"Ajari aku 'tuk jadi pejantan Tangguh
Mungkin terlalu lama aku..." ~Sheila on 7: Pejantan Tangguh

Ah.. Aniwae, hi!
I forgot the lyric of this song, haha, it stopped there in my mind
& yah.. so i dun bother to write the whole thing out...
Did another vector art.. But this time.. i'm really2 satisfied with it..
Although still can spot my own mistakes down there...

Yah, had a gd chat with mud last nite.. Hahaha.. NOthin new lah, juz..
Long time nv been chattin with him...
but yah, we sort out misunderstandin between us.. Things gettin
into normal again.. Thank God for it..

Again, thx GQ, Rin, Frida & Alex for ur help in every aspect,
for helpin this blur lame idio-dominated soul.. Hahahaa...
(sounds like a Grammy winner speech.. Haha, I'm lame)

Now.. my back is achin.. i'm like.. 2 days hiding myself at hm...
Lazyin arnd, sittin infront of the comp 24/7.. NO, not tt horrid..
Like.. most of the time.. , not 24/7 Hahaha....

Havin my period now.. Haha, gt this burnin sensation on my
stomach...Am i gonna die? (what kinda stupid Qs is tt?)
Nvm, i'm nt really bothered by it

Gt lotsa new songs, received it frm my frens....
I like good charlotte-the world is black.. I
t sounded light metal, but yah, kinda get into relaxin mood..
Kyo-Comment tu Dire.. its a french song given by Frida frm
Frenky.. Kinda nice.. Some sort of jrock i can say..
Like.. yah.. i love how the song goes... I was listenin to it &
this Good Charlotte song while doin my vector...

Checked on Beat's gallery, found the series of pics taken when
they were fetchin me frm the airport.. Hahaha.. I look gross on it.. I
dun like my face.. I'm dumb & idiot down there..
But it captured a gd angle.. Itz juz... i dun smile correcty,
i look exaggerated.. & dumb, & stupid & blah blah blah.. haha..

Haha.. self reflection - dun be idiot.. use ur brain now Kath!
Hahahhahaa.....

Pesan dr Katherine untuk Katherine:
Jangan jd org bego
Loe tuh lbh berharga dr apa yg loe kira
Jgn tralu ge-er
ga smuanya berjalan dgn apa yg loe kira
Mungkin ini jalan idup loe,
Loe juga ga tau apa yg akan terjadi di masa dpn
Liat tanda12, dgrin aba2,
Ga sah tergesa2...
Kalo salah liat mistakenya
Cari dgn jelas cara biar loe tau cara buat prevent
Biar loe ga ngulang kesalahan yg sama..
Ikhlasin apa yang ga harus jd milik loe
Liat ke dpn, jgn ke samping, ato ke blakang,
smuanya emang harus terjadi
Ga smua hal itu jdnya seneng
tp ga smua itu jadi sedih
bikin hari2 loe dipenuhi keceriaan
Dgr kata2 Tuhan
Liat instruksiNya
Baca tanda2Nya
Interaksi dialog ma Tuhan
Jgn ngerasa Tuhan itu ga fair,
karena ga smua manusia sama jatahnya

Gt aja, bubye~!

A list of nice songs:

Indo:
Marcell- Semusim
Sheila on 7- Pejantan Tangguh
Ada Band- Ouggh
Melly Goeslaw- Tak tahan lagi
Melly Goeslaw- Bimbang
Anda - tentang seseorang

English:
Aqua- Turn back time
St Loco- Microphone Anthem
St Loco- My friend
St Loco- Fly Away
Simple Plan- Welcome to my life
Linkin Park- Numb
Simple Plan- Perfect
Linkin Park- In the End
Red Hot Chilly Peppers- Californication
Goo Goo Dolls- Iris
Jars of Clay- Love song for a Savior
Sonicflood- Heart of Worship
DC Talk- Jesus is Alright
Switchfoot- Learn to breathe
Switchfoot- Only Hope
Switchfoot- You
Greenday- American Idiot
Blur- Song Two
Mettalica- Clock
Aerosmith- I dont wanna miss a thing
Aerosmith- Crazy
Bon JOvi- All about loving you

Misc:
Jlo & Marc- No me ames (latin)
Kyo- Comment te Dire (french)

To be continued some other time
*peace*

Woke up at 12....
Ate my lunch at 2 i guess...
Chatted with Jilly juz now.. Yah, she said
she gt vision on God holdin her... Yah, gd for her,
God's gonna use her into realisin his miracles &
wonder.. I wonder when could be my time?
Am i juz timid & lack of confidence that God didnt
dare to trust the responsibility to me?

Tuhan, pakailah aku agarku bisa memuliakan
namaMu di atas segala nama.. Agar Kau bisa dilihat
oleh bangsa2.. That my God is good to everyone...
That my God helps & heal, comfort & care...
BUkanlah Tuhan yang meninggalkan anak2Nya..
Amen?
Hahahhaa..

Okie. so yah.. continue...
U know abt the poem i wrote earlier a few entries erlier..
the long one.. The one with lotsa repeated words for the
beginnin of most sentences...
I think it'll be a good lyric for a song... An emo song...
I dunno, i gt this idea ever since i saw the poem at arnd 1..
I was thinkin, "man.. this could be it"
hahaha.. maybe i was flatterin myself a lot..
Aniwae.. it's in indo language.. so sorry if u guys non indo
& non malay speaker... u dun understand.. but yah...
if i decided to translate it.. it will be such a mess..
like.. cos i did it in some sort of poetic language.. hahaha....
& now.. i'm challangin everyone, to compose a song out of it...

no pirze lah yah.. hahhaa.. but for fun....
Its like.. kinda angst... the poem....
u may add or delete some of the sentences & words
to make it fit to ur song or wad.. hehee...
Seriously.. i wanna hear what it will turn out to be....

Ciao dude! Hahahhaaa

HUeh~
Went to church today.. but yah... I dunno..
I feel sleepy the whole session, God forgiv me..
Haha.. but well, i still able to digest whad Ps
Steven was preachin. Itz abt humbleness,
doin what is leasin in God's eyes...
Yes, there are many ppl that are not worth of our
love, care & concern (i'm talkin abt general love)..
BUt yah.. we hav to LEARN to accept that we hav to
be humble... In whatever we do, do not lead God, let
Him lead you... Like, in this way, things will never go
wrong... Amen dudes?

Today, i guess da youth (which left super few) didnt hav
a big grp for lunch cos Susan went hm to slp (haha!), Nila
went to accompany her aunt & Ci Jeanne accompany ko
Charles (yah, he's in town frm Melb) fr New Creation in Suntec.
Then, came the big heavy rain when i was leavin frm
Orchard, on my way takin no 7 to Bedok for Expo.
I thought nobody would come cos Weishan said she couldnt come
with us... But well, turned out that Sharon was there..

I dun really liek teh exhibition, not much cosplayin or stuffs...
although i gt 2 free poster minus the one i wanted the most.
but its ok, i'm not gonna paste it on my wall anywae, haha,
maybe help my cousin to paste it in his room.. Haha...
Yah, there were Alex, Philo, Sharon, GQ, Joel, Joel's bro
& his fren altogether with me.. Gahaha...
Vic was cosplayin as some pink medabotz.. while Lynette was
spotted singin a Jap song. Wow weee!!!
Stanley was workin for Linux down there.. Hahaha...
Yah... Hahahhaa... bought a 256mb usb thumbdrive. Hahaha...

That's all.. Aniwae...
Thank God for everythin that happened to me
frm my first breath til now
no that i know things happen accordin to His plan
whether i like it or not,
if i follow His will,
nothin will get wrong..
Well, then again, maybe this is a way of Him protectin me
me & my wild idiotic brain. Hahaha.....
Thank God..
There's no one else like You.. =)

Aniwae... givin u a brighter moood rite now...
Yah, i didi a job today.. Hahah..
I juz found out tt Deter can mimick those
kiddy2 carttonic voice. & yah... OMGosh!
NOw that i realise, its not only Luri that has
super sexy greta bod... Hahaha....
Deter & Daniel F hav it tooo. Like, wow!
i wanna draw em.. i wann atake their pic..
hahaha
but i cant possibly do that...
Hahaha///

Yah..~
sorry for yesterday's madness..
I cant tell u what happens, although some parts
of me dyin to tell.. But yah, i guess in life,
secrecy towards privacy is somethin u cant
escaped frm.
Yah, all i can say is, I'm sorry GQ,
for such a scary night, lookin at my sickenin
laughter on msn, juz becoz of my crazy oddy mood...
Its juz yah.. i dunno, still kinda feel high.. Hhaha..
But yah, i can be scary when i'm scary.. Hhaha.
I dunno what to say...

Kmaren gw kira gw bakalan nangis...
Tapi gw ga ngerti, knapa ga da air mata...
Waktu gw tulis puisi itu, feelin gw naik turun,
gw ngmgnya jd ngelantur, ketawaaa mulu,
sembarangan ngmg mulu, org blg gw kyk
lg high. Tp gmnpun juga gw pengen bgt ngungkapin
isis hati gw... jd gw tulis poem itu.
pokonya gmnpun juga, gw ga boleh mikirin diri sendiri...
gw juga harus tau kalo ini smua ada bates dan yah,
persahabatan jaoh lbh penting dr ego gw semata,
gw tiba2 punya perasaan laen, jd gw rasa emang gw harus
mundur.. mundur bukan berarti kalah, tapi mundur
berarti menang, krn gw bs ngalahin perasaan yang harusnya
ga terbentuk, yang seharusnya ga ada karena itu poses
a threat buat persahabatan makhluk hidup.
gt aja.. Wassalam. hahaha (kayak bang napi aja) Hahahaa

Gw malem ini,
Baru sadar akan sikap loe...
Sikap dingin dan tajam diri loe...
Yang bikin gw tersayat2 bagai belati bermata dua...

