&4. whaha.. Funny it might seen, but yeah, i gave him but he misplaced it, cos he played soccer durin reccess time & i guessed it might hav slipped off somewhere.. whahaa.. Yep, i had a reunion wif him & all my ex clsmates & we talked abt tt. He said he didnt read, so well, tts how teh story goes. whahaa..

Sec 1 i didnt giv anythin, except for my gurls, i think.. but i forget whad.. whahha.. (cos i liek no one but myself! wehahaa no i'm jokin)

Sec 2, hm... i forgot.. no wait.. yeah.. I didnt giv to anyone, wahaha. but i remembered, it was the day whereby my best fren (this guy's bro) told me tt his brother asked, & so he told his bro. whad a dumb & innocent soul he had been. wagaahahaa.. poor Jokko, if i had tt evilish side of me earlier tt time, i should hav killed him down frm Hougang Mall on spot. whaha (jokin, again, of cos i wont do it) *bought Chocos for everyone close to me*

Sec 3, Yeah, i went sleepless juz to give a handmade calender, measured each sides mm by mm, carefully, neatly etc.. whaha.. Tt was funny, really, cos teh guy aint my guy & i dun understand why in teh 1st place i made tt, i gt tt idea & i bought everythin, did tt within a week. ome days went without slp. whaha. dumb2. & when i'm bored or tired of doin it, i called him. dumb2. whaha.. Aniwae, gave it to him, i'm not really sure whether he still have it, shall check wif Jokko (his bro) later on. whahaa.. *Baked unsuccessful,(well, it melted &nv regain back its original shape) chohos for everyone close to me*

Sec 4, There was this Valentine's Day celebration in church. Haha, i liked this guy frm my church. & yeah, anywae, to make it short, he turned out to be hah-i-tt-meeting-my-mom-&-hav-lunch+movie-with-the-two-of-us-only-doesnt-mean-anythin. haha. Funny if i remembered, but eyah, go on. I gave him somethin like a glass bottle whereby u filled em wif paper star, but instead i put sand, coloured ones wif glow in the dark ones etc... Haha.. Aft he gt it, yeah, u know whad happened. haha. dumb2.. *gave everyone chocos again*

2004, yeah! i had Valentine's Day wif my parents. whaha. (am i rite? hm..) yeah, it was funny. whahaa. To see my dad tryin to hold my moms hand, while my mom held his reluctantly, funny. whaha. & we went to Taman Anggrek Mall. While, earlier on, I went out wif Riana, ate my lunch wif her & enjoy the time in Pondok Indah/ Senayan, i forgot.. waahahaa.. Long Live The Jomblos!

2005.. whahaha. yeah.. whahahaa... no lah. There will be some bloodshed in the land, believe me. whahahaha.. but yeah, i learnt my lesson wel, i might not giv this yer. i dunno. (mungkin gw bakal bikin/beli tp liat sikon apa gw bakal ngasih ato gw simpen selamanya... haha..) *lemme ask u somethin, where the hell is the money frm? whaha so yeah.. u'll see. khi hi hi hi*

so yeah, for a person who had nv had bf before, this sound quite fun & RPG yeah? whahaa
I am lame, certainly lame.
But i'm not dumb,
I hav my brain to think to feel to calculate & to estimate
so yeah, train my brain to think in the rite sense of mind

Kalo skrg elo dah ga wafat perasaannya,
skarang giliran gw yg wafat perasaannya. whhaa
(jayus, boong2..)
Keinget yg dulu dia tulis waktu kita lg ngobrol di net,
"gw udah suka seseorang"
hm.. kenangan jelek kebayang lagi..

Hmp.. At last..!
Angelina Jolie was finished! whaha
no, i mean.. i finished drawin her..
Aniwae.. is this insomnia tt i cant slp now?
Well, its juz me thinkin too much anywae.

Great public hols, i'm enjoyin every bit of it..
Oh well, whahahaa..

Emang smua salah gw.

Harus lebih sabar, lebih penyayang, lebih pasrah ke smua orang, bukan cuman ke dia aja.
Dasar bego. dah tau masih aja nyendat!

Enter the HFC gurl's den.. Here we are, Beatrice, Weishan & Kath. Yes we are lame, therefore we went to take a series of neoprints. whahaa.  

My bro wearin my cousin's cap. whaha tryin to be hip hop yeah? (lame him) 

my momma, reaidn her chinese proverb books for her chinese homework.. yes, she's in town. whaha 

Wow weee!
Chinese NEw YEAR!
OKie, first of all..
GONG XI FA CAI, WAN SHI RU YI
Bleah..! This year's CNY was great!
My bros & I went over to my uncle's place wif my mom to stayover
for the CNY eve. His new place is great! Casa fina is one of the
finest apartment i ever seen in Singapore, really.. gahaahaha..
It changed my mind frm not-stayin into yeah-whad-the-heck-of-coz-i-stay~!
wahahaha.. yeah, sounds dumb, but tt's me sometimes..