Terima kasih,
Kepada saudaraku...
Kau bukakan mata hatiku,
Tuk melihat bahwa tak semuanya,
Berjalan dengan kehendak sepihak semata...

Terima kasih,
Pada dirimu...
Yang telah membuka mataku dengan pernyataan dan sikap,
Yang dulu telah membutakan mataku,
Yang sekarang telah membuka cahya lampu...
Cahya lampu dimana dia menerangi keseluruhan
realita dari sikap dan tutur katamu...
Kutahu kubuat susah dirimu..
Kutahu kubuat lelah dirimu..
Kutahu kubuat takut dirimu...
Dan tak lebih sekedar dari sekelibat kesabaran,
Kau buat jarak dinding pemisah diantara dua.

Kuberterima kasih...
Karena sekarang semua sudah berakhir..
semua harus diakhiri dengan pernyataan duka...
Duka atas kematian hati...
Hati dimana aku terlalu banyak berharap...
Hati dimana cinta bodoh seorang gadis naif
memaksakan kehendaknya kepadamu...

Kuharus belajar,
Tuk mengerti dan melakukan kata2ku..
Janji dimana kukan lupakan cerita terlarang,
dan meluruskan arah jalan mata ini...

Ku tlah berjanji tuk lupakan dirimu (sebagai laki2)
Ku tlah berjanji tuk tak pandang wajah itu
Ku tlah berjanji tuk lupakan masa indah
Ku tlah berjanji tuk gapai hubungan klasik
Ku tlah berjanji tuk menganggapmu saudara
Ku tlah berjanji tuk siratkan warna kalbu

Karena kuyakin inilah yang terbaik
Karena kuyakin inilah jalan kita
Karena kuyakin kurusak semuanya
Karena kuyakin kuhempas hubungan baik kita
Karena kuyakin kubunuh kepercayaanmu
Karena kuyakin aku bukan yang terbaik untukmu
Karena kuyakin kau inginkan akhir yang sendu...

Kan kupegang janji ini...
Kan kupelajari arti kata ikhlas...
Kan kuwujudkan perkataanku
Kalau ilmu ikhlas itu wajib hukumnya,
Kalau imlu ikhlas itu sumber dari segalanya...

Yang kuikhlaskan,
Semoga berkenan di hatimu,
Semoga kan kucepat lupakan bayangmu
Dan jadilah dirimu yang biasa di mataku,
Yang tak berdaya tarik maupun ulur,
Yang tak berkenan di dalam bola mataku,
Yang tak sempurna di dalam hidupku,
Yang tak takut kepada diriku..

Apalah daya manusia memang bodoh,
Inginkan pelangi walau kasat semata...
Hati terbelah ketika mencoba menerima,
Kenyataan terburuk ketika pelangi itu hilang di hadapan..

Selamat tinggal hatiku,
Semoga kau cepat sembuh,
Semoga segalanya berjalan dengan baik...
Semoga kutak hilangkan dirinya
Semoga kukan bisa melakukan bagianku
Sebagai teman baik sejati...
Tanpa kurang!~...
Tetapi tak lebih darinya....

Hehe yeah...
Went to send Michelle off, although got to see
her wavin at me only, with this lame departure gate
dividing us into two diff world.. hahaha
(the world of passenger & visitor..) I'm lame.. hahaha

HIkz.. then went to eat BK. Since i'm lazy (& kinda peniless
aft the farewell dinner + movie) , i'm more like parasite...
Eatin Feny's french fries & ci Jeanne's sundae pie leftover..
(cos she dun want it, anywae, it's not considered as leftover).
Hahha... Hhahaha....

Yah, it took like 1 and 1/2 haour juz to reach airport frm my hse,
well.. by bus i mean... yah, kinda long.. but by taxi, shldnt be tt long..
I could go frm jalan kayu, take some highway or somethin then go there..
Less than 10 bucks.. Hahaahahhaa... (why am i tellin u this?)

Ja, i was thinkin abt this lame things durin my journey back to my place..
Yah, it was like, bein parents.. it aint an easy job... U might think like,
"bloody hell, what are they doin in my life? Why are they doin this?" ya
dah ya da, blah labh blah, but well, its not easy to be them.. Hhhaaa
Then, i was imaginin stuffs. Like...

If sista's a mother, i guess she'll be like, so lovey dovey with her kids..

If Beat's a mother, i guess she'll be a strict but lovin momma

If Dea's a mother, i guess she'll be like strict, but her kids will be as fashionable as her

Hahhaa... Then whad abt me? i juz cant imagine.. Hahahha..
so yah, teh point of the story is.. I AM LAME!!!! hahahhaa

Haha..!
Juz watched a music video by Maksim!!!
Entitled.. colibre or what.... BUt its a..
Wow...! Hahhaa..
Yah, it features this gurl, a parkour,
she's doin her stuffs & i'm like.. argh!!!
I mizz PK to hell! Oh man! Oh..~!
U guys shld watch it too if u guys has broadband..
or yah.. wait for the MTV to play it on lah. Haha..

Here's a way to see it online:
(GQ taught me how to)

1) www.urbanfreeflow.com
2)scroll down, find this article info abt Maksim's
3)click frm that link
4) click frm maksim's webbie link to tt song..

as easy as that. Happy tryin dudes! huhuhuhu

Yeah, juz got back from Ci Jeanne's hse...
I had a sleepover with Susan & Oliv there,
well, supposedly more than 3 ppl, but later they
went home. Hahaha...
Ci Jeanne's hse was very nice, haha, very spacey,
very windy, very relaxin. Hahahhaa....
Yah, we watched "30 Hari" & "kate & Leopold"..
(with Ci jeanne, Susan, Oliv, Michelle, Ko Dave, Deddy,
Ucup, Ardilles, NIla..)
Slpt at 2++, i slept at teh sofa inside Ci jeanne's
rm while oliv & susan at the xtra bed on the carpet...
but morning came, & i didnt se them. It turned out
they were feelin hot,so they slept at the outside's sofa.
Hahaha...

Yah, before that, i went to catch a movie with Beat,
Sista, GQ & Abel. 1st we went to Beat's hse, watchin
Who's line is it, super funny iddiotic but i cant stop myself
frm gettin into it, laughin with my super annoyin
high pitched voice. Haha.. Then watched bit of a jap show,
i dunno what title it got, but it's a bt this labrador guide
dog by the name of Quill. Aw.. (gooood, gooood, straighto, goo!)
Hahaha.....
Ow yah, ate Laksa, the famous Katong Laksa at Beat's place
kopitiam down there....
Then, arnd 3, we went to junction8 bishan... but the incredibles.. we
weren't able to catch it there.. so we went to ang mo kio's Jubilee!
The cinema itself was located at a super small place. hahaha..
but yah, they used this digital sytem or what, so yah, the Incredibles
tunre out to be incredible in the sense of visio too! like, WOOOW!!
The story.. yah, like what beat said in her blog, is superb, u know..
like how a good expert sin seh makin his own chinese medicated herb
or whatsoever.. (sorry for the lame example..) Hahahaha...
they really know how to make it proportionate, for everythin...
Ya know.. teh dev, the chara, the hair, the details.. everythin!
Huhuu....! I love it!!! I love em! hahaha.. (what am i sayin?)

Beat went to Malaysia this morning, while Michelle goin back to Indo
tonite, & yah, i guess Deddy will fly soon.. & many more soon..!
Haih.. so sick of it, like.. they're goin... I'll be missin them... But partin is
a way to strengthen the bond created between human...

Saturday, there'll be an open hse at Diana's place.. Hahhaa...
NOt sure whether i will go... cos nobody close to me go.... & yah, i didnt
know the place....

Agak bingung uga mao pergi apa nggak. salah satu alesan knp gw ga mao
itu gw takut ktmu dia. Haha, ga tau knp, gw skrg takut ma dia, gw takut kl
gw bakalan ngulang kesalahan gw yg dulu lagi... gw bakal ngerusak hubungan
baek yg udah terjali selama 4 bulan ini. HGahaha... manusia emang repot...
Gw ga mao jd org rese,.. Tuhan tolong bungkam mulut gw kalo gw ga seharusnya
ngmg.. Amen!

Hm.. went to gym for teh 1st time! hoooray!!!!
Its one step closer to the shape.. hahaha..
Super smallllllllllll step. hahahahaha....
Forgive me for my extra enthusiasm...

Yah.... Feels kinda cool here, cos in Indo,
maybe we could blame the ventilation, even
when i watch Tv, i'll sweat. hahahahaa...
Okie, later had a 'date', no lah, gonna hang out
with Ing2 a while, then watch Princess Diary2
with Oliv in Orchard. huahauaua....

Long live orchard! i miss u much. hahaha...

Aniwae... kembali kepada masalah si dia. hauahua..
Kmaren nama di msn nya aneh bin nyata, macem suatu
kata keterangan buat gw, like, propehcy maybe.. tp yah..
forgive me once more, gw ga bs buat apa2, sampe perasaan ini
selesai dgn sendirinya. hahahahhaa

Huhuhu...
Back in sg now... Yeah man!
Juz now, lotsa ppl fecthed me frm the airport..
Like... 7 of em if i'm not wrong...
There were Sista,Beatrice, Mud, GQ, Glenn, Jared & Abel..!
Hahaha.. We're basically the craziest crwod in da airport...
Playin with da trolley, GQ & the genk doin some PK stuffs..
(ah.. I'm tempted.. haha!PK! PK!PK!)

Well, yah.. we sat at the CofffeBean & ate the martabak...
With the chips & stuffs. Hhahahaa.. Jared gt his Indomie!!
Hahahahaha... Yohohoooo...! He's gonna love it...