We had like, superb dinner. Lotsa food! Food! Food! Snack! Snack!
My mom & the Filipino maid realy cooked da food sooo weeeeell!
Aniwae, hang out at my 3rd cousin' rm for tt nite, slpt there like
sardines, packed & crammed.. 4 ppl within the smaaaaaaaaall room. whaha..

The next mornin, yeah, granma called frm Indo (or issit my uncle called her?)
then we went in line to wish her (& those ppl stayin in her hse) happy new year.
BUt the weird thing is, they took turn soo fast, so fast that some of us missed
out wishin to the others... Hahhaa..
I had wished my grnma, 5th uncle, 2nd aunt, but not my granpa..
whereas my bro wished 5th uncle, 2nd aunt but not granma.. whaha..
cos the phones kept on changin hands in indo. whaha..
Then called my dad, wished him hehe... Missed him suddenly...

Kinda lotsa ppl gave me, but then again, not really. whaha but i dun care, as long as
I can really pay for whad i need, its ok then..
Its the thought tt counts yeah? hehe..
Aniwae, quite a few ppl smsed me for a happy CNY yeah! whehehe..

Went to watch "KungFu Hustle" DVD & "Flyin Dagger"
Well, i personally like KungFU better than Flyin...
Partly becocs Flyin had lotsa foreplay in which everyone includin
my unlce & his innocent 12-yers-old doaughter were there too. whahhaa.
& Flyin only depend its movie survival by artistic views, composition, good
lookin actors & actresses, but like, the whole movies dun really need to happen.
Like whad Felix said, "u can juz skip the entire show"
Wahaha..

Well, then went off wif the 3 cousins to Century Square & watched CONSTANTINE.
Its nice, really2 nice.. although they never show or explain things in detail, which
means we hav to know a lil bit of background info abt the show before we really
watched it. The effects were gd, i luv Keanu whahaa.. & the female lead is a gd
actress & yeah, she looked like Monica Belluci alrite. whaha..

The story flew in a nice way & yeah.. watch it! whaha..

huah..~
Today is one of teh suxest day ever in my whole entire life.
Yeah.. i gt my COMDI results.. REALLY2... Whad can i say..
I would love to thank Felix for gettin me a step closer towards
acheivin "failure in obtainin gd grades this sem"..
Doomo Arigatou Felix sensei, hope u wont get washed away to
the shore by the Tsumani waves, liek the rest of the Catfishes did.
Yeah, a C means i had to work harder than ever to get at least a fuckin
decent B for COMDI! It's like.. Haha.. U're very2 funny..
U penalised me for writin "teh feeling of gay" juz becos u ASSUMED gay is
homosexual & accused me of usin old-fashioned english.. Really...
& yeah.. Felix Cheong even joked abt the meanin behind his name,

"Hey, dun u know that my name also means gay & happy?"

Really... WTF. whahha...

Aniwae, a lil bit pisse off by the new hp as well... It took me like effort
to get it updated & pay..! whad the.. 27 bucks gone!
yeah, i think i shld juz empty my bank acc & transfer it somewhere before
i really suck up all teh money & let down my dad..
Why issit so hard juz to earn money & giv him bak whatever his..?
I need to find a job.. really..

Aniwae, to brighten things a bit... i shall share wif ya tt gQ had bought his bass!
& i was in his hse wif Mud & Benedict. They were playin songs, singin songs,
lamin arnd etc.. As i was busy transferrin my old phone contact list to the new one
& drawin Angelina Jolie, my gurl. whaha...

Haha... Tried to call Century Square's Nokia Care Centre but
they're nto open yet.. Haha..
& yeah, as i was waitin to fill up this entry, the lamest thing came to my mind
that i associate the "dashboard" word that showed up on the page juz befor
new entry to "Dashboard Conffession" Dunno whether i gt tt rite..
Oh well, juz bein lame..

I saw a new manga, english version, in Kino a few days ago, written by
ANZU HIZAWA!! Kyaaa! It's the Indo mangaka, a new one, young one. whaha
To tell u teh truth, up til today, only a few out of many new indo mangaka had
succeeded their way into our (me & my gurls) heart. Partly because they tend
to hav a very2 incredible cover page, but the storyline & the picturisation of the
manga were like whirlwind. Its soo saad.. haha..
So yeah, my fav ones are of ANZU HIZAWA, ARCHIE THE CAT & the team
publisher of ANIMONSTER (Julian, Archie, etc..)

& well, ANZU, she had quite a few 'defect' (i shall say defect) mangas,
like 'his other personalities' which is a yaoi tt is made into such a thiny weepy
yucky story.. (yaoi = boy's love; homosexual)

anywae, i need to bathe. ciao! whahhaa

Oh yeah, my momma wil be here o the 8th.. haha! Banzaiiii!!!!
but yeah, my dad will not be joinin her.. Hope he dun rot at home durin CNY
as i recount last year's horror CNY..
Ugh.. why does bad memories came easier than sweet ones?
Am i fueled wif hatred inside? why God?

A man went to a barbershop to have his hair cut and his beard trimmed.
As the barber began to work, they began to have a good conversation.
They talked about so many things and various subjects.
When they eventually touched on the subject of God,
the barber said: "I don't believe that God exists."
"Why do you say that?" asked the customer.
"Well, you just have to go out in the street to realize that God doesn't exist.
Tell me, if God exists, would there be so many sick people?
Would there be abandoned children?
If God existed, there would be neither suffering nor pain.
I can't imagine a loving God who would allow all of these things."
The customer thought for a moment, but didn't respond
because he didn't want to start an argument.
The barber finished his job and the customer left the shop.
Just after he left the barbershop, he saw a man in the street with long,
stringy, dirty hair and an untrimmed beard.
He looked dirty and unkempt.
The customer turned back and entered the barber shop again
and he said to the barber: "You know what? Barbers do not exist."
"How can you say that?" asked the surprised barber.
"I am here, and I am a barber. And I just worked on you!"
"No!" the customer exclaimed.
"Barbers don't exist because if they did,
there would be no people with dirty long hair and untrimmed beards,
like that man outside."
"Ah, but barbers DO exist! " answered the barber.
"What happens, is, people do not come to me."
"Exactly!"- affirmed the customer.
"That's the point! God, too, DOES exist! What happens, is,
people don't go to Him and do not look for Him.
That's why there's so much pain and suffering in the world."

I took this from Philo's blog entry a few days ago.
Jared, if u are readin my blog, i hope this will answer ur question
based on the booklet we were given by some gurls at the bus stop
abt "where's God?"
Geddit?
We dun do somethin wrong, we dun go for Him. Tts why..

Like well, mayeb teh illustration of the 'dirty long haired guy' makes
u think that in order to enter the Kingdom of God, we hav to be rich or soemthin,
but no. The meanin behind tt particuar illustration is tt,
Barber = God
Dirty long haired guy = Mankind who hack care God or dun believe
The $$ used to pay the barber = our faith, compassion & open heart
to receive & accept Him

wahaha. i saw this in one of teh new caucasian lacturer for IMD's blog. whaha... 

SeksGuan, SamGuan, Guaninah (a continuation of the other pic) 

GuanGiang, MudGuan, SeksGuan...  

Hm.. I shall blog abt yesterday..
Aniwae, started teh day by paintin my nail....
but u can see the difference, greeeeeeat diff between whad
my right hand can do than my left hand can do.
Tt's soo freakin scary different!
Aniwae, gQ todl me tt the meetin was 1 30, so i jollywell
colourin my nail WHEN he called me tt the meetin was 12 30!
whaha.. doom's day. I rushed my stuffs... everythin was like
being fast forward. whaaha./

Aniwae, met them at Aljunied, only to find out that the 2 music
studios there were not available...
There were Mud, gQ, Glenn, Samson, SekJhia & Joel.
Yeah, so we settled in the Simei one..
I lov Blink's "Stay together for the kids"
& "Down" & Grenn day's "When I came around"
Yeah, they played well, although u can heard the defects here & there.
Coordinatio & stuffs, slowin down & stuffs.
But overall, i gev em 3. whaa. (out of 5..)

& yeah.. aft tt, wen to Diles' bday. whaha..
Won the grand prize which iiiiis......... A shampoo & an unbrella., whahaha..
BUt yeah, nice.
Practice my human photographin skills wif Feny's cam. whaha.how i wish i gt a digicam... But tt can be arranged though. whahaha..
Saw pst Steven & ce Anita.. hehe..Mizz them, but yeah..no Kiki or Charis.. hikz..
Went hm wif Agus & Anton. whhaa. Crappin along the way.
Run like some dumb freakin crazy fella to teh bus stop which is
extereeeeemely far frm Anchorage (opp IKEA).. (T.T!)
yep2...
Thank Feny, for the bday gift she gav me.. hehhee
a torquise jumper. whaha.. *boink* *boink*
erm..i dun mean tt 'jumper' whahaa..
gonna hav to take bath now k?

oh ya... nokia 6600! I am officially ownin one...
(2nd hand. whaha.. )

Weehehe.. Today is a fun day..
Tsts all i can say..
Too tired now.. but yeah..
I luv today..
the end.