Aniwae... a new surprise frm SITT! Glenninah is joinin them. hehhee..
I duno why but i gt this kind of instinct, cos when Mud asked me
to guess who the new member, Glenn popped out..! Hahaha

& yah.. my cuz albert is thinkin abt changin his course, frm
electric engineerin to business management... He wanna go Tp!
Yeah, i'll try to see what i can do...!

An email frm Cyntia..:

Masalah-masalah yang anda hadapi bisa membuat anda jatuh atau
bertumbuh, tergantung dengan bagaimana caranya kita menanggapinya.
Sangat disayangkan banyak orang gagal untuk melihat bagaimana Tuhan
menggunakan masalah untuk kebaikan mereka. Mereka bertindak dengan
bodoh dan membenci masalah-masalah yang mereka hadapi, daripada
berhenti untuk merenungkan kebaikan apa yang bisa mereka dapati dari
masalah-masalah tersebut.

Ada lima cara yang Tuhan menggunakan masalah-masalah di dalam
kehidupan anda:

1. Tuhan menggunakan masalah untuk MENGARAHKAN anda
Kadang-kadang Tuhan harus menyalakan api di bawah kita untuk membuat
kita tetap bergerak. Sering kali masalah yang kita hadapi akan
mengarahkan kita ke arah yang baru dan memberikan kita motivasi untuk
berubah. Apakah Tuhan sedang mencoba menarik perhatian anda?

2. Tuhan menggunakan masalah untuk MENGUJI anda
Manusia bagaikan teh celup... jika anda ingin tahu apa yang ada di
dalamnya, celupkan saja ke dalam air panas! Pernakah Tuhan menguji
kesetiaan anda dengan masalah? Apakah yang didapati oleh
masalah-masalah itu tentang anda? "Saudara-saudaraku, anggaplah
sebagai suatu kebahagiaan, apabila kamu jatuh ke dalam berbagai-bagai
pencobaan, sebab kamu tahu, bahwa ujian terhadap imanmu itu
menghasilkan ketekunan." (Yakobus 1:2-3).

3. Tuhan menggunakan masalah untuk MENGOREKSI anda
Ada pelajaran-pelajaran yang kita pelajari hanya melalui penderitaan
dan kegagalan. Mungkin waktu anda masih kecil orang tua anda mengajar
anda untuk tidak boleh menyentuh kompor yang panas. Tetapi mungkin
anda belajar justru karena setelah anda terbakar. Kadang-kadang kita
baru bisa menghargai sesuatu... kesehatan, uang, hubungan... saat kita
sudah kehilangannya. "Bahwa aku tertindas itu baik bagiku, supaya aku
belajar ketetapan-ketetapan-Mu." (Mazmur 119:71).

4. Tuhan menggunakan masalah untuk MELINDUNGI anda
Suatu masalah bisa menjadi berkat jika masalah tersebut mencegah kita
dari bahaya. Tahun lalu ada satu teman saya yang dihentikan dari
pekerjaannya karena dia menolak untuk melakukan sesuatu yang tidak
etis oleh bossnya. Pengangguran itu merupakan suatu masalah bagi dia,
tetapi justru itulah yang menghindari dia ditangkap dan dimasukan ke
dalam penjara setahun kemudian ketika kelakuan manajemen yang tidak
etis itu akhirnya terbongkar. "Memang kamu telah mereka-rekakan yang
jahat terhadap aku, tetapi Allah telah mereka-rekakannya untuk
kebaikan..." (Kejadian 50:20).

5. Tuhan menggunakan masalah untuk MENYEMPURNAKAN anda
Jika kita menanggapi masalah dengan cara dan pandangan yang benar,
masalah tersebut bisa membentuk kita. Tuhan lebih perhatikan karakter
kita daripada kenyaman kiya. Hanya hubungan anda dengan Tuhan dan
karakter anda yang akan dibawa dengan anda sampai kekal. Kita malah
bermegah dalam kesengsaraan kita, karena kita tahu, bahwa kesengsaraan
itu menimbulkan ketekunan, dan ketekunan menimbulkan tahan uji dan
tahan uji menimbulkan pengharapan. (Roma 5:3-4)

Kuncinya: Tuhan sedang bekerja di dalam kehidupan anda, walaupun anda
tidak menyadari atau mengerti. Namun adalah paling mudah dan untung
ketika anda bekerjasama dengan Dia!



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Bagaimana anda bisa tahu bahwa Aku adalah Penyembuh?

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Jika anda tidak pernah masuk dalam pencobaan,
Bagimana anda dapat memanggil dirimu sebagai pengatas masalah?

Jika anda tidak pernah merasa sedih,
Bagaimana anda bisa tahu bahwa Aku adalah Penghibur?

Jika anda tidak pernah melakukan kesalahan,
Bagaimana anda bisa tahu bahwa Aku mudah memberi pengampunan?

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Bagaimana anda bisa tahu bahwa Aku akan menjawab semua pertanyaan anda?

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Bagaimana anda bisa tahu bahwa Aku akan datang memberi pertolongan?

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Bagaimana anda bisa tahu bahwa Aku sanggup menjadikan anda utuh?

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Bagaimana anda bisa tahu bahwa Aku sanggup memberi jalan keluar?

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Bagaimana anda bisa tahu apa yang pernah Aku alami?

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Bagaimana anda bisa disempurnakan?

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Bagimana anda bisa menghargainya?

Jika Aku tidak pernah mengoreksi anda,
Bagaimana anda bisa tahu bahwa Aku mengasihi anda?

Jika anda memiliki segala kekuatan,
Bagiamana anda bisa belajar untuk bergantung padaKu?

Jika hidup anda sempurna,
Maka untuk apa anda membutuhkan Aku?

Hm... Hahahaha....
Nothin.. I'm juz feelin lame..

Okie, to the point aja....
Bayang2 dirimu....
Ga bs gw keluarin dr otak gw...
karena itu gw gambar loe..
karena gw bs keganggu siang & malem,
kalo loe melekat di otak gw mulu..
gw pengen loe kluar, tp loe seakan
dilem pake super glue yang ga bakalan
lepas sampe kapan2.. Hahaha

That's abt it. i'm lame.. hahahaha

Hm hm hmmm...
Hahaha.. Okie, nothin much happenin today..
Totally stayed in da hse, except for da dineer,
which we went to Taman Anggrek mall,
eatin sapo Oriental..& Yah.. watched
Biola tak berdawai juz now. did'nt managed to
finish da movie as lotsa distrubance came &
go hahahaa.... T.T!

Well, yah... finished 2 new artpiece..
I cant say its one cos they had 2 diff backgrnd,
although the main chara is the same gurl...
(supposedly a vector art on me, but i hate my
mouth, so i exaggerate a bit by addin here
& there..) Heh heh...

Let's see, i did quite a few vector arts..
I did on Alex, Joel & mud (in progress)..yah,
on myself too. hahaa. cant find lotsa photo so
i guess u hav to patient if u wan me to do one
for ya., hahaaha....Goin back to Sg within2
days time.. haha.. can i laugh on it, or cry
for it?Hahahaha

I'm addicted to saint Loco!! Hahahaa...
I saw their video clip for the
"microphone Anthem" which was so
WOW!! Hhaaha...

Hm... Today's not a happy day...
I was kinda scolded by my dad,
for some unreasonably small stuffs...
juz becos he's in a bad mood..
Aniwae, longin for the day when i dun
hav to be dependent financially, hahaha...
yeah rite... he juz givin me fake hope,
fake hope that he'll teach me drvin soemday..
hahaa. Yeah rite...Like i believe...!Like u had
been promisin me since last yer & yah,
my bro gt to learn it 1st, even though he's
bloody underage.. & yah, my dad said,
"ko, aft u know how to drive, i'll be sittin at
the back& your lil bro will sit beside u, on
his way to learn to drive as well.." & helloW!
What abt me? Jajajajaja..!Bloody me! Bloody hell!

Like i believe..!
Juz becos I'm bornt as the 1st...
Juz becos i'm bornt a gurl..
Juz becos i choose design..
Juz becos i dun take business or engine like what u'v asked..
Juz becos i dun support ur gamblin habit..
Juz becos i dun like ur blackbusiness frens..
Juz becos i dun like the way u mock others..
Am i not someone u could be proud of?

Hehehe..Today.. i kinda realised that "ilmu ikhlas", which is "the art oflettin go" in English, is not as easy as it seems... maybe for us, we can say, "yah, what so big deal abt it?" but in reality, tehre are times that u're juz blinded by everythin that u forgot lettin go is the best out of it.. hahaha...
Okie, i sounded soo deep now.. but in reality, this is what happen.. dun laugh...I fell in love with this shop, which sells lotsa tshirts that has vector arts... & super cheap.. like, arnd SGD$13... Super nice, super cool!!!!& yah... cos my parents were there with me, they wont let me buy some for others & asked me to be quick in selectin one for me.. But bloody hell, those super nice juz dun hav my size!!!!& i'm like.. ARGH!!!! I could save like, more than 10 bucks if i bought it there,. rather than at Far East, which will cost like, 20bucks+++ Hahaha.. So i was super stuck up, i was angry deep within, i juz dunno who to blame, i juz feel likedeep shit. hahaha.. But in da car, when we were goin back home frm Bogor, suddenly, this stuffs appeared on my head:

"relain... Inget Kath,. loe harus ikhlas.."
which means, "let go, reme,ber kath, u hav to learn to let it go sometimes.. "

Haiyah.. I dunno on how to shwo u a better example, but i guess this one is kind of clear enough.. Dun ya think so? Hehehe...

Alrite2, givin u this super nice lyric... It's frm Saint loco, entitled "Fly Away":

Many times I feel like falling
The world keeps on
playing the game... on me!