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Hm well,.. Today is.. Dea's bday!
& Dilles' bday.. whaha!
Omedetto Otanjoubi Gozaimasu! whaha
Well, Beat's bday went on well..
Wif lotsa stressin stuffs actually, but yeah
we managed to get it off our brain & get together..
Aniwae, well not all but yeah.. hope u guys are able
to 'ren' & forget.
Give & take lah... i dunno if i am worthy to say this, but yeah,
learnin to do tt too.. whaha..

I shall not reveal too much of the bday..
Go & find out in Beat's blog. whaha. Jia You! whahaa

Hulalala..~
Today is someone's bday..~
Lalalaa...~!
Beat2!
Yo, happy bday my gurl..!
Hehehe... Now that you're 18, u shall drink legally..
(is that the only thing tt goes to youth's mind when their frens reach 18?)
(*Erhem!* Welll, yeah..at least better than jared's "Can watch M18 liao")
Wahahaha..!

Okie i'm lame..

Aniwae, wishin ya a happy2 bday.
Do enjoy urself today,
take more photos..
i'll be there at the Esplanade as soon as possible..!
& yeah.. wif this comin year ahead,
I wish ya a lotsa2 love, care, patient & creativity to survive in our harsh industry..
Go walk wif God. Wif Him, every step is rest assured...
Aniwae, stay on what you are comfortable wif...
Try new things that it will gives u new experiences,
broaden ur thought & mind abt everythin.
Be crazy.. Keep up ur craziness..
haha, hope u can survive in this GuanEra.. whaha..
& yeah.. We luv ya,
Cos u're one of the HFC gurls ("mother," as whad SeksGuan said)
Cos u're one of the unique people i met,
someone who can listen to other's thoughts & mind,
without actually commentin on it & yeah.. givin some gd advices..
Aniwae... tryin somethin new for fun is ok.. whah
Hope to get some surprises frm ya..
Althought it's unlikely of u to do so.. whahaha...
& yeah.. "U are beautiful no matter whad they say"
so juz be Beatrice.. whaha..
Be Beatrice
a.k.a Beat the Rice,
a.k.a Bead with Rice,
a.k.a Gohan San,
a.k.a Sushi san,
a.k.a Beat2,
a.k.a Beat Chan,
a.k.a B-Chan,
a.k.a Ryce...

*Phew!* Yeah i finished..!

Beat: ... Whad? Whad u do to my name? walao!
*slap* *punch* *push* *kick* (victoriously..) *Sip*

ENOUGH OF COKE, BEATRICE LIM HUI MIN!
Hahah, or you shall be put into Coke Rehabilitation Centre..
& be put to join the Coke Anonymous...

Ciao my dear.. whahaha...

well well well...
Today i went for my life drg cls, which is the 1st time i saw
Tia showin her fiery hotie temper..
Hahaha.. Moses, listem to her lah dude..
i know u're da director, but so whad?
this is deisgn sch! whaha..

Aniwae... alomost fell down frm the bathtub for the dunno-how-many times,
It's like.. frequently slipped, almost feel down,
hit some part of the leg & will develop bruises tmr i guess., whaha
Aniwae yeah, if let's say i fell frm the bathtub & knocked my head
or whatever it is u might say & unable to speake or even live,
yeah.. I juz wan u ppl to know tt i love u ppl.. hehehe...

Yeah... in this ever-changin world,
Things will alwayz go in uncertain way.
Like it or not, ppl change,
we change...
For the better, for the worse..
But you'll never go wrong when u face all these wif love.
Ritey ppl?
Be patient, be kind,
For even when the world fails you,
God will never fail you.
He is love & He provided me wif love.
So yeah,
Whatever they treating u wif,
Giv the back in love.
Yeah..! whahaha

Hey hey hey~
Today... I almost came sch for nuthin!
Haha.. well, lecture will not be held until aft CNY..
& yeah.. i was hidin myself in the free access lab
da whole day.. whahhaa..
Gettin sick in it, i dunno why..
The whole body ache like shit, it's like..
I could juz drop dead there..
but aft a while.. went to gQ's hse wif the other 2 guansters
then yeah.. replenish my energy. whaha..
maybe cos i ate somethin tt booost my energy level.
(U think this' a game? whaha)

Aniwae.. my momma will be here on 8/02! HOrray!
I missss her. whaha.. but.. my dad wont come here..
Yeah.. probs wif CNY ever since 2 years back..
Ugly stuffs, ugly ugly stuffs.. whahaha..