Everyday i keep on waiting for,
My life is changing. Somehow...
When I

(*) Fly Away...
Touch the sky...
Fly away high...
High and high...

(Chorus)
And i fly away
I touch the sky
Blue2 sky
When i see Your light

It's a brand new day
When i fly away
I touch teh sky
Then i see Your eyes...

Okie... I was goin to write some angsty stuffs
juz now, but thank God I dint hav to for some
unspecified reasons.. Well, so now gonna write
out abt happy stuffs... Huhuhu...!

Yeah man, today's my lil bro's 12th bday!
Yeha man, yeah man! I loveeeee him so much..!
He's like, super close to me, haha & yah,
always been in my care ever since he was born,
shared the same creazee genes frm dunno-which-
side-of my parents.. haha, yeah man! gonna
upload da crazee pics taken with him to my
pic gallery rite now. So ya, recap of today's
activity..:
*)wake up at arnd 9:30 am
*)took lotsa bday pics with my bros & da cake,
my mom baked one.. hahaha...
*)ate lunch, which was chicken rice, hand-made
by my granma.. hahha.. yeah..
*)went out to citraland, both me & lil bro bought
the same pair but diff colour of reebok shoes.
*)went to Megamall.. Bought a comic "nana" the
one i saw its jap manga in Kino & i tt, "wow!
nice drawings.. haha" & yah, quite nice, although
it had, like, lotsa nidity & erm.. taboo stuffs..
*)Ate A&W ice cream.. bloody hell, i wan the wafel!
but the dun hav it juz now... HIkz..
*)ate dinner at Hakka, a restaurant soemwhere anrd
pecenongan & yah.. bought MARTABAK BANDUNG!! Haha
gonna eat it for breakfast tmr.. Yeha yeah yeah!
Uw~ the sensation of its cheese + melted choco rice..
Its killin me dude!~ Aw..!

Hahha. but anyway, still, the main pt of today's entry
is to rejoice in da name of the Lord for my bro's bday!
Yeah, without him, lfe is superrrr boringgggggggggg!
Haha, i had a super good laugh with him. Its like,
da craze duo are back at home. Hahahhaa.. Which is
me & my lil bro..the otehr bro, he juz scolded us
countless times for being super noisy.. hahaha..!
Yah, we're mad dude! Hahahaha

Hm.. Juz had a conversation with Riana on da phone.. Its like.. wow! she super wonderful..! She had this maturity level that's like... higher than da sky.. Hoah!

Gt this super word of wisdom frm Riana:
"If u can handle HCl, u can handle Tepung Terigu" ~Riana
*) tepung terigu: flour

Hahaha.. & yahaha... most of our talks are of confidential. bUt i can tell u some of the big huge facts:
"the best of the best men will be able to get a partner for his life, but the best of the best womenwill be too great for any men.."

Haha, gw tau kalo Rin bs jd best of the best women, tp apa gw jg bs? I mean, gw pengen bgt bs idup tanpa harus mikirin cowo, cowo & cowo. Its not like gw totally tergila2 sama cowo, tp at some point of time gw merasakan perlukan kehadiran cowo.. Tp bener deh, how i wish kalo perasaan itu bs ilank. Biar gw ga labillagi, biar gw bs do my stuffs wholeheartedly.. Tuhan..!
Gw cape, kadang2, at a point of time, gw ngerasa dia lagi ngapain kek ga da urusannya ma gw, tapi at the other time, gw kangen ma dia. Haha, makin dipikir makin ribet sendiri.. uring2an.. Tell me man, gw cape sndiri jadinya. huauha, somehow gw ngerasa gw ini idup tak berkepastian.. like, gw ga tau akan masa dpn, masa dpn gw tuh yk burem, berkabut.

Huahua..Tauk ah.. Yg penting, gw msh idup, & gw bersyukur sama Tuhan, Babeh gw di atas, atas sgalanya yg Dia kasih ke gw Ameeeeeeeeen!!!!!!!!!!!

Bought St Loco's CD at last. yah, it sounds like Linkin Park mixed with POD, & yah.. lotsa2 more, so it sounds sooo WOW! Hahaha. Aniwae, i love the song 'fly away', not those FIR song, its ST Loco's song..! Hahahhaa

Hm.. yah... today i was kinda labil, (its not stabil)... Its like.. I dunno, maybe PMS but i feel kinda Stuck up, really2 stuck up. like, i dunno, gonna explode any time i wan...
Argh..!!!! It's killin me......

Ga tau knp,
gw pengen nangis,
gw pengen teriak,
gw pengen loncat2....
Gw ga pengen berdiam diri di satu sisi
Di kegelapan waktu yang tak menentu
Di sisi kamar yang tak berujung
Hampa, sepi dan gundah
Gw pengen ngmg sama elo
Elo yang berdingin di ujung sana
apa yang loe rasa
apa yang loe pikir
apa loe yakin
apa loe kebal,
mati rasa...?

Hahaha..... Here are some of the most super memorable words from Biarkan Bintang Menari...

Keiko: (talkin to Grey)
***********************************
Apa sih yang diliat Neyna dari elo?
Waktu itu gw nanya ke dia ngapain sih
cape2 nabung buat beli teropong buat elo,
loe tau dia jawab apa?
Katanya, supaya elo bisa mimpi lagi..
Punya cita2 lagi. Trus gw bilang,
kalo cowo seumuran elo blum punya mimpi
dan cita2, berarti goblok.!
tapi dia bilang, "Grey ga goblok...
Grey cuman lupa kalo semua pangeran butuh
punya mimpi dan cita2, misalnya,
nyelamatin sang putri dari gangguan penyihir jahat.
Gw bilang, dongeng tuh dimana2 pangeran tuh
yang nyelamatin sang putri, ini koq malah kebalikannya?
***********************************
[English Translation:
I dun understand what Neyna see whithin you,
Tt day i was askin her why she persistently savin
her money so she could buy a telescope for you,
u know what she said?
She said, she hope that you could hav dream again,
hav hopes again... and so i said,
If a guy in your age doesn't hav a dream or hope,
then he's a stupid moron! BUt she said, Grey's not a moron,
Grey juz forgot tt every prince needs dreams & hopes,
for example, to save the princess from the evil sorceress.
I said, in every fairytales, the prince shld be the one
savin the princess, but you'v done the opposite way...]

***********************************
Grey : Ney...
Neyna: Apa..?
Grey : aku dah coba cari bintang baru pake teropongnya...
Neyna: Dapet?
Grey : Nggak...
Kan ga semua bintang mesti ada di langit..
Yang di sini sinarnya lebih terang daripada yang laen
(referrin to Neyna)
Neyna: Soal Parsya...
Grey : Shh..~ ga usah ngomongin dia lagi...
Halaman terakhir hanya diisi oleh dialog antara
pangeran dan putri,(referrin to every fairytales)
Penyihir jahatnya, udah kalah di 2 halaman sebelumnya.!

<& Neyna hugged Grey..~ Waaaa!!! hahahahahaha....>
***********************************

Watched "Biarkan Bintang Menari" juz now..Feat. Ariyo & Ladya Cheryl(remember da suicidal gurl in AADC?)..Yah, i can say that although both this one & "andai dia tahu" were produced by Transinema, but i can see super big difference within the movies..

Its like, yah, BBM's standard's far higher than the other one..I love how they portayed the feelings, like, yah..clear storylines, although the musical parts were kinda 'scaree'... Huhuuhu... But anyway yah, enjoyed it soo much, like.. WOW! This is WOW!& da gurl.. Ohlala.. She's sooo pretty..! Huahauhaua..Hope i can do a vector art on her. hahahaha...

& anyway, the soundtrack of this BBM, most of em (well, it's either all or most) were sang by Memes & ariyo. Hehehe... I love Ariyo.. Hehehe, ya know. HIs songs.. Ah..how do u describe it.,.. I duno what's the English word for it, but yah.. 'menghayutkan'.. Hehehe...Gonna watch the other 3 movies so i could giv a review on each...

Hm... gw ngerasa manusia tuh bs aja berubah sejaoh apaaja yg dia mao rubah, tapi gimanapun juga, pasti bakalan masih ada sisa2 jiwa dia yg dulu & pokonya nih, apa aja yg udah terjadi sama hidupnya, itu tuh bakal mempengaruhi idup dia, cara pikir dia, pola hidup dia sampe kapanpun, in a way or another... Like, kalo misalnyadia kurang kasih sayang, dia sampe gede pun bakalan crave for love & attention dr org laen. kalo dia tuh sering dikecewain sama org2 disekitarnya, sampe gede pun dia bakalan sering was2, susah percaya org & suka narik diri kalo ngerasa dah involve lebih dlm sama satu orang luar.Ga tau deh yah, i juz dunno why but i had this kind of stuffs, suddenly appearin on my mind..

" Bukan matahari, bila tak menyinari...
Bukan kuntum bunga, bila tak mewangi..
Dan bukanlah cinta, bila tidak sepenuh hati..."
~Ariyo:Sepenuh Hati

Aniwae, this is da soundtrack of Andai Dia Tahu that had
been disturbin my clear mind since i watched the credit roll...
Huh.. yah.. well, aniwae, this song had a record of disturbin
my mind before this, plus it's a kinda nice song, so i guess i dun mind
hehehe...