Kalo gw inget2..
Taon lalu, gw guo nian di indo..
GIla.. the worst ever..
pokonya... gw ga tau.. tp gw yakin,
setiap guo nian, muka bokap tuh lbh item drpd judge Bao..
Ga da senyum..
Pokonya ga enak bgt..
Dingin abis..
Kasian dia sendiri di rmh waktu guo nian taon ini..
Tp dia sendiri jg ga mao make effort buat reach out
Jalan ke rmh dpn aja mls bgt,
Padahal itu buat ktmu sodara2nya & bonyoknya..
ga ngerti gw..

Wow..!
February... Somebody's bday cominnnnnnnnn!
arghhhhhh!!!!! whahahaa.. muz work hard liao..w hahaha
Aniwae.. yeah...

Today... its kidna a slack day, with consultations..
ended up wif one that really drove whirlwind into my mind..
Whad Alfie said actually scared me out of my wits, & the effects
of the contact lens tt was really2 annoyin, blurring my visions,
it really kicked me into depression. For once again, i realised, aft much
laughter, there will be a series if misfortunate events..

Damn.. but yeah.. lucky for me i gt a 'bro' that helped me , by
disciplinin, forcin me to sit down & actually list down what shit i hav to do,
then put my priorotiees etc. well yeah, to be frank, it did help.. whaha

Then we went to his hse, wif Mudguan & Seksguan. There, me, Seks & GQ
were doin our work while Mud was dead drop sleepin, catchin up his
last nite sleep tt he didnt hav apparently creditted to the 3 types of COMDI
essays. whaha..

Aniwae.. Hav a looong chat wif Gq at nite while we were eatin.
Expect somethin fruitful to come up frm the chat. yeah?
hahaha.. we are really2 some sort like siblings already. whahaha
gd facts tt is...


& yeah... its not like i turn my feelinsg to him, no no.. Its a diff case,
for those of u who think, "why on Earth this gurl is talkin abt GQ all teh time?"
Nah, we're siblings.. how could we do incest?
whahaha..
Yeah... rite... (gw msh stuck di tmpt yg sama.. hahha)

Hahaha... dunno why..
Suddenly i juz wanna blog in again..
Feels weird.. but yeah.. since somethin deep within
urged me to do so.. I will.

Aniwae... Start talkin now..
hati tuh kadang2 ngerasa sesek.
Kosong & hampa...
Selalu aja ada ruang kosong di samping2..
Well, kalo ngmg soal Tuhan, Dia udah occupy satu ruang khusus di sini.

Yeah, kednegarannya cliche,
kedengarannya gw pengen bgt sama makhluk yg julukannya cowoq.
Tp welll, ga jg sih...
kalo mao jujur ngmg, gw dah KEBAL sama perasaan ini..
Soalnya, it came to a point waktu gw nangis hari itu,
waktu 'dd' gw suruh gw lbh bae lupain dia aja,
yea... gw akui gw nangis, gw bego bgt, rasanya ga rela gt buat
lupain org yg ga berbuat salah ma gw,
org yg bae & sabar, etc..
Org yg punya quality fo life etc.. (well walau ada defects lah pasti)
well, i juz find it hard.. whahaha..
yeah, gw goblok bgt, tp gw minta kesabaran buat ngehadapin ini smua,
smoga Tuhan bs nguatin iman gw, biar gw bs lewati masa2 gelap.
Skrg, walau kita msh dkt, tp gw sendiri bs sadar kalo
itu ga mungkin terjadi. Dia tuh dah ga mungkin bakalan pernah
ngeliat gw sebagai apa yg gw liat dia dulu.
makanya.. cuek aja. dia mao gmn k gw.. gw steady aja..
no hard feelings.
yg penting gw keep on improvin myself,
build idup gw sesuai rencana Tuhan, biar gw idup demi kemulianNya,
& up to the rest buat realise worth gw ..
ada amen?

Hm..~ Wahaha..
Today.. i woke up later than i expected..
Well, da bad habit of me started to resurface..
Thsi is gettin crazier...
I need to change the position of my alarm clock
(which is my hp) every a few days cos when i gt
accustomed to its position, i would subconsciously
off it when it rang & slpt all the way til nobody cares. whaha
Dumbie dumb dumb. whahaha..

NOthin happenin..
Oh yeah~ abt da 'plan14022005' Hahaha.. *cheeky smiles*
& yeah.. took a neoprint wif Sista & Beat2.. Finally!!!
Finally!! whahahaha