English traslation:
" it will not be called the sun if its rays dont brighten the world
it will not be called the flower if it doenst hav a nice smell
& it will not be called love, if you dun do it wholeheartedly..."
Huahuahauaua

Huhuhu.. watched "Andai Dia tahu" feat. Rachel Maryam (my gurl! yeah), Marcell (my man!!) & alex Abbad (the ex indo Mtv VJ)... yah, i hav to say the act is kinda good but yah...! I hate the waye they portray those ppl, like, they did super lack research.. the point that they made me clueless all the time, thinkin like, "what the hell they're doin? why did they do this? why cant they juz jump onto the next actions?" really killin me... yah, i guess TransTv production isnt really producin the best stuffs they had.. Imagine, how can a 'realistic' guy cried aft he found the gurl that he met once, fell in love with, dumped his 5-yers fiancee for, was standin behind him..... & i'm like.. "ew.. so gay.." Haha, it's not that i blame guys who did that, but the fact that most guys dun do this, pls be more realistic dude! haiyah...... Aniwae.. Watched it.. for review.. .. K?

bought "arisan!" & "Eiffel..I'm in love".... wanna watch "issue" (feat Tamara Blezinsky) & "Virgin" (i dunno who act on that movie...) Hahaha...
Yah, juz went to Plaza Senayan with my parents.. Cant really see what is sooo nice down there, except that i was kinda freaked out to find out that the bloody Kinokuniya sinngapore stopped importin Crystal Dragon (Taiwan Version) ever since the vol 8 had been released.. & yah, they (the indo kinokuniya) had that series until like... vol 16! I freaked out! Hahaha.. aniwae, bougth the vol 9, for like... SGD$8.. (while in Sg, it shld be arnd SGD$6, blmae the kinokuniya Singapore for wastin my $2) ahikz/.. hahahaha

Huhuhu.. There's somethin wrong with da Microsoft Word in my comp.. Boohooo...Well, i dunno, but i guess bein able to use the comp really givin me such a joy...Yah, watched that VCD that i bought yesterday "Kiamat sudah dekat".. Haha, kinda makes me feel touched in the sense that the guy really changed for good, & not only himself,but his whole family too. Huhuhu.. I wonder when could that be my case? Aniwae, yah, the prob with da story is.... well, it didnt really show much repentance, rather, it juz plainly show how this guy, for the love of the gurl, learn more about his religion practice em.. Hehehe.. yah, i guess that's a point that somehow really2 disturb my mind.. Haha..

Gonna buy "Arisan" "Eiffel I'm in LOve" "Andai Dia tahu" etc.. Juz all the indo movies that i think is kinda good..

Yay... didnt do much today.. Purely eatin that super delicious nasi Uduk that my grandaunt made for me.. Aw...! Like, she gave me a whole complete set of:
*Nasi uduk
*Tempe Tahu
*Ayam Goreng
*Sayur Lodeh
*Rendang
*Kerupuk
*Emping
*Keripik
*Es Bumi Hangus (Es Campur)

Hohohohoho... Purely fattening but once a year wont do much on my weight i guess... Huhuuuhuuuhu...

Went to the Thai airways ticketin office for the stickin of the sticker to indicate teh change of my departure to SG... Hehe, Watched MTV & Fashion TV juz now. AW, i guess u ADM ppl, try to visit my hse in INdo.. haha, this week's abt the Fashion week in Paris... (dated oct 2004).. The clothes previewed are like... WOW Hahaha....It's like.. INg2, Cing2 & Jess, come before i go sg. Ya kan sayank? Hehehe...

I had a good laugh with my mom juz now (while in process of writing the top part of this entry.. hahaha..) Its like.. at 1st, while we're talking, i was imimatin those Madura accent, when suddenly it mixed with melayu.... Then my mom, being lame now cos she's editin her test papers for the kids she taught in sch, followed me into talkin cock in melayu accent too... Then we were laughin half way like hell cos its juz soo funny..!Its like... lameeeeeeeee, super lameeeeeeee, but i enjoyed it. huhuhu..

Yeah, for tonite, there will be no more waitin for the Ketupat Sayur!My grandad frm my father's side who lived with us bought the ketupat sayur that i missed & sent it to my hse an hour ago i guess.. Hahahaha...Slrp.. What a food paradise this country is..

Gw ngerasa terganggu sama pikiran gw. Kyknya gw tuh dah lumayan parah lah yah... Kadang2 tanpa gw sadari, gw mikir ttg 'dia', in whatever things tt i do, gw selalu keinget dia, like, "coba kalo dia ada di samping gw, jd kan dia jg bs ngerasain apa yg gw rasain skrg.." Huhuhu... BUt i guess, itu cuman impian semata.. Td waktu gw nonton VCD Kiamat Sudah Dekat, bokap sang cewe blg ke cowo itu, "syarat terakhir sebelum gw ijinin loe ngelamar si Sarah, loe musti bisa kuasai ilmu IKHLAS..." & tiba2 gw keinget..

yah, ilmu Ikhlas..! Gw sometimes juga mikir, mungkin emang perbedaan tralu gede, diapun belum tentu bs suka gw dgn cara yg gw mao dari dia... Tapi yg gw tau, dia tuh tmn gw yg bae, dia tuh manusia yg sangat precious di mata & di hati gw tentunya...huhuhu Karena itu, drpada gw nya bakal cape sendiri, mending gw ikhlasin aja kalo ternyata Tuhan ga buka jalan or yah, some sort of it.. Karena kan suka itu bukan diatur sama satu manusia semata, like, kalo tepuk tangan loe perlu dua tangan, i dunno how to explain yg jelas deh...

Aniwae... the Andre "stinky" (<-His band) who acted as the main chara for the VCD Kiamat Sudah Dekat, by the way he speak & the way he bring himself, he really reminds me of Andry.. Hahaha.. It's like, yah, i wasreminded of how Andry speaks & acts sometimes. haha, even during the Lenong that he acted on for lotsa KKR & church stuffs.
hehe, Dri, update ur blog dude! Jgn blg loe sibuk bgt krn gw tau lo olmulu kan? Hahhaahha.. dasar loe.. Gw ga tau deh bulan ini bill hp gw brp, gara2 telpon 15 menit elo dr Oz.hahaha... dasar Andry!

Hmph..! Bloody comp..! yesterday, I was sooo bloody tired of repairing this comp & yah.. so I didn’t go ol. Haha. Sorry ppl..! But juz now, my cuz came with his fren who’s an IT guy & helped out in sort-of-repairing, although he said he juz can’t find what’s wrong with this.. well, yah, the saem way I always feel.. Aniwae, waitin for my bros to come back frm SG & bring this bloody comp to the comp shop where he said he had the warranty card for this comp. I dunno & dun care whether u understand me.. Haha.. I write in a super complicated & yet weird way, dun u think so.. No wonder I always gt like, C6s, for my EL stuffs in cls with the Teyrorrist..<-Tey Bee Khoon aka Tey Bee Hoon, aka machine gun.. haha.. HIkz.. suddenly I missed her. Haha..

Okie, summary of yesterday’s & today’s stuffs… Yesterday, I highlighted my hair with Burgundy Red… & then… I watched my Princess Diary (the 1st one) VCD… It’s like.. I dunno, I like Michael, the guy who’ll be with Mia at the end of the movie… Hahaha…

Then today, I went out with my cousin (albert) & Bryan (my so-called-‘brother’ during my pri sch days…He’s studying in Johor rite now.. In town for his hols til Jan..).. Well yah, before that, I went out with the family of my mother’s side… for bday lunch for my lil cousin, Mandy.. Aw.. She’s 3 today1 Yeah,.. love her soo much.. (although she hit me a few times with her fake iron (frm the iron board toy) on my head. Hahah. But I dun care, I juz love the way she smiled. Awwww!!!!!!!!

I wondered if telling white lies will be counted as a sin? Hm… Like, I know this is for the good of everyone, that I keep on comin out with excuses & stuffs, like, I didn’t want my dad to be angry abt it… But well, I dunno, I juz cant tell him the truth for the sake of happy moments in da hse. Haha.. I dunno.. I am super lame rite now… But God, will this white lies lead me to hell? Is there any other way that I could do to stop myself frm havin to give him my white lies & yet seein my mom’s side at the same time?

Hm… Yah, aft that, we went out (me, Bet, Bry) playin pool at Green Garden’s billiard pool. I did a sucky job.. Like, at the startin moments, I could hit da balls easily, like.. kind of gracefully & stuffs.. but aft a while, i juz dunno why but the I keep on missin the ball. Bloody me… & like, u can really see the standard between me & the two guys.. They’re like pro.. They can do lotsa style & actions & whatever-u-may-call-it, whereas me.. I dun even know or like… accurately measured the angle etc… Makin feel idiot & dumb. Blame my physics.. Hahaha….

Cant wash my hair although the cgarette smell’s kinda strong on my hair.. ya know, in Indo, billiard pool is a place where u can find most ppl smoke.. Well, like…. It’s not whether u turn bad or what, buut most of em smoke & yah… bloody hell, I smell like hell. Hahaha… I dun quite like it. Haha… Then I bought “Kiamat sudah Dekat”.. It was some sort of a short movie made locally… I watched it once in SCTV for their short movie program.. The story’s kinda simple & yah,, its abt islam stuffs but the main pt of the story struck me quite wow! Like, u know, it shows repentance of a “Islam KTP” <-(like those who admit that they are of a religion but didn’t bother to practice the stuffs taught by the religion)… It’s like.. there’s a great meaning of the story behind it… I juz love stories with great meaning within. Hahhaa.. I am lame.. forgive me…
Read Yasha again this aftnoon… Well, it was a super nice story, considered (by me) as one of the most controversial story, most possible story to become reality etc.. yah, its so scientific & westernized, but one thing abt the story, it emphasized on feelings, killer instinct & brotherly love.. Like, its not ‘cinta’ but ‘kasih’.. Get what I mean>?
I’m gonna bering down da comic to sg.. haha.. Hope u guys enjoy it…(its in Indo btw..)

WOW! I’m fallin in love with indo food. Hahaha… Like, so far, this indo trip I’v eaten:
*Soto Mie
*Pempek palembang.. (aw..!)
*Rendang

Tmr, my grandaunt gonna send me her super2 delicious “Nasi Uduk” Or what u guys call “nasi Lemak”.. Believe me, she’s a suuper great cook!!!!!! Hahaha.. Slrp…! But I’m still waitin for the ultimate one…. KETUPAT SAYUR!! Aw.. the best of all, I’m waitin.. Cant wait til Idu Fitri.. Hahaha.. I wan it now!! Bohhoooohoooo…
(Kath, stop eatin before u cant PK anymore cos u’re gainng weight.. HIkz..) Freakin hot in my hse.. yah, maybe ventilation nt good, but I dunno.. I dun dare to complain, the design of the hse was done by my dad like…. 15 years ago..? hahaha…

I love VJ Daniel… Hahah, he looks super ‘pretty’ rite now.. Like, cool! But I heard he gt this attitude.. Haha, is that for real? Maybe I shld check him out by stoppin by at his shop. Hahaha..

Shall stop my blabberin rite now. I am super noisy.. Hikz.. (T.T!)

Huhuhu… My God is great! Greater than the bloody comp that I’m usin now of coz..
This comp.. Since yesterday until, like, an hour or so ago, it wont work.. Bloody hell, makin me feels frustrated.. like, cos I gt a vector art in progress & yah.. my mom gt lotsa teachin stuffs, with all the formats set up for the kid’s tests, exams etc.. Hahahha….

Aniwae, yah, it’s ok for now… well, we dunno what will happen aft I switch off this comp, but yah.. give thanks to the Great One for this chance.. Amen….

Huhu, had my facial juz now, yah.. my face’s kinda feel pain but one touch is all u need to feel the smoothness. Hahaha.. Yeah… & its kinda cheap.. like,9 bucks… Huhuhu…. Ate Sayur Asem today, yeah.. I dunno why but I guess I’m fallin in love win Indo’s cuisine.. Hehhe… Slrp..!

2nd day into learnin how to ride a bike, bloody hell, I juz cant do it, the moment i put in my 2nd step, yah.. the bike went off to the other side & almost fell. Haha. Hahaha..T.T
My grandma’s maid was havin fun the most, as she watched me throughout the whole learning process, haha, although I still cant do it, but yah, she gt a real good laugh out of it. (I know I looked dumb with all my lame expressions.. haahaaa) U know, kinda feel great if I can say to Beat that I learnt how to ride a bike in Indo, huhu, like.. well, so it will sound as though my Indo trip is fruitful or something liddat.. But well, a week or so to go before I cans ay whether it’s a success or failure.. haahaaha…

I need a scanner now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Argh… Due to the lameness caused by the comp today, I was stuck in my parents’ rm… Watchin MTV Indo & Fashion TV alternately, while drawin some stuffs. Huhu. Yah, did a chara based on Sista, Vic, Beat, Emperor, Max… The rest.. Still on progress.. haha.. Hm.. yah, did some drawin on some other stuffs too, but this one is like, kind of masterpiece to me.. tts why I need a scanner now!! Haha.. but yah.. I dunno, it juz seemed to be such a huge stuffs to me… Like, u know.. I drew ‘dia’ out cos ‘dia’ seemed to disturb my mind 24/7.. Like, almost… ‘Dia’ had beenso long absent frm my life. Hhaaha.. & yah… wherever I go, the words bearin ‘dia’’s image will appear & makes me think even more abt ‘dia’ Rese rite? This is sooooo soooooo disturbin… I dunno.. Hhahahaa…..

U know… I’m missin lotsa ppl already…. Real2 lotsa ppl…. Ppl like overseas & those who’re in Indo too.. But yah, too bad cos they’re like.. super busy.. But still, I’m missin them… Like, Rin, I’m lookin forward to Idul Fitri so that u’re free & everyone’s free to go out barengan. Hehehe… Nanti kita ajak Ephraim, Bryan, albert, Clarissa, etc deh… Huhuhuhuu… I miss my pri sch ppl! Hehehe…….

Haha~
Bought Yamakashi (pirated) DVD juz now.. Wanna buy 'the great challange", bt apparently they still dun hav it.. Hikz... I love da show.. well, cos i wanna be like em.. Yah, i know i cant jump off frm a buildin to a car or what-so-ever too high, too far etc.. yah, hav to be considerate to my female bones.. but yeah... i love to do the stuffs if i can.. heeheee... Missin PK liao!!
argh!! Hav to train myself.. (this is what i say everytime without action)..

aniwae... Juz now in da car on my way hm frm Manggadua.. My mom (bein a chinese teacher who's freak over chinese) tuned in to a chinese radio station... then it played this muslim song... in CHINESE! with arabic tune.. u get what i mean.. hahahah.. so hongnyam!! (kacao).. hahahaha... BUt aniwae... i know the meaning's good.... Like.. some muslim english songs turned out to sound like christian slow worship songs.. hehee....
What on earth is happenin to this world?

Hahaa... okie.. i saw this page of Parfait Tic over the internet.. & yah.. it broke my heart to see Fuko kissin tt bloody playboy Daiya!!! Hey~ I'm like, "bloody gurl... He's a playboi!!!!" Hahhaa.. But aniwae.. that means Ichi's for me!! hahaha. yeah, i told Riana tt maybe Glivis (the guy frm Crystal Dragon manga..)'s position in my heart will be replaced by Ichi. Hahaha...
I am lame.. certainly lame...! hahaha.... Lemme tell u a lil bit of this paragraph's backstory... Well, it stated when i gt this Crystal Dragon craziness... haha, then yah.. i love da chara Glivis.. Haha, he's superrrr cool& deadly. haha.. Then i fell in love with this chara Sei frm Yasha, althoug not so2.. cos he slp around.. hahha. Bloody guy.. now.. ICHI!! Hahahaha.. What the heck siah...
I'm juz jokin. huhuhuhhuhuh......
yah.. but well.... i dunno... Tts juz cool.. the charas.. i mean....

Skrg jd rada kangen ma dia, walau gw ga tau dia lg ngapain, lg mikirn apa, lagi sama sapa, lg ah.. ga tau ah. cuek cuek.. jgn dipikirin. makin mikir makin kangen nanti... haiyah.. hongnyam2...

Hm.. went to ManggaDua today.. It was like yah.. I bought 2 pants, 2 shirts, a belt & hm.. what else ah? Oh.. the Macromedia Studio MX installation & Adobe Creative pack. Huhuuh.. GOnna experiementin stuffs in indo.. hahaha,., Yay, cant keep myself bored these few days yah!
Happy designin huhhu..!~

Lord how I’m amazed by my mom’s strength & spirit.. Hikz…. She’s like… struggling in this life, sufferin all along… But well, she still keep on goin on… now, she even tried earnin a livin, being kinda free frm her economical dependence frm my dad. She even gave me money.. yah… although she didn’t earn much. I mean.. yah.. I cant tell her abt some stuffs like BGr & stuffs cos it will make another burden in her heart. Hahaa.. but surely, if anyone wanna know what a super mom is, pls check my mom out., huhuhu….
Sometimes.. ini tuh salah satu alesan kenapa gw tuh bs dibilank choosy & picky, serious bgt dlm nyari cowo, or menentukan gw suka sapa, krn gw ga mao end up like nyokap gw yg bs digencet2 krn dia ga da penghasilan (waktu dulu). Mungkin ga smua org kyk gt, tp bener2, what I see is what I get, what I see will be posted in my mind forever2 ever, mungkin ini yg disebut trauma, tp emang bener, gw jd takut jg.. Jgn2 gw juga bakal gini.. makanya pikiran buat stay jomblo selamanya muncul mulu… Soalnya cowo jaman sekarang jarang bgt yg bener, yg ideal pasti dah ketemu idealnya juga, jd yah.. mungkin ini emang jalan gw. Huahauaa..
Amen?!

Aniwae, I did try to post an entry last nite which contained stuffs abt Rin’s talk with me on da phone, but yeah, cos of the connection, it was lost along the way (like what Lawrence xperienced tt nite)…
Okie, I repeat k…

She was sayin that I shld try to stop the like feelin toward the ehem2, or at least yah.. pull back more. Cos when u like someone, u tend to behave differently, u conceal ur real self & yah.. think too much way before u even speak out a sentence. Haha.. Does this implied to u? I guess I’m a lil bit of this sometimes.. Like, yah.. freedom is no longer there, I’m kinda holdin back stuffs sometimes… haha.. Well, she did say too that when we like someone, we tend to sound like ‘introgattin’ that person.. Like, well, for example, u keep on askin abt his activities, his current squeeze or what-so-ever under the sun that sometimes makes the guy feels like why-the-hell-u-keep-on-askin-me-are-u-tryin-to-control-me these kind of things. Huhu.. yah I guess I shld think twice abt how I react to stuffs…..

“If he’s worth of our love, u’ll find urself fallin in love with him again & again, even after u are able to stop ur ‘like’ feelings & be a normal friend for him”~ Riana

Hahahaha… Ngerti? Understand? Huhuhuuh.. But well, I guess I shld concentrate on life, God & my stuffs.. havin him here as my guy or as my friend doesn’t make a diff, cos I dun need those hanky panky stuffs.. I dun need those embrace or what-so-ever… hahaa…
(continue #3)

Aniwae, I did try to post an entry last nite which contained stuffs abt Rin’s talk with me on da phone, but yeah, cos of the connection, it was lost along the way (like what Lawrence xperienced tt nite)…
Okie, I repeat k…

She was sayin that I shld try to stop the like feelin toward the ehem2, or at least yah.. pull back more. Cos when u like someone, u tend to behave differently, u conceal ur real self & yah.. think too much way before u even speak out a sentence. Haha.. Does this implied to u? I guess I’m a lil bit of this sometimes.. Like, yah.. freedom is no longer there, I’m kinda holdin back stuffs sometimes… haha.. Well, she did say too that when we like someone, we tend to sound like ‘introgattin’ that person.. Like, well, for example, u keep on askin abt his activities, his current squeeze or what-so-ever under the sun that sometimes makes the guy feels like why-the-hell-u-keep-on-askin-me-are-u-tryin-to-control-me these kind of things. Huhu.. yah I guess I shld think twice abt how I react to stuffs…..

“If he’s worth of our love, u’ll find urself fallin in love with him again & again, even after u are able to stop ur ‘like’ feelings & be a normal friend for him”~ Riana

Hahahaha… Ngerti? Understand? Huhuhuuh.. But well, I guess I shld concentrate on life, God & my stuffs.. havin him here as my guy or as my friend doesn’t make a diff, cos I dun need those hanky panky stuffs.. I dun need those embrace or what-so-ever… hahaa…

Mood: Hyperly happy, overwhelmed etc..
Listenin to: My sacrifice~Creed ; PlusOne (the whole album minus the 2 lame songs)

Lord God, You’re great, awesome etc!! Yeah, thx God!!
Well, u guys must hav been wonderin what the heaven I’m happy abt. Huhuuh… yah, it’s like, the comp (which I’m usin now) was kinda weird.. or showin its weird symptom since this aftnoon. Well, I’d on da adaptor & the CPU was blinkin but da monitor was kinda stuck up, (the light that was supposed to light up all the time blinkin, which indicated the unalbility of the monitor to show some graphic stuffs..) I was bloody stressed up yah…
It was like, I’m supposed to go out with Rin, but I guess she aint got car to fectch me & yah.. I guess her SAT test was kinda hard…God, pls bless her ya.. Huhuhuhu…
Well, aniwae… currently listenin to the pirated version of PlusOne stuffs. Hahaha.. Okie, so.. yah, I tried to open the casing of the CPU, tried unpluggion the monitor & unscrewed the graphic card twice.. Yah, at 1st it worked & there’s words appearin on the comp… but it asked me to restart the comp due to some whatever-it-is-reason then it came to the same weird condition.. hahaha
So yah, I’m stucked up, frustrated that I found myself prain hard, with Tongue.. yah, I can hear that my prayer sounds soo despo (although I dun even know what I’m mumbling abt, yah.. very few ppl understand the Tongue rite? I dun)… Aft tt, I unscrewed the CPU again, the graphic card again.. & well.. the same thing happened again like what happened at the 1st attempt, but well. This time its different at the end.. THE WINDOWS WAS WORKIN OKAY AFT I RESTARTED IT! Yeah, blesss Ya God! Huhuhu, He’s great dude! U shld be thankful that our Father in Heaven is awesome..! WoW!!!!

(continued..#1)

Hm....
A chnage of mood rite now.. (Cos i juz gt back frm a book store with my parents, & like, cos my mom need sot buy som stuffs but ended up i bought 7 comics.. < with my own money k)

talkin to Riana yesterdauy abt lotsa stuffs... frm, 'ehem2', to ideal guy,to sch frens, to Bush, to Paris hilton, to Shu Qi, to Indo prez, to corruptors to etc. hahaha...
yah,. basically, she aught me lotsa stuffs that i will mentioned next time due to my internet limitation. Huhuhu..
but well, yah, i guess u guys will belive in this too..

Hahaha..
Here I am lamin in da comp room. Bloody hell, feelin damn stuck up rite now.. Aniwae, yah, I’m gonna write whassup yesterday…

I was super duper relaxin.. haha, packed up my stuffs (while chattin at the same time) around 11++ a.m…. Went to the airport around 1+++ p.m. and reached there almost 2.. haha.. yah, met XingJie, his Bombay (ask him why he called her tt) & Max at the BK. Haha.. Ordered a Double Swiss Mushroom & yah.. went up a while to check in for the ticket. Met WeiShan, GQ & Joel at the 1st floor on my way to gate 3.. yah, so checked in with bobby (my indo fren frm TP BIT) & yah.. met up with the others… Vic was there, Freddy was there too. Aw.. so sweet.. hahaha.. yah, Mud was late so I didn’t meet him cos da lame flight had to go early… HIkz, haha, so sad he came for nothing, sittin on da bus, only to missed me.. hahaa.. nvm then, I’m sorry, so so sorry Mud. Hahaha…. Aniwae, I love u guys, u guys took the time to come & send me off, which was very2 new to me, aha, like, I feel so touched, aw… Sista (WeiShan) scared tt I might not be able to come back to sg, which is kinda possible, unless my dad wants himself bein burdened by the fees of 3 yers course, which is impossible cos he aint gonna spend his money away liddat. Haha… I dunno, lemme juz pray for the Lord to work out his plan within me…


Well, the flight was kinda on time.. wow, which was surprisingly surprised me (what the…), cos usually, Thai was always laaateeeee!... Bobby & I were talking abt our previous schs when I mentioned abt my mom’s job as a primary Chinese sch teacher. Haha, I told him that she teaches at Sunter (which coincidently is where he lived).. Haha, we brushed off the possibility of my mom teachin in his previous sch until my dad said it is.. Hahaa, how lame this world can be. It’s a damn small world with a damn lotsa ppl livin on it.. hahaha…

Welll…… wake up kinda late today, around 11.. Then ate my lunch, helped my mom to take care of her tuition students as she went upstairs to change her clothes & do other stuffs. Hahaha….

Yah well, feelin a lil bit stuck up now… Why on Earth is money’s tt important in someone’s life? I’m like.. well.. God, I hate the fact that money controls my da (Germans for father). Its like.. well, when we’re touchin stuffs which involves money around there, yah,, he’ll giv me tt kind of shut-up-u-know-how-hard-i-try-to-earn-money tt kind of thing…
Its like, I dunno. I cant blame him in this way because rite now I’m usin his money all the time (yah, there’re so many things tt I need & want to buy)… He doent bother to work or to do business, all he wants is juz countin on the stocks market tt’s unstable all the time.. (well, he juz came into this room, talking abt the money he’d spent for us, talking abt how we should reduce usin his money, sayin that yah.. earnin money is hard & so on…can u spare me of tt? Bloody hell, u’re juz usin an excuse of how I shld go on diet, when all u want to say is “stop goin to mall for dinner cos I know u’re gonna end up there buyin ur comics & stuffs…”)…

This comp is makin me sick as well. Bloody comp! Da mouse position is wrong1 I cant even draw a straight line out of it.. hwo to practice my vector art? Bloody me@!!!!!!!
The bloody photoshop is version 6.0, its really2 makin me feel like a damn bloody handicapped.. ahahaha… I guess I’m crazy rite now..!

Gat au ah, pokonya gw tuh bener2 ga tau mao gimana lagi, gw ga sampe ati blg ke org2 that mungkin gw ga bakala beli something buat mereka sbg oleh2 dr indo, karena gw gat au whether bokap gw bakal ngambek besar ga kl dia tau or what… I dunno, things like this tuh bener2 bikin gw pusink. Mungkin emang gw maonya banyak, mungkin emang gw anak yg gat au diri, mungkin emang gw tuh bukan anak yg bae buat bokap gw, unlike my bro, yg bisa ga beli barang buat biar bokap gw seneng…
Gw tau gw ga bakalan bisa ngasilin duit buat ngebiayain apa yg mao gw beli, apa yg perlu gw beli, gw cuman bergantung ma bokap.. Tp di satu sisi gw ga bs ga pake duit dia.. Gw ngerasa bersalah bgt, gw gat au what to do.. Ini bener2 affect gw karena gw tuh guilt conscience bgt.. Gw pengen idup di dunia yg bener ga pelru duit, yg smua orgnya share whatever they hav with each other tnapa the presence of duit all around. Am I juz too naive or what? Gw tuh bener2 cape, knp loe lecture gw ttg duit mulu, knp loe bikin gw merasa gw ga da masa depan ngambil subject yg gw ambil? Knp? Knp?!
Knp loe selalu harus ngerendahin sodara2 gw yg ga blajar kyk gw di sg? Knp loe selalu mao mikir kalo loe yg plg bener? Knp di idup ini harus ada seseornag yg gw sayangin yg begitu mikirin duit sampe2 waktu gw ajak dia ke sg, dia blg dia ga mao, mao di indo aja untuk nyari duit buat gw org. knp loe ngmg ngebikin gw ngerasa bersalah bgt?! Knp gw dilahirin di dunia ini? Gw bs gilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa…!

God, I really2 need U rite now… Pls show me the way… The rite way for me to act, to think, to talk, to pls & to do whatever that is rite in Ur eyes, & in my da’s eyes… Gw ga tau gw musti ngapain… Rumah ini udah bener2 penuh dgn kebencian, gw ga ngerasa gw pengen tinggal di sini lagi. Kasian nyokap gw, kaisan smuanya, pokonya.. Gw gat au gmn deh.. Yg pasti gw juga ngerasa bersalah krn gw telah ninggalin nyokap gw di indo, gw sama dd2 di sg skul.. Kasian nykp gw snedirian harus nahan diri ngehadepin bokap gw yg udah berubah jd org laen. Gw jg gat au gmn gw bs ngehadepin minggu dpn waktu nyokap gw ada di sg, & gw tinggal berdua bareng bokap.. Pembokat dah plg kampung gw bakalan ‘mati’, mati mental.. Gw mls mikirinnya…

Huhuhu...~
Today's kinda bad day to start with..
Okay, last nite i did a vector art on.... Haha, view my
vector drawin at http://kathkucing.deviantart.com..
Come on, guess who.. Hahahaa...
Then it was arnd 4 a.m tt i slp, so well..i woke up
late for the DSL meetin, which really pissed XingJie off...
I really understand how he feels, & yah.. he left before i
reached (to meet bombay, Abel said).. I'm soo damn bloody sorry..
HIkz....

Then... yah.. gossiped a lot with Abel, Stan & Ingrid. Hhaha..
yah u know.. the most interestin stuffs on Earth. Haha...
I love u god for bringin wonderful friends to my life...
But well, feels kinda lousy cos of my GPA. bloody low..
Wait2.. its 2.79! Haha. okie lah....

Went to Tampines Mall aft tt.. Findin present for Teguh..
Hehe, yah, he treated us (the Kuat Pukaters) for a bday dinner,
which sounds more like a farewell dinner, since ci Jeanne announced
her decision to leave us & go to Melb.. Haha, whereas the ever-crazy
pukat leader my Michelle bochel.. she'll be leavin for Seattle...
hikz.... Yah... Gt him a Converse bag...(price shared between the Kuaters)

Met Frida aft tt, aniwae, she'd be goin to Ps as well so yah, we went there
together.. hahhaaha...
Another round of 'the most interestin stuffs on earth' came resurfaced in
our conversation. Yah, i wonder why gurls really droll over this topic.. or
maybe guys too? Its juz a matter of time in a meetin for ya to open
ur mouth & say the golden openin words to start off this topic.. agree?

In PS, since i'm like, earlier by anrd 1 hour or so... then went with Frida to
meet her friends.. which turns out to be Evelyn my fake ZhaoWei aka Vicky Zhao..
Haha.. + another guy named BUdi. haha.. Hm.. Then they went off watchin
Sharks Tale while me walkin to Fish & Co. next to ParkMall...

Ppl who came:
* Bday boi, Teguh
* MIchelle
* Ci Jeanne
* Steven
* Genevieve
* Irene
* Catherine
* Vera
* Susan
* me, Kath

Haha.. yah.. I ate the swordfish collar which is really2 huge in size...
bloody full Hahaha.. Yah, but lovin it....
I guess stingray will be a better choice then.... ( provided IF i gt the
money to eat there) Gaggaahahahha...

JOrney hm frm there to Yio Chu Kang mrt, was arnd 1 hr ++...
& yah..... reached hm..saw my band of bandits at hm playin
FIFA 2005, what the hell with da title siah? Its not even 2005 yet..
Hahhaa.... BUt aniwe.. the graphicz for da game is really2 gd.. haha...
Wanna pack my stuffs but my guardian slpt already.. she hates noise so i guess
it'll be done tmr then.. hahaha...

Yah.. Well, maybe its time to think abt what would i do in da future..
Cant say its a future, cos sooner of later it'lll be 'now'...
I really wish i could say securely on what i wannado...
Its like.. sayin with everyone that we're gonna be the best of the best
is somehow easier than doin in on hands.. I saw much more ppl doin my
stuffs lotsa more better than me.. Yah.. come to think abt it...
U know God how much i'v tried to do it... Pls open a awy for me,
show me the direction i'm on & yah.... Juz bind me with Ur love forever..

Lately I'v been noticin tt there's 'somethin' in my boardin hse...
I dun really liek talkin abt this, esp i blog it at nite, but hey yah.. I guess it is there..
My youngest bro claimed he could 'see' sometimes...
My cus said he's 'disturbed'
& me.. yah.. i guess it disturbed me last nite too...
But hell! In da name of Jesus! Whatever u are.. My God is greater than u!
Amen!

HOhoho.. Juz gt back frm da airport..
Fetched my bro back. He took ValueAir which arrived arnd
11 30.. Bloody late for any bus or MRT. hikz.. Waste the $20...
Bloody ex.. Haha, how i wish i could hav a car here & some galvanished
armoured guy who could drive me all around. Bullshit lah. haha...
NO such thing...

Well.. Found a gift to Riana aka Airin.. Its a nice stuffs, she can wear it
but i wont disclosed it until i gave it to her.. (in case she read this blog &
she found out, it wouldnt be a surprise anymore..)
Bought a One PIece toys for my lil bro. huhu, Guess what, cos we cant
decide what we get, then i randomly choose the bos, with a prayer tt whatever
it may be, pls juz dun giv me the bad guys.. haha.. My bro gt Zorro. hahaha..

Today i met lotsa ppl. Hahaha.. What happened siah?
Its like.. i saw KUMAR on the escalator at Far East...
Bernard outside of HMV, Pauline NIng (my GL) at PS, MIa & Veli at Ps..
Haha.. Didnt know tt we (youth IFGF) Havin this gurls' outiing.. Haha..
Ate Thai Express juz now, but no appetite so i ordered a thai ice tea instead
while stealin the sour spicy soup frm Feny. huhuhu.. & guess what.. the whole
journey to airport.. my bloody stmach feels FUNNY. hahahaa...

It was me, ci Jeanne, Feny, Veli, cewenya Wei2, i forgot the name. hiks... & Mia.
BUt aft dinner, mia & veli left so yah.. we went to Gelate (or whatever the name
is) & ate ice cream waffel. Huahuaa. While talkin, chattin & discussin...
Well. Kinda feel 'enriched' Hehehee.. Now i know tt life isnt juz a bed of rose
(dude, i know tt ever since before. it's juz tt..well.. i guess reality struck
everyone..)I tt i was weird... but now i know tt Ci Jeanne was normal i & feel
normal because of her.. Haha, u dun hav to know what we're talkin abt.
GUrl's talk....

I love u feny, u will get my support k? I'll support u in prayers...
Aniwae.. prayin for Oliv & all the others who'll take their english O tmr..
Ganbatte kudasai ppl!

Hehehe.... Wake up kinda late, kinda late for my dentist
who turns out to make me wait for like, 1 hour & when i
gt into the room, it took her for, like, less than 2 minutes
to do all she needs for the braces. haha. What de...

Aniwae... My life's gettin more & more interestin, like what
Riana da Airin said, "ur life is really2 interestin! I wont get bored
listenin to all ur life stories. huhuhu.."
At 1st, i had this thought in my mind that i would take the money
frm my drawer 1st to pay for the dentist... Then i saw the wallet,
took it but put it back as i tt" what's the use? i wont even be usin
the ATM card aniwae..."
Then i walked towards the bus stop, i sat & waited for the bus happily,
like "still gt time.. huhuhu".. Then the bus came, i flagged for the bus,
it stopped & i was tryin to get the EZlink out frm my pocket when i realized...
I DIDNT BRING THE DAMN MONEY!!! Haha... How to pay for the fees?
Well, i stupidly walked back towards my hm when the idea came to me tt i
shld at least call em to ask if the payment hav to be made today.. Hahaha..
I called & they say.. "no..." Bloody hell! Hahaha....

Then i waited for the bus..
it took sooo long to came, i was late..
then in da bus...becoming ver very late...
Alighted frm the bus,
waited for 76/135...very very very late....
board 135, ver very very very late...
reached Glory Dental care, super very very very very late.. Hahaha...

MOral of my story:
Pls dun trust my instinct.. Its very bad... Or maybe my instinct is ok, but my
judgement is poor. Or maybe i dun trust myself, but well.. Pls whatever i said,
juz do the opposite way.. haha. Well, not WHATEVER i'v said, but when
i'm givin u doubt.. dun listen to my rubbish.. Hehehe..

Isnt it interestin? God has a plan for me & God has a plan for u. I haven fully
uncovered what are those, hav u?
Stay in focus, & you'll find more interestin to come...
Amen?!

Aw~ I feel sooo Zibei now.. (as in.. losing my confidence..now..)
Yah... i saw ppl's art in tt deviantart.. & guess what? I really hav to be
startin everythin all over again. Well, yah.. i guess no time for romance,..!
Life is not a box full of chocolate (is my sentence rite? or did i rephrase it
badly?), you cant expect some sort of great beautiful love story like those
Frans & Amara kind... those comic book love stories.. Huahuaa.. Nah, this is
reality, no such thing will happen to me, or i guess, i'm not da rite person for
it.. Maybe Lilie yah.. hahahaha....

I am LAME rite now......! Juz watch The CHampion (remember da ch 8 show
abt swimming stuffs, with Toro, Jeannete Aw & stuffs inside?)... & i feel so
stuck up while watchin gurls who drool herself over this guy who definitely
is with another gurl... What the.... Usin force to kiss daguy, act cute pretend to
faint etc.. Ew... Disgustin...
Another one.. stupid dumbass type of gurl who likes to play with fire, loves to
tease da guy but dun wan the guy. I mean, wake up gurls in da world (if you
happen to be fall on this category), u gurls hav much more worth than this.. Its like,
where're ur pride, where's ur 'harga diri'? I'd rather die being spinster than doin
this stuffs & God pls help me, by hook or by crook, for me to keep my words...
Hahaha....

Hey~ Juz remembered,,..
i watched this Discovery CHannel show on 'mini elephant'...
Do u guys know abt it? OKie lemme share this with u...

Its like, it was showing the stories, like those "urban legend"
that soem travellers died as soon as they were pulled out frm the water
in Thailand, soemwhere around there... On his body, they found lotsa
those like vampire fangs bites.... It turns out to be those water 'mini
elephants'.. Believe me ppl, i dun even believe the scene when they showed
those thai villagers tryin to sell the remains of mini elephant, as small as ur palm..
Then a grp of scientist in da tv showed some MRI scan test & X ray...
Guess what.... Within the dried mini elephants, i can see lotsa vertebrae bones...
like, 8 of em, (norm huge elephant has like, 16 of em).... & well... yah.. those
elephants were of palm size, mini, small, micro & with tusks... I cant believe,
i juz couldnt believe what i saw... I my 17 yers of life, i saw a mini elephant..
Wow..!